Soul Mates, Twin Flames and other Flames… for Evolving Souls.
Jeeva Nadhi had thousands of desires and dreams to meet the sea one day
The sea encouraged Jeeva Nadhi to flow faster and stronger
The whispers of the sea echoed as a calling which gave her hopes and joy
Whatever happened how much the journey is going to be hard…Jeeva Nadhi didn’t want to stop
Never wanted to give up
She kept sacred the love and devotion that flows through her waters for the far away sea
Jeeva Nadhi needed to get embraced in the arms of the sea and let herself lost in beautiful waters of the sea for eternity
Alas..on a darkest day
the joyful Jeeva Nadhi lost the love of the sea
Sea became rough and stormy
And she realised that throughout her journey she had been chasing a mirage that pretended to be a sea that showed love for her
So all her hopes shattered
She couldn’t bear the heavy rains of pain
Her waters of tears overflowed
And finally Jeeva Nadhi dried and stopped her journey as she lost her jeeva (life) which used to be the sea
But one day a fountain will get its birth giving Jeeva Nadhi her spirit back
Beginning a new journey towards a destination of true pure and eternal love
I smell the fragrance
Of the dreams
That we lived in together
I taste the sweetness
Of the fantasies
That we lost ourselves in together
You took me to a wonder world
That we walked along together
You brought me back to life
That I thought I’ll lose forever
Your heart fuelled with my blood
My soul shined with your glow
My lungs filled with your breath
You lived in my core
This world is so beautiful
It belongs to you and me
I won’t live forever
Don’t take it
away from me
(The Gift – movie with Cate Blanchet, 2000.)
This is very much how I experience reality. Except, I actually talk to other people. I can prevent rapes and murders as well as save lives in other ways. I have been saving lives since I was in college. I was always psychic and had spirit guides since early childhood. I was injured in the military and had my near death experience under anesthesia for surgery. After that, I could no longer turn off my abilities. I had to learn to not only live with them but to aid,help and heal other souls, people. That is what I have been doing for tweny five years.
My first Near Death Experience was in 1969. My mother had a dream that I was killed in an automobile accident. While we were passengers in a car, my mother’s cousin driving, a drunk driver ran a red light. My mother recalled the dream instantly, broke my flight into the windshield. She sustained a coma for a few days, broke both legs, broke lumbar vertebra, cracker her forehead and almost died. I was out of body, watching the ambulance take my mother’s body out of the wreckage. I was told that I had to live so that my mother would have a reason to live. My mother was pregnant with my first sibling. He was born within a month later. Of course if my mother died, he would have died.
All of my childhood, I had spirit guides. My father’s father had introduced me to our ancestors when I was two years old. I had regular astral experiences and teachings. My first partner was also part Native American as I am. She had dreams with her mother and sister growing up. So, we had astral experiences with each other, including merging into the Light.
I have been astral and psychic my entire life. I recall choosing my mother in the sixties. I had and have regular visitations by people who have died. Many times, in my early twenties, I would be in a social situation and a deceased astral being would communicate through me. Often, I was saying things that did not make sense to me but made sense to someone else. I had to learn to handle this state of being. That meant, I had to meditate and handle being in control of my own mind, my thoughts as well as feelings and emotions. It was overwhelming to hear, see and feel spirits. Yet, learning to discipline my self and will power enabled me to handle my abilities throughout the rest of my adult life.
H0wever, because of being ultra sensitive, extrasensitive, I had always written in journals since high school. Though I do not keep those journals over time, I began typing them out to write books. I see visions which are color and three dimensional. I hear voices – male and female. In the astral, I have conversations with astral beings. I have been waking people up in the astral since I was in college. I began training groups in the mid-1990s.
I often say, as many psychics say, “It is a blessing and a curse.” Not everyone can handle the extrasensory experiences. Many people escape in many ways-drugs and religion even science. Keeping their minds busy, they avoid and ignore their own extrasensory senses. However, when I was a child my mother used to say, “If you do not pay attention and listen to your guidance, bad things will happen.” Sure enough, bad things happened. I almost tied more than once before I let go of avoiding and ignoring my guidance. I became a teacher because of the importance of extrasensory perception and experience is of great value, even actually our survival depends upon our senses and extrasensory senses. I would not be alive without them today. Neither would a lot of people, many I know as I have saved their lives whether they know it or not. I am not bragging. People need to learn that these gifts are real, valuable and can save lives.
Namaste,
Jedhi
Due to my lucid (conscious of the subconscious) awarness in my lucid dream with my elders last night, mainly my fraternal grandfather, I am here now cracking the code while mediating on ideals of love, life giving (to self, others… chain reaction), unconditional love, no space memories that whip and frame connections, the self, the holdings, releasings, and awarness of the unconditional- be it love! just wanted to share what I really think about, write about, revisit, am driven by. If more people knew how to got themselves to Unconditional Love there would be a lot less: cancers out there, fewer ‘ Aleppo’s ‘, no trumps, no bernies, etc- etc.
I don’t give a flying elephant about my political correctedness- used to maybe back when I, then a wide eye high school junior, worked out my handshakes in the Press Office for then NYC Mayor Rudolph Giuliani, who America now finally understands as someone who is morally corrupt and connected to equally corrupt FBI agents- the worst of the best. Best Medicine of your life- free your mind— the world is a more intense & magical and the heart stronger than some- or, most dare to give it credit for. Love unconditionally. Whatever it fucking takes. Because the decision cannot me made for you. You were not born a slave, in fear for your heart- you owe it to yourself to die free. 12/17–18/16
In May 2014, I meditated on opening to be guided to my final partner. I had been isolating myself from social life whilee I was single for three and a half years by that time. I have meditated since I was a child, had guidance in dreams, astral experiences and guidance by members of both sides of my family. I was blessed to be with my first partner because we shared dreams and both had the same experience of merging as astral beings in the Light. However, being psychic has never been easy.
First, as a child, I loved my life at night in dreams and the astral. I thoroughly enjoyed learning in my sleep. Yet, the psychic events of the day was intense for me. Being a child is extrasensitive normally but to be extrasensory perceptive is overstimulating and overwhelming. To learn to discern the difference between physical and non-physical objects can be painful. As a toddler, I was always walking into walls and other hard barriers. When I was young, I thought that I had hit my forehead so many times that my head was hardened like steel. My head has hit and broke a 1069 VW Squareback in head on collision. Funny that my head was not bleeding though I had a concussion, blacked out and was temporily paralyzed. That was a very scary period when I could have become a quadraplegic. My neck injuries effected me since that time. I had told my friends in high school that I was going to die in a car accident by the time I was nineteen. Well, I lived through it and many other narrow escapes. Or, as I like to refer them as the times my Guides sent me back for more of this life. Besides that, being in my body has been a very oversensitive, overstimulating and overwhelming experience. I was sent to Marcy Calhoun, a local psychic, for meditation training as a teen ager. It was well known that I was psychic in my family but in the world, it meant nothing. People outside my family were oblivious.
As far as being in the world, I was peceived as intelligent and even genius. I was a star student, performer in music and sports, and later at work. Decades later, I would be considered an Honoray Scientist for a Non Profit Scientific Research group for my work in correlating Astral Experiences with Physics. In that sense, it would seem that I would be a highly productive and career oriented person. However, though I had been accepted in Science as a Psychic for my abilities and knowledge, I also felt misunderstood most of the time. Some of the Scientists understood me because they had studied psychics like me for decades. Judith Orloff, M.D. is also one one of the Psychics who was stuidied and she became a Psychiatrist after accepting her Psychic abitlities as real, necessary and useful as a means of healing clients. I first read her book Second Sight when in came out in the nineties. I recommend it because she want through some of the same fears and dreads I went through as a Psycihc.
I have written about my college friend Mala who committed suicide. We would meet at coffee shops. We were both telepathic with each other. We were both intelligent, logical and intersted in discovering the scientific basis of explaining our astral experiences. I have a smile on my face when I recall that we would be at a college party in a corner comparing and contrasting leaving our bodies, floating through the ceiling and shifting through space and time–past, present and future realms of experience. We were the only two students around us who could and would speak about these extrasensory experiences.
Mala was in the Art Department. I was in the Philosophy Department. Most of my friends were artists taking Art classes. All of my closest friends were very talented artists. As one of the talented artists, she was multitalented. Though all my friends were talented her intelligence was on par with mine. I was charting the axis between past, present and future. I was concerned about being able to handle my extrasensory perceptions. I was studying the Ancient Philosophers–especially the Platonic School of Metaphysics. I had studied science since I was in third grade. Harold Houdini was one of my Spirit Guides. He would guide me to books in the public library. I was nine years old seeking the scientific explanation for creation. In college, Mala and I were studying theories such as the Holographic Universe and Parallel Dimensions of Space and Time.
It was at that time, I had been having Life Reviews where I had been shown my life as a child through to my college years as well as past lives and then I was having future lives. My experiences in the Space Time was so visceral that I was waking up forgetting my name, age and not recognizing my self. I kept a journal and took copious notes. To this day, I have taken notes on my Spiritual Journey. When I am shifting through deep core soul changes, I take notes. When I am having calm and stable experience of life, I do not take notes. I recall the highlights of the dreams of my entire life such as choosing my mother before I was born. This used to drive my mother nuts. While Mala and I were discovering the meaning of our astral experiences using scientific methodology, she told me that she was my Twin Soul. She told me that we met at the wrong time, a minute off the timeline. According to Mala, I was supposed to meet her before I met her best friend who was standing a few feet away from her when I introduced myself at a Halloween party in 1991. That would be Fall of 1993. At that time, I had been waking to my Life Purpose as a Light Being.
The night I had been called to be informed of her suicide, I dreamt that she came to me as a Light Being wearing a White Wedding Dress wearing black Dr. Marten boots. Three angels were singing.
“Don’t ya feel dead…
When you’re lying
In your bed
Don’t ya feel dead…
When you’re surrounded
By good friends
Don’t ya feel dead…
When the voices in your head
Scream and your mouth
Can’t make a sound….
Don’t you feel…
Don’t you feel…
Don’t you feel…
Dead
In your head…”
I kept waking up to write the words from my dream. Then, I would go back to sleep. I missed the funeral but her life long best friend was there with all of our mutual friends. She told Mala’s mother that she had a dream that Mala came to her in a dress and told her she was saying her last “Good bye.” I was driving from New Mexico on my way to Northern California. Everyone knew that I was trying to get home so I was given the message when I arrived. During the days after her death, I had regular out of body experiences. Other astral beings were showing up at the edge of my bed to take me out to fly.
I would see them at the edge of my bed and then I would leave my body. I would pass through the wall behind my bed and walk out the doorway in the kitchen and fly above the Sonoma vineyards– a gorgeous view from above. I love California. I cried nearly every day. Though I was astral traveling with Shamans around the world, being in the world without a flying partner who was a real in the flesh person I could share my discoveries was like I died myself. At a certain point in time, she came back to me as an astral being. Her astral being brought me through the holographic memories of her life. She showeed me why she felt alienated and isolated in her childhood around her family and friends. She was showing me that she could no longer handle the lonliness. She brought my astral being back to my body and then her Light merged into my Light. That was the last time she was a seperate being. Since that time, she has been part of my being.
The last time we talked was in the summer of 1994. I met with her to tell her that I was heading off out of state to go to graduate school. I knew that she was till healing from this Spiritual Crisis we both were experiencing. We were between worlds. We both felt misunderstood and both of us were trying to understand the meaning of our lives. She said, “You are the lucky one.” She had everything. Her parents ran a winery. She had a gorgeous view of the vineyards from her room which had a balcony. For all intent purposes, she lived like a princess. When I was in her room above the vineyard that summer, she said, “Do you thin we are angels?” She was reffering to our Light Beings. I said, “I do not know.” She asked me to live with her and her best friend. I was speechless. The three of us were so psychic with each other. I could not see us being able to handle being together in the same house. I could only see us all having this Spiritual Crisis together and not being able to make sense out of what we were experiencing. I was going off following my dreams. I had dreams with shamen who were guiding me to mentors who could, would and did give me the guidance I needed to ground my expanded awareness and burgeoning knowledge of astral realms and being psychic.
In Decmeber 1994, I got the call that changed my life and essentially changed my Spiritual Journey. The fear of abandonment and rejection had propelled me to steer clear of relationnship. Although I did have a girlfriend, she could not understand me in the ways I needed to feel and be understood. For her, she understood my extrasensory experiences were real. I had seen her deceased mother floating above her bed the first night spent at her place in college. She never told me her mother died in her teens. Seeing her mother and describing her was proof. All of my close friends knew my dreams and visions could come true. Although it was understood that I was psychic, no one understood my pscychic pain the way Mala understood me. We were sharing this pain of feeling seperated from everyone else. We both experienced extrasensory experience of being astral beings who are awake and aware of astral beings arounds us who are unaware and alseep. To us, it was as if we were surrounded by zombies. Yet, her death caused me to pause and consider a request she made of me. She had asked me to heal her. I did not understand how she knew I could heal her when she was alive. Yet, I was learning that I had power that heal others and I was practicing on my girlfriend while we were together. I just did not not understand that would become my Life Purpose–to heal astral beings. Her death was the pivotal point. I understood.
In my first relationship, my partnership opened me to accept the Meaning of Life-Love. I realized that the reason to live and not risk myself dying by living at the edge in order to release my body and enter the astral and die was Being in Love. That was my first major Soul Lesson. I have had many Soul Lessons like everyone else has had them. Yet, the Core of My Being needed to accept Being Human. Being In Love made being Human acceptable. However, the next Soul Lesson I learned was that Facing Pain of Being in Love is necessary. I could not avoid or ignore it. Being Psychic made me more extrasensory sensitive. Being able to sense through the astral being of a partner, see visions of my partner’s memories, feel the feelings and emotions of a partner’s past, present and future was beyond durable I felt. I was avoiding being engaged with another partner, an astral being. Her death forced me to face the fact that avoiding and ignoring the Pain of Being in Love was dangerous and self-anhilating. I understood: even if I avoided and ignored a relationship, I was going to feel the merging in the astral even if and when a partner left the body-died.
I have been reading Judith Orloff’s book recently again because she went through the Psychic Pain. The pain of feeling, sensing, and otherwise experiencing the pain of others caused her to avoid and ignore her Psychic Senses in high school. I did that same. I was on a quest to anhilate the Psychic Pain. But I fell in Love. Love healed me to the point that I had a Reason to Live. I knew that Love was the Cure. I did not know that I could be in love again but I knew that it was imperitive that I Opened my Heart to Love. After losing the Love of my Life, losing Mala as a human being, Being in Love with other Soul Mates and a few Soul Flames, I found myself letting go of the Psychic Pain of Being in Love again in 2014.
In May 2014, I opened my Heart again. And, the Psychic Pain felt like my entire body was in fire, for months. For several months, I felt burining pain the degree I could not sleep. I saw White Light whenever I closed my eyes. I could not dream except a few times. I was triggered to experience deep core soul memories of pain by meeting a few soul mates. At a certain point, I had meditated to the point where I merely felt burning pain in my heart. Then, I met another potential partner. I had begun to share the depths of my self as a Psychic. Yet, I felt her response was intelligent, emotionally intelligent and intuitive but I felt that she could not understand the Psychic Pain I was sensing from her own Psychic Pain. I was feeling and sensing the Psychic Pain she was carrying. I felt she was hiding it from me and the world. I felt that she could not discuss her Psychic Pain because it seemed that she couild not understand mine. That triggered me to the Core of Psychic Pain. I could not handle the intensity of the Psychic Pain.
I had been meditating on how to communicate the deeper Core Psychic Pain with a potential partner before we met. Yet, the more I opened to the Psychic Pain to share it, the more I felt. I became oversensitive, overstimulated, overwhelmed. By the time we were beginning to discuss the issue of being intuitive, psychic and astral, both of us were not able to communicate through our own fear of seperation. The intense emotions welling in me caused me to let her know I could not handle communicating. I was doing the best I could to handle my Psychic Pain but it hit me like me like a Tsunami. I was under the waves and holding onto my breathing. All I could do was meditate on the Psychic Pain coming in waves into my heart.
As I was meditaing on healing my own Psychic Pain, I began to feel her Psychic Pain. And, over the course of weeks, I felt our Hearts merge in the Astral. Within two months, I dreamt about a past life. I did not know who the Chinese man was in my dreams. Her voice came through and said, “How do you feel me now?” I said, “I feel you inside me.” I woke up realizing that I had felt the full astral merge. I had understood that my astral being had been merging with hers in the Light. Although the Pscyhic Pain had shifted into feeling merged and blissful, I would feel periods of Psychic Pain in my heart. I felt that we were both healing in parallel. Our astral beings were merged and we were both healing our Hearts in the astral. Within a few months, I had a dream where she showed me her Psyhchic Pain of feeling misunderstood. I awoke and I knew. I understood.
We were sharing the same pain I had shared with Mala. We were sharing the Psychic Pain of feeling alone and isolated in feeling understood from the Core of our Souls. We both had shared enough for me to realize that we were sharing from our Core Soul Beings. She had pointed out that we were merging before I realized that it was happening. I was waiting for her to tell me what was happening because of my Psychic Pain. I was terrified that I would be abandoned and rejected for sensing her Pyschic Pain. I mean, I knew that I could feel her Psychic Pain but I did not think that she would understand me if I shared that with her. I was holding back from sharing what I was sensing and feeling about and from her. I felt when she became afraid of me abandoning and rejecting her. I felt the moment that we were both feeling the same fear. That same fear caused us both to retract, emotionally shit down at the same time. And, then we were not able to communicate. Yet, I knew what was happening yet could not break through my own emotional block from communication.
Since that time, I began to work through breaking through my emotional patterns of emotional withholding. I have been moving through breaking all emotional patterns of not being able to verbalize my fear of being criticised, judged and being feared for being Psychic. I am extending my sense of being in fear of being misunderstood for being Psychic. The divide of being able to explain things to a partner is a steeper ravine. Being able to tell a partner that I can and do experience not only visions of the past or the future or of deceased loved ones but that I also experience being those other beings. I can experience the entire lifetime of another astral being.-dead or alive. I can experience memories being formed by a partner. In other words, I can sense and feel where she is at another location, what she might feel, think, say or do. I can experience a partner as Another Myself.
I had meditated asking my Light Being to guide me to the Other Myself, my Twin Flame on and off since I was in college when I was in my twenties. However, I did not know what I know now. I had to experience several Soul Mates and a few Soul Flames. I had to understand the depth of the experiences of astral merging, sharing mutual dreams, sharing astral experiences. I had to fine tune my awareness and understanding being finely attuned to my partner’s awareness. I had to open my Heart to merging entirely, ongoing, comitted to continuing to cross the division between Self and Other. And, that means accepting, acknolwedging and experiencing the Psychic Pain of the Beloved. It meansing being able to continue to express Love, opening to deeper Love, and sharing the depth of Our Hearts as a Couple, Equal and Together.
The Psychic Pain of fear of seperation from feeling sensed, felt, heard, witnessed, understood is immense. To accept that we can be sensed from an extrasensory sensory experience of being merged in the astral is an immense self-acknowledgement of our sensience as beings created by the Source. It means, we are One with God, Great Spirit, the Cosmos. Overcoming the fear of seperation from the Beloved opens us to become One between Self and Other and God. This is a very super sensitive experience is the greatest bliss and yet between moments of bliss, there are moments of terror of loss. That is what caused the end of my first relationship within the year of merging in the Light. It caused me to avoid a relationship which ended in a suicide. And, it has been causing me to be single since 2014. Yet, I know that I have been merged in the astral and in the Light. I know that I will cross the divide at some point in time and space. It will happen. I wil get beyond the divisions of time and space.
It is happening. It is happening because I am casting of the fear of exposing my raw fear of acknowledging my PyschicPain-my fear of being misunderstood for what I sense and feel as real. Being understood by a partner, knowing that my partner is not only tuned into me but also in sychronization with me in the astral, heart, body, mind and soul is the ultimate intimacy. There is no other intimacy other than merging into the Light. And, that I have done and that will happen again as it is my destiny. I know the stages and process of merging. I understand.
Every time I am sharing my experiences of being Psychic, I am crossing the divide. At some point, I will feel understood from the Core of my Soul. And, then I will be in relationship with my final partner. I will know by sensing the reality of extrasensory experience of merging. I understand.
In sharing, you may understand.
Namaste,
J.
I have been having a lot of powerful flying dreams in the last year. Last night, I was showing off my flying skills. I was demonstrating how to avoid a major storm system. When I went to sleep, I had felt I wanted to discuss issues about relationship, power and handling powe with a partner. I wanted to discuss the core issues that are incorrect about current teachings in the Twin Flames movement. I began the Jed Heart Project to open up my own personal life experiences as a Light Being.
For yars, I had trained groups of an average of seven people to dream together, learning and practicing astral skill sets. I know by experience of dreaming with people around the world since my mid-twenties which is around twenty five years, that the most common misconception about Twin Flame relationship is telepathy. My first relationship began when I was sixteen. That relationship validated spiritual teachings I had received throughout my childhood. We had mutual dreams and were telepathic. And, we both merged as astral beings in the Light in the last year we were together. We both did a tremendous amount of inner work for several years as friends. When you love someone unconditionally, you may not need to be with them to love them. You can still maintain soul work at a distance. We learned how to process our emotions seperately without being sexually intimate.
That opened me to being abe to handle more intimacy. I went to college while I was working. But when I transfered to the University, I attended full time. At that time, after my partnership ended, I began meeting Soul Mates. I was surrounded by a group of friends and learned that I could dream with them. They were confused by this fact. It was intense for me to navigate layers of intimacy with friends who I was not attracted to be lovers. And, that perplexed some of my Soul Mates. On their end, they experienced this intimacy as meaning it is a relationship as in love relationship. So, for me, I already had mutual dreams and telepathy with my group of Soul Mates in college over twenty years ago.
I developed workshops to train small groups of people to handle the intense intimacy of group mind, mutual dreaming. I was guided to design and develop workshops to bring out ancient tribal teachings. In our modern world, people had become estranged to their own extrasensory perceptions. And, for those of us Extra Sensitives and Ultra Sensitives, we were living in an underground bubblle of communicating with each other through various groups. The Spiritualist Groups was a main source of meeting other people who had various so called gifts. As part of my childhood, I was introduced into Spiritualist Groups around the age of twelve. That was a formal means of stepping up into becoming an adult Ultra Sensitive in the 70s. However, my teachings from my guides were outside the Box-every box. As many of the teachers at the time, I traveled to people’s homes and tauught private workshops. Later, I scheduled workshops and needed to rent space. Over time, I was travelin up to 35 weekends a month-performing heaings, giving presentations, working one on one and in group My life was dominated by my schedule. My schedule was exhausting.
Every spiritual teacher who anyone has heard about or never heard about goes through his mmissionary phase of experience. People crave spiritual awakening, guidance, mentorship and training. our world had become bankrupt from ancestors being persecuted, tortured and killed for neary two millenium. In ancient and primordial times, one group could over take another group of people by assassinating the powerrful leaders, elders and women of a clan or tribe. Over time, the abilities to protect elders and women became a primary goal in order to protect the natural intelligence of a group-clan or tribe. Creating new ways to inovate astral skills was a primary task of Spiritual Warriors of both male and females. I am such a product of an ancient blood line. And, that means, I had to learn astral skill sets which can alleviate an oppsoing force such as storm system. The power of dreams is not merely in dreaming or in sleep. The power comes from our astral connection to Source. Without that connection there is only illusions and delusions.
Understanding how to compare and contrast the variations of dreams, dream skill sets are required. Those skill sets can predicate fate and destiny. Without those skills, only wishful thinking can occur. And, that is where we are in our World Wide Spiritual Movement. We are in need of leaders and healers with intense intentional skill sets. I had hoped to find my own mate when i had opened to accepting a partner. The skill set I have must be matched and synchronized wtih a partner. I have an affinity to work within Soul Groups. I can work with many groups and attune to them in order to train them. However to work with a partner, I need to be attuned to my partner just as animals are attuned. I need to be so synchronized that it feels like we are moving as One in Two Bodies. I understand the requirements. I understand the intimacy. I also understand that a Mutual Vision of Purrpose needs to arise in order for synchronization of teachings, healing and other skills sets.
Not everyone is going to be a healer and teacher in the world at large. That is a great task to take on clients and students around the world. To give a picture of what is required to be a World Renown Spiritual Healer and Teacher, take a microcosmic snapshot of handling closer relationships. All of the closer Soul Group relationships must be evolving. All of the work we do within our closer Soul Groups, we must continue to do while we are expanding into other Soul Groups. Otherwise, we become emotionally distant those those we love the most. That is an inherant danger. We do not need to become solitary spiritual yogis to evolve. Those on the path of spiritual evolution must also be resolving Soul Mate, Soul Group evolution prior to Twin Soul and Twin Flame relationships. All of the relationships must reflect a pattern of evolving. That does not mean any one person or group is perfect beyond human impertection. We are not faceted diamonds. We are not solid geometric forms. We are evolving, transforming, moving sentient beings with anima-Life Force.
Personally, I keep moving through my own evolution of relationships with family and friends. To be very candid, I have former love relationships just like many other people in the world. However, my relationships are based on a continuum. I have had mutual dreams with Soul Mates who are past partners. When there is an issue that I am working on deeply in my Soul Work, I may have a dream with a past partner. Some of my past partners share dreams openly with me at times. I share some of my dreams with past partners if there is a need. I am being very candid about this fact. To make space and time for partner, I have meditated on discerning the difference between a Soul Mate, Soul Flame and Twin Flame.
I can only imagine that my Twin Flame will take on the power of handling a scale of healing, teaching and being in the Light with me as an equal mate. What that would look like for myself and partner, I had left that blank. I had left public work in order to continue writing to support Light Teachings. Life circumstances brought me head on with the facts of life. I had to handle the deaths of family members, move three hours north of my old home base, transition out of relationship, and then ground my life again. I spent a lot of inner work processing relationship and family issues. I was coming back to layers of my self, working from reflecting on childhood memores, then teen-age, working my way to present time. I am so glad I finally hit that by last fall. I made full circle.
In the Ancient Greek teachings on Twin Souls, it is stated that we learn through our Soul Mate relationships and then we arrive at a point where we have accumulated Soul Knolwedge. At this point, we lose interest in Soul Mates. It is a natural transition for those Souls who have been evolving. The Platonic School was a school of deep thought and self-reflection. Know Thy Self is the motto. So, it is those Souls who Self-Reflect who arrive at losing interest in Soul Mates. And, at that point their only attraction is to complete the cycle of learning with a Twin Soul. In the Platonic School, it was said that the Soul evolved for 2000 years before arriving at the last life time. When I experienced being given my Soul Name and Light Body Purpose, I was given the summary of All my Past Lifetimes. In that message, the Entire Summary of the Meaning of All My Past Lifetimes meant that I had been a Spiritual Healer and Teacher many times and I was being awakened to remember my ongoing mission as a Spiritual Teacher.
In this Life, I was to take out a set of Light Teachings to the World. That was intense and overwhelming for me. Since that time, I had to learn to handle more and more enerrgy in the astral. I had to handle periods of releasing all kinds of internal emotonal and mental patterns. I had to let go of other people projecting onto me. I had to let go of what others felt and thought about me. I had to learn keep my heart open and yet not feel personal about other people’s personal issues. I had to accept that my life is not one that is my own in the sense of feeling that I was sought in dreams and daily life. I retreated into my private world, intending to have a family life after all and share my life with my close circles of friends and family. Two years ago, it became clear to me that the world was ready for understanding what I know. I had been preparing to handle a partner and maintain a private life in order to prepare for a public life. Knowing and sensing that my natural partner would do this on her own without me knowing or helping in any way, I have kept that part of my life open to processing changes I needed to make and intimacy I would need to cultivate.
Being that I am communicating with Soul Groups, the issues would be vast. For instance, when I worked with one of my partners, we did healing and teachings together. During our travels and work with individuals and groups, we were constantly faced with deeper layerrs of Soul Group memories and emotional materials. For instance we were working with a group. One member of the group had come to us both to tell us about her partnership issues. We both discussed what she was telling us each in the astral. I had to take her aside and let her know that her astral being had been communicating her relationship problems with both of us. On other occasions, we both had simulatenous past life memories with variious clients and students. One of the prevalent past llfetimes was Ancient Egypt. One year, I began having clients, students have memories of being a Caveman. I also had memories of being a Caveman at that time. So, there were these various processes I had to process with my partner while we did spiritual work together.
One issue which effected our personal relationship is that my partner was not able to open her own Light. She needed me to use my astral body to clear her astral body by bringing in the Light. First. we were traveling hundreds of miles and up to a thousand miles in a weekend on a regular basis. I was healing and teaching people to handle the Light. My partner asking me to take her to the Light during the week was more work for me. And, in addition, she had been raised Catholic in a Cathlolic country in Europe. So, she had this constant sense of me being like Jesus. This was driving me nuts. I had no intent on emulating Spiritual Masters who would be viewed as non-human.
I embraced my human nature. Yet, often the work of taking people to the Light opened me to this projection of being non-human. This incessant ideation of being a cult figure is a serious problem. To break free from this problem, I had to contnually delve into my human nature to release the core issues. Being center of attention is a human experience. Being loved, respected and cherished by many people is an honor. Yet to be expected to be perfect continually then be criticised and judged for being a real human is a intense emotional stress. It becomes a crisis when those around you cannot handle the stress with you. The stresses on my partners working on handling my public life was immense. There was the personal intensity of sharing dreams and telepathy. From what I have been told by past partners, that part was intense. In addition, adding the intensity that I had mutual dreams, healing dreams and telepathy added dimensions of intensity. One major issue was jealousy. Naturally, any partner who could not handle the layers of Soul Group issues could not handle relationship with me. Letting go of intimacy is heart breaking. I needed to understand how to handle extreme layers of intimacy while in partnership.
A lot of Twin Flame authors refer to Surrender often. Surrender has many layers of self for certain. I have never had a problem with Surrendering to relationship. I have documented my astral merging processes since I was sixteen years old. I have been focusing on intimacy–intimacy in the astral, intimacy in mutual dreams, sharing dreams, sharing experiences in both Life and Light. Imagine merging in the astral with a partner in the Light. This is to me is the ultimate merging experience. I have yet to discuss sexual intimacy referring to being in the Light. I can state that astral mering with a partner in the Light is erotic. There is no sexual equivalent by merely having sex. It is true that you do not need to touch. It is also true that you can be at distance from anywhere in the world. Our Astral Beings are not bound by time nor space. However, to harness the energy of both Souls, they must be united in the physical. The physical is where we manifest as human beings. The purpose of the merge is harness the creative power of both Souls.
Being able to handle Light in relationship requires equal power as well as equal vulnerability. Handling both power and vulnerability requires emotional and mental honesty. As layer of psyche and emotion release deeper patterns of memories, astral connections with other astral beings in the Soul Group–family, friends, clients, students, people we meet anywherre and everywhere–both partners need to be able to hold the space and time to heal with eachother as well as transform, shift and evolve as a partnership to gain power as team, a couple.
This entire process is like making a soup or fruit smoothie. All of the ingredients are added to create layers of taste, texture, nutritional value. The end result is an edible meal. A relationship has so many other layers that all those parts need to come together wiith the finesse of a chef creation. In other words, the couple needs to be presentable to offer a pallette of heaing and teaching within the Soul Group. If nothing is happening but emotional chaos, there is no central power and there is not discernable intelligence. And, there is no spiritual teachings. From out of the ashes, a Pheonix should arise. If that is not happening for both partners in synchronisation, their partnership is not a Twin Flame Union. It seems to sound harsh. The standard for a relationship should not be whether it is a Twin Flame Union or not. The standard should be the Surrender of Power and Vulnerabiity to create Intimacy, period. A Twin Flame Union is not necessary to feel love, be in love, be in life long committed relationship.
A Twin Flame Union should not be viewed as the only way to evolve. All along, people evolved. I came into this life with astral experience and developed astral navigation as a child. I thought my first rellationship was going to be my last. We both thought and felt we would be together forever and especially after we merged in the Light as astral beings. Yet, that relationship became the foundation for more than I imagined would come to pass. The only reason I felt called to seek out and find my Twin Fllame is because of meditation, self-realization and open discussions with Soul Mates over my lifetime. Knowing that I had reached this point where I could not feel emotionally comfortable with any other partner than someone I could share the depth, the Light of my Heart, I realized I could no longer be with a Soul Mate based partner.
For some, it may come as a complete shock of realization that a Twin Flame can exist. For me, it is my llfetime of enlightenment, meditating, asking the Light, waiting for visions and voices for guidance. I expect to meet a Twin Soul who is as familiar with me n the astral, in dreams as I am herself. Before the past year, I did not understand how to handle a Twin Flame articulating what her experience of me meant to her. Now, after deep self-reflection, I do understand that though we may have this astal awareness of each other, our language, terminology, words, metaphors to describe and explain our own individual and unique perceptions may be different. And, I have to be prepared to handle dialogue, discusion, asking “What did you mean?”; “Why are you saying this or that word?”; “What does that mean to you?”; “What does this relationship mean to you?” Things I took for granted because I was going by my own psychic senses, I can no longer take for granted. I have to be clear and clarify. This is a process to clear out the emotional and mental confusion surrounding communicating intimately, fine tuning, learning to compare and contrast each other’s awareness of self, each other and life.
I also believe that if we think we are starting out in a Soul Mate relationship, we may end up in a Twin Flame relationship if both parties continue on the ultimate path of Surrender and Intimacy. It is my goal to highlight as many spiritual based relationship issues as possible and share them so that as our world evolves, people can initiate Spiritual Relationships earlier and earlier at younger and younger ages. This evolovution brings a balance to the planet. Instead of single mothers, divorce rates and scattered broken hearts throughout each land mass and island, we can work toward bringing more enlightenment to more people, sooner, younger and prepare them to handlle the evolution of Life and Light.
I do write for those who can understand the intention of the information I share as I am humbly offering it knowing that those who receive it are endowed with experience and knowledge and are working through similary relationship issues as spiritual beings evolving on a spritually evolving planet. Breaking free from the power stuggles to be able to share our spiritual selves has been an evolutionary process and we need to be able to handle more intimacy as we surrender to the planetary healing to support each other. No one does this work alone while we may feel alone. My dream, demonstrating the Power of Flying regardless of a Storm System emerging opened me to share more about Power and Vulnerability. Relation–ship is all about handling Fair Weather and Stormy Weather. Can we fly together? That is the question. That answer, “Yes!”
Namaste,
Jedhi
When I was a child, I had very good mentors, spiritual guidance. However because life presents tradgedy and trauma, I questioned my early guidance. Not to mention, I became a teenager which meant everything I learned was in a toss up. Being psychic and not being able to speak about it outside of family, I had to hide my real self. That did not last very long until I had my Near Death Experience. Though, I thought I was going to go crazy, I was given a second chance to allow my heart and mind to grow towards the Light. I learned that I was always loved by all the beings in my life. And, I learned that Love is the only real reason to Live. Because I learned at such an early age, I have lived my life with the intention, most of the time. But what I have been working on in the world, as a Light Being and Human Being is to bridge the gap between the two experiences of Reality.
I learned what it felt like to be in an intense Soul to Soul, Dreamer to Dreamer, relationship beginning at age sixteen. For six years, I had that luxury. And, it was a luxury. One never knows what one loses until one tosses it out the window. When perfection is gone, there is nothing to replicate it. That is how I felt. Then, I discovered that Love comes from the Light. My first relationship, we merged in our astral bodies in the Light. We thought that was the epitome of relationship. Yet, the next experience, I awoke as a Being of Luminous Light. That shocked me. I had awoken as the creator like a god within God. It took me years to release behavioral patterns to align with my Light Being. And, still I work on releasing emotional patterns after over twenty five years.
In all those years, I had been seeking my perfect mate. I knew that I was being drawn to Soul Mates. I had coined the term Soul Flames to describe a Soul Mate which caused an Awakening to the Light. Yet, the Soul Flame would not offer the entire spectrum necessary to continue on as a lifetime partner. I was asking the Source to lead me, to guide me to understand the meaning of the Soul Flame relationship. On that quest, I learned Soul Lessons beyond my wildest imagination.
Through relationship after relationship where I learned Soul Lessons and healed my Soul again and again, I realized I was in an evolutionary state of transitioning from one state of being to another. In the early ninenties, the book Twin Souls had opened a new world of relationship to me. I had not taken it seriously at that time. I did not know if it was another New Age paradigm. My own experiences were not described in the mystical or paranormal literature. Since May 2014 when I asked my Light Being to guide me to my Twin Flame, I have been asking deep core questions about the meaning of the Soul Flame relationship.
The basis of what I have learned has come through to me regarding our ability and willingness to share deeper and deeper intimately. Through my relationships, I had felt as if I had been at times talking to walls. I felt that I was trying to communicate from the depths of my soul yet my partner might not be able to understand. I had learned through dreams and dreaming with a partner that we can know each other directly through our dreams. Yet, waking to dreams posed surmountable emotional fears. And, to break through those fears, one must meditate and ponder the meaning as well as release the inner anxieties and fears. And, to be able to handle all of that within relationship, both partners must be able to allow each other to feel fear and pain when deep emotions emerge. I began to realize that the only way to handle this was to be able to openly speak about my own experiences so that I could at least create a model for communicating from my deepest core self.
Last year, I realized that I had to break through my own emotional fears regardless of having a partner. I had to break free from withholding pain and allow myself to freely share with other regardless of criticism, judgement and their own fears of feeling emotions. I realized that those of us who have had a lifetime of relationship experience, deep intimacy and desire for direct intimacy must as a Soul Group, a Planetary Soul Group, share as a collective. Our lifetime of sharing intimacy with partners, sharing deep core soul feelings and emotions could crack open a new basis for being in relationship.
Being Human is what I have been asigned to be. I had several Near Death Experiences since I was two and a half years old. I had come in with a formed astral body and sense of control in the astral. I had spiritual teachers in my family, ancestral guides as well as other guides in the spirit. I was not allowed to travel back to the Light and leave the planet until I am done here. That realization came in 1999. I had been leaving my body, heading toward the Light. My guide would not allow me to leave. I had to stay. Merely because I have control in the astral and Light did not give me the power to forego my contract to be Human.
Being Human means embracing the Human Being, the body with all the feelings and emotions just like the all the other animals. To understand how to handle the depths of feelings and emotions, we have to delve into them. We have to allow ourselves to feel through our feelings and allow our emotions to give us signals about those feelings. Being Human is being Multidimensional. We sense through layers of our Being. To understand our selves, we must allow our selves to teach us. Like driving a car, we learn what the car can do, how it manuevers, then we learn to handle driving it. We learn by doing.
To be able to handle relationship, we not only must know our own selves, we must also be able to communicate from within. As we move through relationship, we must be able to share as we learn about ourselves. That places us on the cutting edge, the bleeding edge of being vulnerable-being authentic, being real. Maybe we should change the spelling of relationship to relationship.
The phrase, “I love you.” does not cut it. It does not state the perceptions of feeling and emotions. It is more like on icing on the cake. I have been meditating for over a year about how to communicate from deeper layers of the soul. First, of course, dreams are essential. Yet, sensing while awake, the body being awake, means that there are all kinds of feelings and sensory experiences occuring. How are we to learn to share if we have no language to share our deep sensory experiences with a partner? That is the question that I have posed to my Light Being.
I felt as I have moved through sharing the experiences of being Light, being Light with other Light Beings, my experiences of merging in the Light, I have been working toward being able to share from the core of my Soul. And, I feel that breaking through my fears of sharing such Sacred Intimacy, I am breaking through to be able to share words, phrases and other linugistic means of communication which I feel will eventually open a dialoge with other Plantetary Souls who will be able to help co-create a Language of Love and Light. I mean, that we need to be able to express our experiences with our partners, and close intimates be they friends, family our Soul Group. I feel that there is no other choice. We are evolving and we must learn to communicate from our Light Beings.
Namaste,
Jedhi
My evolution from being a private person–dreaming with my spirit guides to being a public person dreaming with people around the world has been one of intense inner growth. My fear that I could not find a partner given that I can dream with people around the world has been a real one. My astral being is more than I am as a person. I can only merely communicate as a human whereas my astral being can travel through space and time, from past to present to future in no order whatsoever other than what is presented as necessary for learning and healing. I literally have been afraid that no partner could handle the visceral sensitivity I require to be in an intimate relationship. I had been withholding my feelings and emotions based on my past experiences.
All of last year, I was battling with myself to allow myself to feel my feelings and express my emotions. I have written all about that. However, it is a real situation. My partner has to be on board with being able to feel and emote. I cannot do that alone in a two-way relationship. Not only that, but my partner also has to grow beyond her own fears of being aware that she is also an astral being who can also be present in space, time, past, present and future in no order other than her own soul ordains necessary. That is a tall order. Albeit, I made the request for that order to my Luminous Light Being.
So, what kind of things are going on that I am feeling I need to express now? Talking about being a Spirit Guide while one is alive is not actually been easy to do. We have had all kinds of labels for people who can astral travel and heal and teach others in the astral. However, in 2003, I was shown that my Luminous Light Being is a Spirit Guide and that I am that being in the Light. This self-realization falls flat on the ears of atheists, and squelches of ears of theists. Even those who are Buddhists are skeptical, criticial and judgemental. However, that only leaves Yogis. Yoga has been usurped by athletes. But the real Yoga means Union as in Union with Source or God. And, authentic Yogis become Spirit Guides in the Flesh. That is what Yogis do.
I have not discussed any particular belief system because no belief gets you beyond the Mind. God Realization is an Ultimate State of Being. For all intent purposes, being Self-Realized has all the heartache of Non-Self-Realized. The real test of Union with Source is Facing Opposition. Love of Other as Self is the Goal. And there is a real problem with people who do not feel that once one begins this path s/he can have a partner. That is why I began Jed Heart. Yes, we can have Union with Source and with Partner.
To be in Partnership with a Twin Flame means we are working on the same Soul Issues that divide All of Us from Source. I mean, the Twin Flame Partner has worked through most of their Soul Lessons and the remaining ones are Shared with the Twin Flame. Those remaining Soul Lessons may be the hardest lessons. That is often why the Twin Flame relationship is the hardest one to yield and let go of our power issues. I am no different in that respect. I have enjoyed astral travel from young childhood. Being able to willingly handle my own astral experiences and learn and grow has been a life time of adventure. Sharing that adventure has been a blessing. But sharing my power, that has yet to occur at the level of Twin Flame Partnership. I have equally feared it and desired sharing power. However, I know that is going on.
I have to have a great sense of humor to be able to handle my own inner battles over power. I have a great sense of humor. And, some days, I am perfectly happy to not share my power. On other days, I would love to share my power. It is not about myself though. It is about the evolution of my Soul. And, my Soul does not accept my human excuses. As embarrassing as that is true, it is true. If I do not comply with my Luminous Light Being, I will dream all kinds of alternate realities. I will be shown what is wrong with my thinking and I will have to adjust my self. It is as simple as that. It can be quite embarrasing that I know that not just my own Light Being does this but that all Light Beings have this same awareness of each other. That is the real blessing in disguise. In the Light, we are transparent, we cannot hide.
And, so that is an incentive to keep releasing all kinds of internal excuses and denial about sharing power. Withholding my power withholds sharing on a planetary level. And, that is not funny. Our planet needs all of the Light Beings present and available to teach, heal, and pass on our knowledge of accessing the Light for generations to come. This Twin Flame movement is about that: bringing Powerful Souls into Union to Save Our Planet. That is the bottom line. So, there, I said it, it is a battle between self and Self- litle self and Greater Self in the World. Choosing Your Mate is Greater than You and Your Mate. It is about Being the Best You, the Best Both of You.
Jedhi
I have been having a lot of powerful flying dreams in the last year. Last night, I was showing off my flying skills. I was demonstrating how to avoid a major storm system. When I went to sleep, I had felt I wanted to discuss issues about relationship, power and handling power with a partner. I wanted to discuss the core issues that are incorrect about current teachings in the Twin Flames movement. I began the Jed Heart Project to open up my own personal life experiences as a Light Being.
For years, I had trained groups of an average of seven people to dream together, learning and practicing astral skill sets. I know by experience of dreaming with people around the world since my mid-twenties which is around twenty five years, that the most common misconception about Twin Flame relationship is telepathy. My first relationship began when I was sixteen. That relationship validated spiritual teachings I had received throughout my childhood. We had mutual dreams and were telepathic. And, we both merged as astral beings in the Light in the last year we were together. We both did a tremendous amount of inner work for several years as friends. When you love someone unconditionally, you may not need to be with them to love them. You can still maintain soul work at a distance. We learned how to process our emotions separately without being sexually intimate.
That opened me to being able to handle more intimacy. I went to college while I was working. But when I transferred to the University, I attended full time. At that time, after my partnership ended, I began meeting Soul Mates. I was surrounded by a group of friends and learned that I could dream with them. They were confused by this fact. It was intense for me to navigate layers of intimacy with friends who I was not attracted to be lovers. And, that perplexed some of my Soul Mates. On their end, they experienced this intimacy as meaning it is a relationship as in love relationship. So, for me, I already had mutual dreams and telepathy with my group of Soul Mates in college over twenty years ago.
I developed workshops to train small groups of people to handle the intense intimacy of group mind, mutual dreaming. I was guided to design and develop workshops to bring out ancient tribal teachings. In our modern world, people had become estranged to their own extrasensory perceptions. And, for those of us Extra Sensitives and Ultra Sensitives, we were living in an underground bubble of communicating with each other through various groups. The Spiritualist Groups was a main source of meeting other people who had various so called gifts. As part of my childhood, I was introduced into Spiritualist Groups around the age of twelve. That was a formal means of stepping up into becoming an adult Ultra Sensitive in the 70s. However, my teachings from my guides were outside the Box-every box. As many of the teachers at the time, I traveled to people’s homes and taught private workshops. Later, I scheduled workshops and needed to rent space. Over time, I was traveling up to 35 weekends a month-performing headings, giving presentations, working one on one and in group My life was dominated by my schedule. My schedule was exhausting.
Every spiritual teacher who anyone has heard about or never heard about goes through his missionary phase of experience. People crave spiritual awakening, guidance, mentorship and training. our world had become bankrupt from ancestors being persecuted, tortured and killed for nearly two millennium. In ancient and primordial times, one group could over take another group of people by assassinating the powerful leaders, elders and women of a clan or tribe. Over time, the abilities to protect elders and women became a primary goal in order to protect the natural intelligence of a group-clan or tribe. Creating new ways to innovate astral skills was a primary task of Spiritual Warriors of both male and females. I am such a product of an ancient blood line. And, that means, I had to learn astral skill sets which can alleviate an opposing force such as storm system. The power of dreams is not merely in dreaming or in sleep. The power comes from our astral connection to Source. Without that connection there is only illusions and delusions.
Understanding how to compare and contrast the variations of dreams, dream skill sets are required. Those skill sets can predicate fate and destiny. Without those skills, only wishful thinking can occur. And, that is where we are in our World Wide Spiritual Movement. We are in need of leaders and healers with intense intentional skill sets. I had hoped to find my own mate when i had opened to accepting a partner. The skill set I have must be matched and synchronized wtih a partner. I have an affinity to work within Soul Groups. I can work with many groups and attune to them in order to train them. However to work with a partner, I need to be attuned to my partner just as animals are attuned. I need to be so synchronized that it feels like we are moving as One in Two Bodies. I understand the requirements. I understand the intimacy. I also understand that a Mutual Vision of Purpose needs to arise in order for synchronization of teachings, healing and other skills sets.
Not everyone is going to be a healer and teacher in the world at large. That is a great task to take on clients and students around the world. To give a picture of what is required to be a World Renown Spiritual Healer and Teacher, take a microcosmic snapshot of handling closer relationships. All of the closer Soul Group relationships must be evolving. All of the work we do within our closer Soul Groups, we must continue to do while we are expanding into other Soul Groups. Otherwise, we become emotionally distant those those we love the most. That is an inherent danger. We do not need to become solitary spiritual yogis to evolve. Those on the path of spiritual evolution must also be resolving Soul Mate, Soul Group evolution prior to Twin Soul and Twin Flame relationships. All of the relationships must reflect a pattern of evolving. That does not mean any one person or group is perfect beyond human imperfection. We are not faceted diamonds. We are not solid geometric forms. We are evolving, transforming, moving sentient beings with anima-Life Force.
Personally, I keep moving through my own evolution of relationships with family and friends. To be very candid, I have former love relationships just like many other people in the world. However, my relationships are based on a continuum. I have had mutual dreams with Soul Mates who are past partners. When there is an issue that I am working on deeply in my Soul Work, I may have a dream with a past partner. Some of my past partners share dreams openly with me at times. I share some of my dreams with past partners if there is a need. I am being very candid about this fact. To make space and time for partner, I have meditated on discerning the difference between a Soul Mate, Soul Flame and Twin Flame.
I can only imagine that my Twin Flame will take on the power of handling a scale of healing, teaching and being in the Light with me as an equal mate. What that would look like for myself and partner, I had left that blank. I had left public work in order to continue writing to support Light Teachings. Life circumstances brought me head on with the facts of life. I had to handle the deaths of family members, move three hours north of my old home base, transition out of relationship, and then ground my life again. I spent a lot of inner work processing relationship and family issues. I was coming back to layers of my self, working from reflecting on childhood memories, then teen-age, working my way to present time. I am so glad I finally hit that by last fall. I made full circle.
In the Ancient Greek teachings on Twin Souls, it is stated that we learn through our Soul Mate relationships and then we arrive at a point where we have accumulated Soul Knowledge. At this point, we lose interest in Soul Mates. It is a natural transition for those Souls who have been evolving. The Platonic School was a school of deep thought and self-reflection. Know Thy Self is the motto. So, it is those Souls who Self-Reflect who arrive at losing interest in Soul Mates. And, at that point their only attraction is to complete the cycle of learning with a Twin Soul. In the Platonic School, it was said that the Soul evolved for 2000 years before arriving at the last life time. When I experienced being given my Soul Name and Light Body Purpose, I was given the summary of All my Past Lifetimes. In that message, the Entire Summary of the Meaning of All My Past Lifetimes meant that I had been a Spiritual Healer and Teacher many times and I was being awakened to remember my ongoing mission as a Spiritual Teacher.
In this Life, I was to take out a set of Light Teachings to the World. That was intense and overwhelming for me. Since that time, I had to learn to handle more and more energy in the astral. I had to handle periods of releasing all kinds of internal emotional and mental patterns. I had to let go of other people projecting onto me. I had to let go of what others felt and thought about me. I had to learn keep my heart open and yet not feel personal about other people’s personal issues. I had to accept that my life is not one that is my own in the sense of feeling that I was sought in dreams and daily life. I retreated into my private world, intending to have a family life after all and share my life with my close circles of friends and family. Two years ago, it became clear to me that the world was ready for understanding what I know. I had been preparing to handle a partner and maintain a private life in order to prepare for a public life. Knowing and sensing that my natural partner would do this on her own without me knowing or helping in any way, I have kept that part of my life open to processing changes I needed to make and intimacy I would need to cultivate.
Being that I am communicating with Soul Groups, the issues would be vast. For instance, when I worked with one of my partners, we did healing and teachings together. During our travels and work with individuals and groups, we were constantly faced with deeper layers of Soul Group memories and emotional materials. For instance we were working with a group. One member of the group had come to us both to tell us about her partnership issues. We both discussed what she was telling us each in the astral. I had to take her aside and let her know that her astral being had been communicating her relationship problems with both of us. On other occasions, we both had simultaneous past life memories with various clients and students. One of the prevalent past lifetimes was Ancient Egypt. One year, I began having clients, students have memories of being a Caveman. I also had memories of being a Caveman at that time. So, there were these various processes I had to process with my partner while we did spiritual work together.
One issue which effected our personal relationship is that my partner was not able to open her own Light. She needed me to use my astral body to clear her astral body by bringing in the Light. First. we were traveling hundreds of miles and up to a thousand miles in a weekend on a regular basis. I was healing and teaching people to handle the Light. My partner asking me to take her to the Light during the week was more work for me. And, in addition, she had been raised Catholic in a Catholic country in Europe. So, she had this constant sense of me being like Jesus. This was driving me nuts. I had no intent on emulating Spiritual Masters who would be viewed as non-human.
I embraced my human nature. Yet, often the work of taking people to the Light opened me to this projection of being non-human. This incessant ideation of being a cult figure is a serious problem. To break free from this problem, I had to continually delve into my human nature to release the core issues. Being center of attention is a human experience. Being loved, respected and cherished by many people is an honor. Yet to be expected to be perfect continually then be criticized and judged for being a real human is a intense emotional stress. It becomes a crisis when those around you cannot handle the stress with you. The stresses on my partners working on handling my public life was immense. There was the personal intensity of sharing dreams and telepathy. From what I have been told by past partners, that part was intense. In addition, adding the intensity that I had mutual dreams, healing dreams and telepathy added dimensions of intensity. One major issue was jealousy. Naturally, any partner who could not handle the layers of Soul Group issues could not handle relationship with me. Letting go of intimacy is heart breaking. I needed to understand how to handle extreme layers of intimacy while in partnership.
A lot of Twin Flame authors refer to Surrender often. Surrender has many layers of self for certain. I have never had a problem with Surrendering to relationship. I have documented my astral merging processes since I was sixteen years old. I have been focusing on intimacy–intimacy in the astral, intimacy in mutual dreams, sharing dreams, sharing experiences in both Life and Light. Imagine merging in the astral with a partner in the Light. This is to me is the ultimate merging experience. I have yet to discuss sexual intimacy referring to being in the Light. I can state that astral merging with a partner in the Light is erotic. There is no sexual equivalent by merely having sex. It is true that you do not need to touch. It is also true that you can be at distance from anywhere in the world. Our Astral Beings are not bound by time nor space. However, to harness the energy of both Souls, they must be united in the physical. The physical is where we manifest as human beings. The purpose of the merge is harness the creative power of both Souls.
Being able to handle Light in relationship requires equal power as well as equal vulnerability.
Handling both power and vulnerability requires emotional and mental honesty. As layer of psyche and emotion release deeper patterns of memories, astral connections with other astral beings in the Soul Group–family, friends, clients, students, people we meet anywhere and everywhere–both partners need to be able to hold the space and time to heal with each other as well as transform, shift and evolve as a partnership to gain power as team, a couple. This entire process is like making a soup or fruit smoothie. All of the ingredients are added to create layers of taste, texture, nutritional value. The end result is an edible meal. A relationship has so many other layers that all those parts need to come together with the finesse of a chef creation. In other words, the couple needs to be presentable to offer a palette of healing and teaching within the Soul Group. If nothing is happening but emotional chaos, there is no central power and there is not discernable intelligence. And, there is no spiritual teachings. From out of the ashes, a Phoenix should arise. If that is not happening for both partners in synchronization, their partnership is not a Twin Flame Union. It seems to sound harsh. The standard for a relationship should not be whether it is a Twin Flame Union or not. The standard should be the Surrender of Power and Vulnerability to create Intimacy, period. A Twin Flame Union is not necessary to feel love, be in love, be in life long committed relationship.
A Twin Flame Union should not be viewed as the only way to evolve. All along, people evolved. I came into this life with astral experience and developed astral navigation as a child. I thought my first relationship was going to be my last. We both thought and felt we would be together forever and especially after we merged in the Light as astral beings. Yet, that relationship became the foundation for more than I imagined would come to pass. The only reason I felt called to seek out and find my Twin Flame is because of meditation, self-realization and open discussions with Soul Mates over my lifetime. Knowing that I had reached this point where I could not feel emotionally comfortable with any other partner than someone I could share the depth, the Light of my Heart, I realized I could no longer be with a Soul Mate based partner.
For some, it may come as a complete shock of realization that a Twin Flame can exist. For me, it is my lifetime of enlightenment, meditating, asking the Light, waiting for visions and voices for guidance. I expect to meet a Twin Soul who is as familiar with me n the astral, in dreams as I am herself. Before the past year, I did not understand how to handle a Twin Flame articulating what her experience of me meant to her. Now, after deep self-reflection, I do understand that though we may have this astral awareness of each other, our language, terminology, words, metaphors to describe and explain our own individual and unique perceptions may be different. And, I have to be prepared to handle dialogue, discussion, asking “What did you mean?”; “Why are you saying this or that word?”; “What does that mean to you?”; “What does this relationship mean to you?” Things I took for granted because I was going by my own psychic senses, I can no longer take for granted. I have to be clear and clarify. This is a process to clear out the emotional and mental confusion surrounding communicating intimately, fine tuning, learning to compare and contrast each other’s awareness of self, each other and life.
I also believe that if we think we are starting out in a Soul Mate relationship, we may end up in a Twin Flame relationship if both parties continue on the ultimate path of Surrender and Intimacy. It is my goal to highlight as many spiritual based relationship issues as possible and share them so that as our world evolves, people can initiate Spiritual Relationships earlier and earlier at younger and younger ages. This evolution brings a balance to the planet. Instead of single mothers, divorce rates and scattered broken hearts throughout each land mass and island, we can work toward bringing more enlightenment to more people, sooner, younger and prepare them to handle the evolution of Life and Light.
I do write for those who can understand the intention of the information I share as I am humbly offering it knowing that those who receive it are endowed with experience and knowledge and are working through similar relationship issues as spiritual beings evolving on a spiritually evolving planet. Breaking free from the power struggles to be able to share our spiritual selves has been an evolutionary process and we need to be able to handle more intimacy as we surrender to the planetary healing to support each other. No one does this work alone while we may feel alone. My dream, demonstrating the Power of Flying regardless of a Storm System emerging opened me to share more about Power and Vulnerability. Relation–ship is all about handling Fair Weather and Stormy Weather. Can we fly together? That is the question. That answer, “Yes!”
Namaste,
Jedhi
I learned to meditate by tuning into all the senses of my body. So, I do not do chakra system meditation. I focos on every sensation and pay attention to any feeling and emotion arising.
From there, I can tune in with My inner ears and eyes. In 1995, I made a break through. I was focusing on fear I my heart. I was considering breaking up with the little did I know then would be a major love if my.life. I told her what I was considering and she asked me to think about it. So, I was meditating on my Heart. Next, I found my self as a pointing awareness. That part was not new.
The new part was seeing an electrical webbing of Gold fibers of Light. The question I had asked for my meditation was this: “What am I afraid of?” I knew I was inside of my Heart. I hovered inside my Golden Plasmic Heart. I felt Joy.
By the end of our relationship when she ran and hid in fear, not ever actually breaking uo with me but just dropping off the map, I experienced us as Gold Plasma Light Beings, merging up to the waist. I woke out of that in intense soul pain.
It should be no wonder that when I recant the depth of Heart, Soul, and Light Beings, I am having spiritual experiences which are painful as well as ecstatic. It should be no wonder that I am single as of yet. My experiences of being a human are not for the faint of heart. No former partner would disagree.
All of my relationships are bound in soul connection. After reading the Seven Levels of Intimacy again, I realize that although my relationships are always spiritual and soul based, I have been evolving to release Wants vs Needs.
Each relationship, my Wants were less as I have up unnecessary ideals, goals, earthly possessions. As I let go of Wants, I was pitted against Needs. In my case, I have to give up ideals of Capitolism from which I was raised. I realized early that earthly possessions weighed me down, usurped energy.
I left the Grid and went Off Grid. That challenged each partner. As I opened my realizations to partners who explored living Off Grid with me. So, much of my relationships have been a mutual exploration of letting go of the Modern World Wants and shifting to the Old World Needs.
Living on the Edge of Worlds, World Values, I emphasized my Dreams and Astral Experiences. I allowed my self to feel guided. Partners were also on board until hitting their Edge of Perceptual expansion. That left me continuing my own process on my own. My entire adult life of relationship has been an Evolutionary Soul Process. I have had discussions about Soul Evolution with former partners. I had gauged my Soul Growth with Soul Matesans Soul Flames through deep discussions comparing and contrasting our individual growth.
I leave no pain orders unexamined. After self-reflection, becoming aware of my own feelings and emotions, I open my self to communicate about my discoveries. Fortunately, I began in my first relationship. Over time, I have learned a tremendous amount about Self and Other.
There is less guess work about and from within relationship. Yet I have been adjusting to the bare essence, the bare essential truth of being aware and responsible to communicate clearly and not so clearly is a full on sense of being authentic and real. There is no hiding behind an Open Heart.
I had to understand what it would feel like to open my Heart all the time without fear of people outside of my relationship crossing boundaries, creating tension, criticising, judging, making intimacy difficult to manage from within a relationship. Last year, I opened my Heart Light to share with the World. I realized that my Twin Flame and I are on the path of Sharing vs Covering our Heart Light.
I have learned a great deal over the past year. Light coming through me magnetized and catalyzed various people. I was handling a lot of processing with others. Then I got to a standstill of realization, I needed to focus manifesting my Twin Flame relationship. I accomplished core healing issues with several people and groups. This process opened me to understand the emotional impact my spiritual work has on others outside one on one relationship as well as holding boundaries again and again. Opening my Heart Light, I opened vulnerable soul connections with richer depth of experience.
I have discussed being extra-sensitive yet I always need to emphasize the sensory experience as visceral. In order to open to more sensory experience, I had to heal the fear of feeling pain of others. To be understood, I repeat the fact that my experiences of feeling other people’s trauma has been palpable and real for me. Experiences of other people’s traumatic memories has been daunting. I have had to face fear in so many variations exhaustive to my physical body. Because of that, I require a partner who is aware of and holds space and time for my internal shifts from self awareness to other. Meanwhile, I have only wanted to experience my self with a partner. Being psychic has been a challenge. My Twin Flame is My Ultimate Challenge. No one can handle being One on One Psychic and Not Feel the Light from Within without Intention, Focus and Heart.
Admittedly, I did not believe anyone could keep up with me as a Human opening to My Light Being. My first first hurdle to have faith in another Human can handle processing the Light with me as a Soul. The second was to release all of my fear of being manipulative and manipulated because of my vulnerability was a challenge to my Power. Those were no small feats. I had to open my Heart and submerge into depths of my life experiences of fear. I had to open every crevice hiding in my Heart. That was painfilled. Those releases fleshed out my fear of Being Loved. I had to open to my Core Soul Needs. That opened me to realize I had to let go of the Fear of Being Loved, Heard, Seen, Felt as feel my own self. I am so sensitive and I can only expect a partner to be so sensitive. Else, I have no interest.
And, my sensitivity spectrum had to match my behavior. I had outgrow my thought patterns coupled with my memory emotional patterns to shift and change so my Outer Self Reflects my Inner Self. Also, that was no party. Well, it was a big party. I invited past partners and other friends to process all these issues with me. Meanwhile, I made my Heart available to their processes. So, yes I did have an International Intimacy Processing Party for a year. I was leaving no stone unturned.
Although, as Queen sings, “The show must go on…”: I am now Avaialable for my Twin Flame relationship.
I have never been so clear, felt so heart free (at least since opening to adult relationship), and all my ducks are in a row. It only took me 30 years since being a teenager. But not everyone is challenged with memories of other people’s pasts and futures. Understanding my self was no walk in the park. I am not even mentioning all the variations of space and time altered realities I had to sort through to find my self. All in all, I figured how I handle my reality.
All of my own experience and gleaning understanding, I plan on being present and available to and my Partner. It is a whole new relationship reality which I feel is worth sharing and learning from being available to feeling bonded in a more focused sense of serving with other. I have been working towards releasing intense anxiety which comes from fearing loss of self, of goals, of being able to track emotions and learn to allow them overly emerge.
The whole Twin Flame relationship requires such deep core awareness of self, of other and of being aware of each other. It is like Being inside a Hall of Mirrors. Yet, although no one is looking, everyone wants and needs to know. It is like Being a teenager again. Family and friends being are attentive to observe meanwhile you are vying for privacy. Yielding to privacy yet opening to process openly allowed the ultimate reward releasing my hardest to release internal fears of being heard and seen, being transparent. As self-absorbed as I felt, there is no regret but gratitude.
My Heart Light Mediations opened me to be able to express Love, Fear and without fear of abandonment, rejection, loss, criticism, judgement, and various other emotional attachment.
I used to be very cautious in sharing feelings. I stopped crying at age 5 years old. I opened to crying after my first relationship ended and learned to cry with partner at age 26 years old. So, the last year and a half has been a marathon, a decathalon, race to the finish line-none too slow. And, I made it a year and a half before my fiftieth birthday. What can I do now? Oh, yeah, I can still have an authentic Heart to Heart relationship with friends and loved ones.
Okay, “I am ready and willing whenever your are ready and willing”, I say to my Other Half.
Namaste,
Jedi
“Few recognize the enormous power of relationship as a vehicle for mutual healing— physical, emotional and spiritual. Or the power of the “true heart” to awaken us from the emotional trance that relationships sometimes induce. Or the possibilities of seeing our beloved as “the Beloved.” Levine, Stephen; Levine, Ondrea (2010-06-05). Embracing the Beloved: Relationship as a Path of Awakening . Knopf Doubleday Publishing Group.
Soul Retrieval… when love takes you to the depths of pain, risking being caught within the pain… Healing is hard to do… we go into pain we might otherwise never enter… But…
How deep is your love?
Have you heard about the family tragedies?
Have you heard about the broken hearts?
Have you heard about the broken dreams?
Have you heard about the emotional pain?
Have you heard about the physical pain?
Have you heard about the psychical pain?
Have you heard about the spiritual pain?
Have you felt that pain your heard about?
Have you cried with about pain together?
Have you shared your pain about the pain?
How deep is your love?
Are you willing to go into your lover’s dreams?
Are you willing to go into your lover’s nightmare?
Are you willing to face the her demons with her?
Are you willing to face the truth of her angels?
How deep is your love?
What is Soul Retrieval?
Soul Retrieval is the ability to enter a state of trance and transfer one’s conscious awareness to the soul memory of another person or animal. This prehistoric practice requires the knowledge given by spirit guides throughout the evolution of human conscious awareness.
An example of a Soul Retrieval
A female, age about fifty, client lays on a message table, I enter a state of trance. Once in trance, I am in a bathroom watching a male, age around thirty, wrapped in a towel and brushing his teeth. He is somewhat chubby, somewhat short black hair and looks like he is somewhat Italian. I come out of trance, discuss everything I saw, that the client immediately recognized the man and scene as being her husband at the time and place they were married. This simple recognition triggers her memories to release trauma about that relationship. Releasing that trauma about the relationship allows the client to process on her own–no counseling.
Another client who was a nurse, roughly fifty years old, I describe an umbilical chord to her. I see her as a twin birthed baby. That makes no sense to her. About a year or so later, a woman comes to me at an event where I am speaking as a presenter. She asks me, “Do you recognize me?” I am usually very good with faces since memory work is required to do psychic work. I cannot place her. She explains to me that after the healing, she discovered that she did have a twin at birth. She began losing over 50 pounds without dieting.
I could go on and on but chose very simple examples. I brought up the movie What Dreams May Come because that is an example of Soul Retrieval after a loved one dies. I highly recommend the movie.
In part, when we enter a one to one relationship with a partner, we are engaging in a soul merging process which has some elements of Soul Retrieval naturally embedded into the soul mate relationship. The elements of memories surfacing, painful and non-painful, empathy, sympathy, and hopefully deep core emotional bonding and communication. Those basic elements.
Other elements of Soul Retrieval inside of relationship is the psychic bonding such as mutual dreaming, extra-sensory communications such as telepathy, seeing visions and hearing voices of a loved one in trouble, or cheating and lying.
Soul Retrieval is the most ancient and natural form of the healing arts. Every indigenous peoples on the planet performed Soul Retrieval as it is the most innate psychic ability which we possess as humans–the ability to enter our dreams with our loved ones and seek out their soul memories to retrieve lost, fragmented and traumatized memories to the peace and light.
What Dreams May Come is an example of Soul Retrieval. Robin Williams plays the grieving husband and father who loses his family in a traumatic car accident. I highly recommend watching this film more than a few times.
Plot: Robin Williams’s character’ family dies in a tragic car accident. While grieving, Williams places his focus on a painting that his wife had been working on before her death. His memories begin to emerge, reliving important memories between him and his wife, and kids. While contemplating the incomplete art piece, a large oil painting, Williams finds himself entering the painting itself. Inside the dream of being in the painting, Williams is met by a familiar face. That familiar face takes him on a tour. During the tour of dreaming within the painting, the painted world becomes more real vs. imaginary. As the dream becomes more real, Williams begins to have memories of his wife and kids. As the memories unfold, the tour guide takes him to a realm where his wife is stuck in misery, a personal hell realm. Williams reconnects with his wife, aids her escape from eternal misery and is guided by the tour guide to take her to the light of heaven where he meets angels and discovers his spiritual core being.
That is what happens when:
A.) One enters into a trance or dream state
B.) While in trance or dream state meets spirit guides
C.) One or more spirit guides give the sojourner a tour
D.) Spirit guide(s) guide person to a loved one
E.) The loved one communicates with the sojourner
F.) The messages from the loved one are retrieved
G.) Sojourner returns from trance/dream with messages
H.) The message unlocks hidden/secret healing details
I.) The hidden secrets reveal healing to release fear, anxiety
J.) The physical and emotional body respond with pain
K.) When the pain is released, the body is triggered to heal
L.) The genetic DNA/RNA automatically release healing processes
M.) Unless loved one is deceased they will be brought to the light
These are our innate impulses from our own soul core beings. Over time, we learned to ignore these impulses through indoctrination of religion, giving our natural power to a central authority figure. In my tribal origins, the children are initiated at the age of two years old to meet with the ancestral spirit guides. Spirit guide training is processed throughout childhood in a fun and imaginative format. Children are given strict codes of conduct and yet given a free reign of imagination within those guide lines. This orientation exists within existing indigenous peoples on the planet yet are becoming extinct which is why I am writing this for you.
Applications:
1) Family
2) Loved Ones
3) Soul mates
Soul mate relationships will trigger the deepest core memories of the soul. Partnering up with a soul mate will cause the dreaming memories to merge whether either one or both partners are aware of this process. If one or both partners are unaware, the triggers will release pain and suffering to degrees that one and eventually both partners will be aggravated and irritated and intimacy will become a major problem, eventually leading to abuse of self or the beloved partner. In other words, one or both partners may retreat by alcohol or become verbally and physically violent. At that stage, both partners are battling for their own survival issues.
If only one partner is able to enter into dreaming state with the other partner, there is chance that the relationship may be retrievable. Ethically, this also requires intimacy between partners and doing a Soul Retrieval against the will of the soul mate is a transgression, a violation of spiritual freedom of will. Although when it occurs naturally, one partner may begin to experience dreaming with the other partner and be led to understand deeper metaphorical memory based information. In order for the healing to unfold, learning how to share the dream information becomes necessary. This sharing leads to deeper intimacy and requires both partners to become aware of the vulnerability of both partners as they enter into deep stages of soul growth. When this level is reached, the internal guidance of the mutual partnership begin to merge.
This merging process, all soul mates feel at some point and are aware of how it feels. However, the deeper the merging, the more each partner will feel shifts in vulnerability and feel as if each is losing her sense of being a self to the relationship. That is when there are trust issues which come up as each partner must sacrifice a certain amount of guarding the sense of being a separate self. A committed relationship will go through stages of learning how to trust each other by sharing deeper layers of intimacy. Accepting the psychic bonding, releasing fears of loss such as in fear the partner will become sick or wounded and die will be a constant process of letting go to the life and death processing of being soul in a human body–basically the meaning of the vows of marriage, through sickness and in health, until death do us part. When one of the partners parts, there will be a grieving process which also opens the living soul mate to experience the transition of the deceased soul mate evolve back the spirit realms. If both soul mates have evolved, there will be a time period which is opened for soul mates to be able to communicate between the physical and non-physical. This is a natural healing process of grieving to give the living soul mate the will to live with the knowledge of the spiritual realms in memory.
Again, What Dreams May Come is a good depiction of the stages of Soul Retrieval. Watch it more than once, more than a few times if you can or must. You can get the feel for the transitions of conscious awareness so that they become more clear to your mind.
Best Wishes,
Jedhi