Soul Mates, Twin Flames and other Flames… for Evolving Souls.

Awakening

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“Mindfulness teaches us the nature of the shadow. Heartfulness teaches us the nature of the light. Without these qualities in balance, we will evolve either eyeless in the darkness or blinded by the light. Unable in either case to perceive the subtle idiosyncrasies of mind or motion in the shimmering blur of our eagerness for more and our longing not to suffer. But to see straight ahead, one needs to embrace the shadow with the light. To put our world-weary and self-interested head on the shoulder of the divine, our suffering dissolving in tears as we embrace and are embraced by the Beloved. Light is self existent, shadow an interruption of the light by something seemingly solid. Investigating the seeming solidity of things, the shadow too dissolves, melts at the edge and disperses, disappearing into the present heart.”

Levine, Stephen. Embracing the Beloved: Relationship as a Path of Awakening (pp. 22-23). Knopf Doubleday Publishing Group.

 

I am not nor do not advocate Buddhism or any other organized form of Philosophy or Religion. However,  I have appreciated the Levines since the 1990s. They have lived a life of love and shared their trials and tribulations as well as gleaning the essence of being available to true love from their hearts with each other and in their Death and Dying workshops.

I became interested in their work as leaders in the field of Awareness and Awakening Heart, Body and Mind with their tape cassette series To Love and Be Loved: The Difficult Yoga of Love* when they presented that series to the world. I went out and bought the same tape series for family and very close friends. I felt this authentic presentation of the nitty gritty intimacy from within their relationship was both professional and heart touching. I can admit that their recordings of their workshop on the Yoga of Love touched  my heart forever. I have always been an advocate of their work in the field of relationships. My only caveat about the Levines is that I do not agree with their definition of Lucid Dreaming. For a more precise definition and experiential instruction, I advocate The Travel Guide to the Other Side for Gatekeepers of Death and Rebirth, Jodell Bumatay.

The Endless Heart – Relationship as Spiritual Healing (part 1)

1.  Introduction

  • 2.  Relationship with Self
  • 3.  Dying Into Life
  • 4.  The Importance of Daily Practice
  • 5.  Ham & Eggs: Service Starts at Home
  • 6.  Forgiveness in Family Relationships
  • 7.  Grief and Unfinished Business
  • 8.  Opening the Heart
  • 9.  Learning to Love

The Endless Heart – Relationship as Spiritual Healing (part 2)

1.  Take Tea With Fear

  • 2.  The Vessal is Already Broken
  • 3.  Precious Collaboration
  • 4.  Save The Box
  • 5.  Forgiveness Meditation
  • 6.  Allowing Forgiveness to Unfold

The Endless Heart – Relationship as Spiritual Healing (part 3)

1.  Brahmachari and Monogamy

  • 2.  Short Term Contracts
  • 3.  Wedding Vows
  • 4.  Q&A – Forgiveness
  • 5.  Q&A – Parenting
  • 6.  Ending Poetry

 

*Description of the original To Love and Beloved audio series from Sounds True, Co. at Amazon:

Twenty years ago, two spiritual seekers met at a workshop about conscious dying. What happened next is the extraordinary foundation for To Love and Be Loved – a life-changing program about what it means to be alive and in love. Together ever since that first day, Stephen and Ondrea Levine poured all of the wisdom, compassion, and courage they gained from their work with the suffering and grief stricken into the mystery of their own relationship. The result is a beautiful, unexpected unfolding, a teaching that transcends the anguish of existence to show us the way to God – through the darkest nights of our most intimate relationships.

In the rich and forbidding depths of our personal pain, the Levines teach, lies the essence of intimacy, not only with one another but with God. This is why true commitment requires us to “swim across the reservoir of each other’s grief”. Stephen and Ondrea lead you beyond psychological explanations and show how couples together can immerse themselves in the “ocean of compassion” – where you will discover how to face and overcome the fear that closes your heart and replace it with mercy: the key to creativity, freedom, and love.

Through honest, real-life sharing, To Love and Be Loved teaches you how to discover the greatest gift you can ever have: forgiveness – for yourself and your lover.

The Difficult Yoga of Relationship

Why are so few yogis and mystics committed to human partners? The Levines suggest that it’s because they haven’t recognized the profound value of so high a practice as the difficult yoga of partnership. Our intimate relationships, they teach, actually contain complete blueprints for spiritual realization. With exercises, meditations, and examples, they demonstrate how to decipher and use this priceless map. To Love and Be Loved brings you the crowning insights from these pioneering teachers.

A Tribute to Stephen Levine: 1937-2016

 

 

My first Near Death Experience was in Oct 1969. My mother was 8 months pregnant with my first sibling, my first brother. I was two and a half. A drunk driver ran a red light and hit the side of the car. My mother remembered a dream she had a few months before the accident while the car accident was occuring. In her dream, I died in the accident. In my memories, I died. I was told that if I died, my mother and brother would die. My mom was in a coma for a few days. I lost my left ear but they sewed it back on. I also have a scar that is finally invisibe.
I have never been afraid of death. I have always been able to astral travel. I had spirit guides from childhood on. I wanted to die. I told all of my high school friends I was going to die in a car accident at age nineteen. I was in a car accident as a passenger and I almost broke my neck. Instead, I had to live. Then, I had join the military. I was injured before being sent to Officer School. I had a majory bone reconstruction surgery and woke while under the knife. I was very upset with the doctors as I almost died. I was telling them off but they could not hear me. I had pneumonia after surgery because I had an allergic and asthmatic reaction to the anesthesia.
After nearly dying more than once while in various surgeries, finally one Anesthesiologist told me, “The longest part of the surgery was getting you to breathe.” I can go to the Light at any time as it became my so called gift. But for all the yearsHeal the World by Healing My Heart Meme test 01 I was afraid of what it meant, what people would think, say and do I had to learn to handle that I am 1) not going to die, 2) not going to not be who I am for what I see, hear, do and know.
The hardest part about dying is leaving loved ones behind. I was shown in my Life Reviews what it would feel like if I left before my time. When you can feel their pain but they cannot feel you, that is the hardest part. That is why I am alive. I live for those who need my love.
J.
@Jedheart007
#LiveLoveLight

Due to my lucid (conscious of the subconscious) awarness in my lucid dream with my elders last night, mainly my fraternal grandfather, I am here now cracking the code while mediating on ideals of love, life giving (to self, others… chain reaction), unconditional love, no space memories that whip and frame connections, the self, the holdings, releasings, and awarness of the unconditional- be it love! just wanted to share what I really think about, write about, revisit, am driven by. If more people knew how to got themselves to Unconditional Love there would be a lot less: cancers out there, fewer ‘ Aleppo’s ‘, no trumps, no bernies, etc- etc.

I don’t give a flying elephant about my political correctedness- used to maybe back when I, then a wide eye high school junior, worked out my handshakes in the Press Office for then NYC Mayor Rudolph Giuliani, who America now finally understands as someone who is morally corrupt and connected to equally corrupt FBI agents- the worst of the best. Best Medicine of your life- free your mind— the world is a more intense & magical and the heart stronger than some- or, most dare to give it credit for. Love unconditionally. Whatever it fucking takes. Because the decision cannot me made for you. You were not born a slave, in fear for your heart- you owe it to yourself to die free. 12/17–18/16

In May 2014, I meditated on opening to be guided to my final partner. I had been isolating myself from social life whilee I was single for three and a half years by that time. I have meditated since I was a child, had guidance in dreams, astral experiences and guidance by members of both sides of my family. I was blessed to be with my first partner because we shared dreams and both had the same experience of merging as astral beings in the Light. However, being psychic has never been easy.

First, as a child, I loved my life at night in dreams and the astral. I thoroughly enjoyed learning in my sleep. Yet, the psychic events of the day was intense for me. Being a child is extrasensitive normally but to be extrasensory perceptive is overstimulating and overwhelming. To learn to discern the difference between physical and non-physical objects can be painful. As a toddler, I was always walking into walls and other hard barriers. When I was young, I thought that I had hit my forehead so many times that my head was hardened like steel. My head has hit and broke a 1069 VW Squareback in head on collision. Funny that my head was not bleeding though I had a concussion, blacked out and was temporily paralyzed. That was a very scary period when I could have become a quadraplegic. My neck injuries effected me since that time. I had told my friends in high school that I was going to die in a car accident by the time I was nineteen. Well, I lived through it and many other narrow escapes. Or, as I like to refer them as the times my Guides sent me back for more of this life. Besides that, being in my body has been a very oversensitive, overstimulating and overwhelming experience. I was sent to Marcy Calhoun, a local psychic, for meditation training as a teen ager. It was well known that I was psychic in my family but in the world, it meant nothing. People outside my family were oblivious.

As far as being in the world, I was peceived as intelligent and even genius. I was a star student, performer in music and sports, and later at work. Decades later, I would be considered an Honoray Scientist for a Non Profit Scientific Research group for my work in correlating Astral Experiences with Physics. In that sense, it would seem that I would be a highly productive and career oriented person. However, though I had been accepted in Science as a Psychic for my abilities and knowledge, I also felt misunderstood most of the time. Some of the Scientists understood me because they had studied psychics like me for decades. Judith Orloff, M.D. is also one one of the Psychics who was stuidied and she became a Psychiatrist after accepting her Psychic abitlities as real, necessary and useful as a means of healing clients. I first read her book Second Sight when in came out in the nineties. I recommend it because she want through some of the same fears and dreads I went through as a Psycihc.

I have written about my college friend Mala who committed suicide. We would meet at coffee shops. We were both telepathic with each other. We were both intelligent, logical and intersted in discovering the scientific basis of explaining our astral experiences. I have a smile on my face when I recall that we would be at a college party in a corner comparing and contrasting leaving our bodies, floating through the ceiling and shifting through space and time–past, present and future realms of experience. We were the only two students around us who could and would speak about these extrasensory experiences.

Mala was in the Art Department. I was in the Philosophy Department. Most of my friends were artists taking Art classes. All of my closest friends were very talented artists. As one of the talented artists, she was multitalented. Though all my friends were talented her intelligence was on par with mine. I was charting the axis between past, present and future. I was concerned about being able to handle my extrasensory perceptions. I was studying the Ancient Philosophers–especially the Platonic School of Metaphysics. I had studied science since I was in third grade. Harold Houdini was one of my Spirit Guides. He would guide me to books in the public library. I was nine years old seeking the scientific explanation for creation. In college, Mala and I were studying theories such as the Holographic Universe and Parallel Dimensions of Space and Time.

It was at that time, I had been having Life Reviews where I had been shown my life as a child through to my college years as well as past lives and then I was having future lives. My experiences in the Space Time was so visceral that I was waking up forgetting my name, age and not recognizing my self. I kept a journal and took copious notes. To this day, I have taken notes on my Spiritual Journey. When I am shifting through deep core soul changes, I take notes. When I am having calm and stable experience of life, I do not take notes. I recall the highlights of the dreams of my entire life such as choosing my mother before I was born. This used to drive my mother nuts. While Mala and I were discovering the meaning of our astral experiences using scientific methodology, she told me that she was my Twin Soul. She told me that we met at the wrong time, a minute off the timeline. According to Mala, I was supposed to meet her before I met her best friend who was standing a few feet away from her when I introduced myself at a Halloween party in 1991. That would be Fall of 1993. At that time, I had been waking to my Life Purpose as a Light Being.

The night I had been called to be informed of her suicide, I dreamt that she came to me as a Light Being wearing a White Wedding Dress wearing black Dr. Marten boots. Three angels were singing.

“Don’t ya feel dead…

When you’re lying

In your bed

Don’t ya feel dead…

When you’re surrounded

By good friends

Don’t ya feel dead…

When the voices in your head

Scream and your mouth

Can’t make a sound….

Don’t you feel…

Don’t you feel…

Don’t you feel…

Dead

In your head…”

I kept waking up to write the words from my dream. Then, I would go back to sleep. I missed the funeral but her life long best friend was there with all of our mutual friends. She told Mala’s mother that she had a dream that Mala came to her in a dress and told her she was saying her last “Good bye.” I was driving from New Mexico on my way to Northern California. Everyone knew that I was trying to get home so I was given the message when I arrived. During the days after her death, I had regular out of body experiences. Other astral beings were showing up at the edge of my bed to take me out to fly.

I would see them at the edge of my bed and then I would leave my body. I would pass through the wall behind my bed and walk out the doorway in the kitchen and fly above the Sonoma vineyards– a gorgeous view from above. I love California. I cried nearly every day. Though I was astral traveling with Shamans around the world, being in the world without a flying partner who was a real in the flesh person I could share my discoveries was like I died myself. At a certain point in time, she came back to me as an astral being. Her astral being brought me through the holographic memories of her life. She showeed me why she felt alienated and isolated in her childhood around her family and friends. She was showing me that she could no longer handle the lonliness. She brought my astral being back to my body and then her Light merged into my Light. That was the last time she was a seperate being. Since that time, she has been part of my being.

The last time we talked was in the summer of 1994. I met with her to tell her that I was heading off out of state to go to graduate school. I knew that she was till healing from this Spiritual Crisis we both were experiencing. We were between worlds. We both felt misunderstood and both of us were trying to understand the meaning of our lives. She said, “You are the lucky one.” She had everything. Her parents ran a winery. She had a gorgeous view of the vineyards from her room which had a balcony. For all intent purposes, she lived like a princess. When I was in her room above the vineyard that summer, she said, “Do you thin we are angels?” She was reffering to our Light Beings. I said, “I do not know.” She asked me to live with her and her best friend. I was speechless. The three of us were so psychic with each other. I could not see us being able to handle being together in the same house. I could only see us all having this Spiritual Crisis together and not being able to make sense out of what we were experiencing. I was going off following my dreams. I had dreams with shamen who were guiding me to mentors who could, would and did give me the guidance I needed to ground my expanded awareness and burgeoning knowledge of astral realms and being psychic.

In Decmeber 1994, I got the call that changed my life and essentially changed my Spiritual Journey. The fear of abandonment and rejection had propelled me to steer clear of relationnship. Although I did have a girlfriend, she could not understand me in the ways I needed to feel and be understood. For her, she understood my extrasensory experiences were real. I had seen her deceased mother floating above her bed the first night spent at her place in college. She never told me her mother died in her teens. Seeing her mother and describing her was proof. All of my close friends knew my dreams and visions could come true. Although it was understood that I was psychic, no one understood my pscychic pain the way Mala understood me. We were sharing this pain of feeling seperated from everyone else. We both experienced extrasensory experience of being astral beings who are awake and aware of astral beings arounds us who are unaware and alseep. To us, it was as if we were surrounded by zombies. Yet, her death caused me to pause and consider a request she made of me. She had asked me to heal her. I did not understand how she knew I could heal her when she was alive. Yet, I was learning that I had power that heal others and I was practicing on my girlfriend while we were together. I just did not not understand that would become my Life Purpose–to heal astral beings. Her death was the pivotal point. I understood.

In my first relationship, my partnership opened me to accept the Meaning of Life-Love. I realized that the reason to live and not risk myself dying by living at the edge in order to release my body and enter the astral and die was Being in Love. That was my first major Soul Lesson. I have had many Soul Lessons like everyone else has had them. Yet, the Core of My Being needed to accept Being Human. Being In Love made being Human acceptable. However, the next Soul Lesson I learned was that Facing Pain of Being in Love is necessary. I could not avoid or ignore it. Being Psychic made me more extrasensory sensitive. Being able to sense through the astral being of a partner, see visions of my partner’s memories, feel the feelings and emotions of a partner’s past, present and future was beyond durable I felt. I was avoiding being engaged with another partner, an astral being. Her death forced me to face the fact that avoiding and ignoring the Pain of Being in Love was dangerous and self-anhilating. I understood: even if I avoided and ignored a relationship, I was going to feel the merging in the astral even if and when a partner left the body-died.

I have been reading Judith Orloff’s book recently again because she went through the Psychic Pain. The pain of feeling, sensing, and otherwise experiencing the pain of others caused her to avoid and ignore her Psychic Senses in high school. I did that same. I was on a quest to anhilate the Psychic Pain. But I fell in Love. Love healed me to the point that I had a Reason to Live. I knew that Love was the Cure. I did not know that I could be in love again but I knew that it was imperitive that I Opened my Heart to Love. After losing the Love of my Life, losing Mala as a human being, Being in Love with other Soul Mates and a few Soul Flames, I found myself letting go of the Psychic Pain of Being in Love again in 2014.

In May 2014, I opened my Heart again. And, the Psychic Pain felt like my entire body was in fire, for months. For several months, I felt burining pain the degree I could not sleep. I saw White Light whenever I closed my eyes. I could not dream except a few times. I was triggered to experience deep core soul memories of pain by meeting a few soul mates. At a certain point, I had meditated to the point where I merely felt burning pain in my heart. Then, I met another potential partner. I had begun to share the depths of my self as a Psychic. Yet, I felt her response was intelligent, emotionally intelligent and intuitive but I felt that she could not understand the Psychic Pain I was sensing from her own Psychic Pain. I was feeling and sensing the Psychic Pain she was carrying. I felt she was hiding it from me and the world. I felt that she could not discuss her Psychic Pain because it seemed that she couild not understand mine. That triggered me to the Core of Psychic Pain. I could not handle the intensity of the Psychic Pain.

I had been meditating on how to communicate the deeper Core Psychic Pain with a potential partner before we met. Yet, the more I opened to the Psychic Pain to share it, the more I felt. I became oversensitive, overstimulated, overwhelmed. By the time we were beginning to discuss the issue of being intuitive, psychic and astral, both of us were not able to communicate through our own fear of seperation. The intense emotions welling in me caused me to let her know I could not handle communicating. I was doing the best I could to handle my Psychic Pain but it hit me like me like a Tsunami. I was under the waves and holding onto my breathing. All I could do was meditate on the Psychic Pain coming in waves into my heart.

As I was meditaing on healing my own Psychic Pain, I began to feel her Psychic Pain. And, over the course of weeks, I felt our Hearts merge in the Astral. Within two months, I dreamt about a past life. I did not know who the Chinese man was in my dreams. Her voice came through and said, “How do you feel me now?” I said, “I feel you inside me.” I woke up realizing that I had felt the full astral merge. I had understood that my astral being had been merging with hers in the Light. Although the Pscyhic Pain had shifted into feeling merged and blissful, I would feel periods of Psychic Pain in my heart. I felt that we were both healing in parallel. Our astral beings were merged and we were both healing our Hearts in the astral. Within a few months, I had a dream where she showed me her Psyhchic Pain of feeling misunderstood. I awoke and I knew. I understood.

We were sharing the same pain I had shared with Mala. We were sharing the Psychic Pain of feeling alone and isolated in feeling understood from the Core of our Souls. We both had shared enough for me to realize that we were sharing from our Core Soul Beings. She had pointed out that we were merging before I realized that it was happening. I was waiting for her to tell me what was happening because of my Psychic Pain. I was terrified that I would be abandoned and rejected for sensing her Pyschic Pain. I mean, I knew that I could feel her Psychic Pain but I did not think that she would understand me if I shared that with her. I was holding back from sharing what I was sensing and feeling about and from her. I felt when she became afraid of me abandoning and rejecting her. I felt the moment that we were both feeling the same fear. That same fear caused us both to retract, emotionally shit down at the same time. And, then we were not able to communicate. Yet, I knew what was happening yet could not break through my own emotional block from communication.

Since that time, I began to work through breaking through my emotional patterns of emotional withholding. I have been moving through breaking all emotional patterns of not being able to verbalize my fear of being criticised, judged and being feared for being Psychic. I am extending my sense of being in fear of being misunderstood for being Psychic. The divide of being able to explain things to a partner is a steeper ravine. Being able to tell a partner that I can and do experience not only visions of the past or the future or of deceased loved ones but that I also experience being those other beings. I can experience the entire lifetime of another astral being.-dead or alive. I can experience memories being formed by a partner. In other words, I can sense and feel where she is at another location, what she might feel, think, say or do. I can experience a partner as Another Myself.

I had meditated asking my Light Being to guide me to the Other Myself, my Twin Flame on and off since I was in college when I was in my twenties. However, I did not know what I know now. I had to experience several Soul Mates and a few Soul Flames. I had to understand the depth of the experiences of astral merging, sharing mutual dreams, sharing astral experiences. I had to fine tune my awareness and understanding being finely attuned to my partner’s awareness. I had to open my Heart to merging entirely, ongoing, comitted to continuing to cross the division between Self and Other. And, that means accepting, acknolwedging and experiencing the Psychic Pain of the Beloved. It meansing being able to continue to express Love, opening to deeper Love, and sharing the depth of Our Hearts as a Couple, Equal and Together.

The Psychic Pain of fear of seperation from feeling sensed, felt, heard, witnessed, understood is immense. To accept that we can be sensed from an extrasensory sensory experience of being merged in the astral is an immense self-acknowledgement of our sensience as beings created by the Source. It means, we are One with God, Great Spirit, the Cosmos. Overcoming the fear of seperation from the Beloved opens us to become One between Self and Other and God. This is a very super sensitive experience is the greatest bliss and yet between moments of bliss, there are moments of terror of loss. That is what caused the end of my first relationship within the year of merging in the Light. It caused me to avoid a relationship which ended in a suicide. And, it has been causing me to be single since 2014. Yet, I know that I have been merged in the astral and in the Light. I know that I will cross the divide at some point in time and space. It will happen. I wil get beyond the divisions of time and space.

It is happening. It is happening because I am casting of the fear of exposing my raw fear of acknowledging my PyschicPain-my fear of being misunderstood for what I sense and feel as real. Being understood by a partner, knowing that my partner is not only tuned into me but also in sychronization with me in the astral, heart, body, mind and soul is the ultimate intimacy. There is no other intimacy other than merging into the Light. And, that I have done and that will happen again as it is my destiny. I know the stages and process of merging. I understand.

Every time I am sharing my experiences of being Psychic, I am crossing the divide. At some point, I will feel understood from the Core of my Soul. And, then I will be in relationship with my final partner. I will know by sensing the reality of extrasensory experience of merging. I understand.

In sharing, you may understand.

Namaste,

J.

When I was a child, I had very good mentors, spiritual guidance. However because life presents tradgedy and trauma, I questioned my early guidance. Not to mention, I became a teenager which meant everything I learned was in a toss up. Being psychic and not being able to speak about it outside of family, I had to hide my real self. That did not last very long until I had my Near Death Experience. Though, I thought I was going to go crazy, I was given a second chance to allow my heart and mind to grow towards the Light. I learned that I was always loved by all the beings in my life. And, I learned that Love is the only real reason to Live. Because I learned at such an early age, I have lived my life with the intention, most of the time. But what I have been working on in the world, as a Light Being and Human Being is to bridge the gap between the two experiences of Reality.

I learned what it felt like to be in an intense Soul to Soul, Dreamer to Dreamer, relationship beginning at age sixteen. For six years, I had that luxury. And, it was a luxury. One never knows what one loses until one tosses it out the window. When perfection is gone, there is nothing to replicate it. That is how I felt. Then, I discovered that Love comes from the Light. My first relationship, we merged in our astral bodies in the Light. We thought that was the epitome of relationship. Yet, the next experience, I awoke as a Being of Luminous Light. That shocked me. I had awoken as the creator like a god within God. It took me years to release behavioral patterns to align with my Light Being. And, still I work on releasing emotional patterns after over twenty five years.

In all those years, I had been seeking my perfect mate. I knew that I was being drawn to Soul Mates. I had coined the term Soul Flames to describe a Soul Mate which caused an Awakening to the Light. Yet, the Soul Flame would not offer the entire spectrum necessary to continue on as a lifetime partner. I was asking the Source to lead me, to guide me to understand the meaning of the Soul Flame relationship. On that quest, I learned Soul Lessons beyond my wildest imagination.

Through relationship after relationship where I learned Soul Lessons and healed my Soul again and again, I realized I was in an evolutionary state of transitioning from one state of being to another. In the early ninenties, the book Twin Souls had opened a new world of relationship to me. I had not taken it seriously at that time. I did not know if it was another New Age paradigm. My own experiences were not described in the mystical or paranormal literature. Since May 2014 when I asked my Light Being to guide me to my Twin Flame, I have been asking deep core questions about the meaning of the Soul Flame relationship.

The basis of what I have learned has come through to me regarding our ability and willingness to share deeper and deeper intimately. Through my relationships, I had felt as if I had been at times talking to walls. I felt that I was trying to communicate from the depths of my soul yet my partner might not be able to understand. I had learned through dreams and dreaming with a partner that we can know each other directly through our dreams. Yet, waking to dreams posed surmountable emotional fears. And, to break through those fears, one must meditate and ponder the meaning as well as release the inner anxieties and fears. And, to be able to handle all of that within relationship, both partners must be able to allow each other to feel fear and pain when deep emotions emerge. I began to realize that the only way to handle this was to be able to openly speak about my own experiences so that I could at least create a model for communicating from my deepest core self.

Last year, I realized that I had to break through my own emotional fears regardless of having a partner. I had to break free from withholding pain and allow myself to freely share with other regardless of criticism, judgement and their own fears of feeling emotions. I realized that those of us who have had a lifetime of relationship experience, deep intimacy and desire for direct intimacy must as a Soul Group, a Planetary Soul Group, share as a collective. Our lifetime of sharing intimacy with partners, sharing deep core soul feelings and emotions could crack open a new basis for being in relationship.

Being Human is what I have been asigned to be. I had several Near Death Experiences since I was two and a half years old. I had come in with a formed astral body and sense of control in the astral. I had spiritual teachers in my family, ancestral guides as well as other guides in the spirit. I was not allowed to travel back to the Light and leave the planet until I am done here. That realization came in 1999. I had been leaving my body, heading toward the Light. My guide would not allow me to leave. I had to stay. Merely because I have control in the astral and Light did not give me the power to forego my contract to be Human.

Being Human means embracing the Human Being, the body with all the feelings and emotions just like the all the other animals. To understand how to handle the depths of feelings and emotions, we have to delve into them. We have to allow ourselves to feel through our feelings and allow our emotions to give us signals about those feelings. Being Human is being Multidimensional. We sense through layers of our Being. To understand our selves, we must allow our selves to teach us. Like driving a car, we learn what the car can do, how it manuevers, then we learn to handle driving it. We learn by doing.

To be able to handle relationship, we not only must know our own selves, we must also be able to communicate from within. As we move through relationship, we must be able to share as we learn about ourselves. That places us on the cutting edge, the bleeding edge of being vulnerable-being authentic, being real. Maybe we should change the spelling of relationship to relationship.

The phrase, “I love you.” does not cut it. It does not state the perceptions of feeling and emotions. It is more like on icing on the cake. I have been meditating for over a year about how to communicate from deeper layers of the soul. First, of course, dreams are essential. Yet, sensing while awake, the body being awake, means that there are all kinds of feelings and sensory experiences occuring. How are we to learn to share if we have no language to share our deep sensory experiences with a partner? That is the question that I have posed to my Light Being.

I felt as I have moved through sharing the experiences of being Light, being Light with other Light Beings, my experiences of merging in the Light, I have been working toward being able to share from the core of my Soul. And, I feel that breaking through my fears of sharing such Sacred Intimacy, I am breaking through to be able to share words, phrases and other linugistic means of communication which I feel will eventually open a dialoge with other Plantetary Souls who will be able to help co-create a Language of Love and Light. I mean, that we need to be able to express our experiences with our partners, and close intimates be they friends, family our Soul Group. I feel that there is no other choice. We are evolving and we must learn to communicate from our Light Beings.

Namaste,

Jedhi

Yoga means Yoke, Union. Union between self with Source; Union in Heart, Thought, Deed; Union between Mind, Body, Soul, Spirit–mental, emotional, physical, sexual, spiritual. Surrendering Self to Source is our Yoga. Love is Yoga. Light is Yoga.

All That Is is Yoga.

For decades, I maintained my private life wherein I experienced amazing spiritual experiences within intimate, romantic relationship. I had planned to release my knowledge when I was an elder, beyond range of feeling a need to protect my intimate privacy. However, it became clear: spiritual practitioners around the world would benefit from sharing my knowledge of Being in Love while experiencing Being Light.

It began as a realization that I needed to bridge toe gap between my spiritual practice, experience and knowledge with my own relation status. I felt I had reached the end of karmic soul relationship. Yet, being amongst other spiritual people, I was not romantically attracted. I began to explore the divide inside my self-my soul.
My process of opening to the Light, asking to be guided opened me to discover the depths of my soul, emotional patterns and blocks, mental patterns and limits of perception to realize the meaning of love in all my variations of compassion and passion.

My experiences of opening Heart Light to expand my sense of self beyond boundary, opened to feel safe, secure and trust my process of sharing the Light Lessons of my Soul.

My Luminous Light Being, beyond space and time is Omniscient and Omnipresent. As a Being of Light, my experience of being is not bound but infinitely bound in a Luminous Light. It feels like a contradiction to be Light and be Human. Yet, the Continuum of Perception is non-linear. We are Both and Neither in a momentary lapse of becoming. At one moment we sense separation. At another, we sense union. As we stop our thoughts, we may glimpse the rhythm of movement-energy.

To Awaken to Being is Natural. It is Eternal and Eternally our Sacred Union with Source. Soul mates, Soul Flames, Twin Flames are all variations of the Source reflecting Source. Soul mates are primarily working on being human. Soul Flames are primarily Awakening Each Other. Twin Flames are partial Awakened.

I believe a Soul mate couple can move through stages of Awakening. But such a couple are born Advanced. Civilization has not allowed Awakened beings to feel and live safely due to thousands of years of Holy Ears. Awakened Children would be exterminated at young ages. Very few tribal groups retained their Ancestral Light Knowledge. If those, there are blood lineages on every continent. Over the last hundred years, emissaries from blood lineages engaged in seeking each other in sacred and secret ceremonies and rituals. Our modern movement of Light Beings has been an underground movement until we reached world Mass Awareness. The alignment of ancestral, mystical and metaphysical teachings is allowing is to bridge the Light Realms of our Luminous Beings with our Human nature.

In order to bridge this gap, between our ancestral heritage as Beings of Light, we must accept the spiritual communion in All Our Relations. The Profane must become Sacred. Union of Light and Dark, the awareness of Yin Yang.
The four ancient meanings of Yin Yang: we are eternal opposites; we are eternally becoming our opposite; our opposite resides within us; our opposites eternally transform us. Our relationships continue to transform us, evolving and revolving, never separating us from Source. Our process we are Yoked to Yin Yang is called Yoga.
Namaste

I have been hesitating and postponing writing about Astral Sex. The reason? Astral Sex is Sacred Sex. Astral Sex without intent is equivalent to Spiritual Rape. Just as an adult would not have sex with a child, a responsible Awakened Being would not seduce an UnAwakened Being. I have been sharing writing on my own experiences to share the reality of experiencing the depths of spirituality from within intimate, romantic relationship. There are various spiritual practitioners around the world who have no access or real world descriptions of psychic and spiritual experiences.

The old world mystical schools, teachings and teachers, gave impressions of various experiences through metaphors and instructions by complicated techniques. In reality, spiritual experience occurs when we become closer to our nature. Our intelligence has evolved through accessing our natural awareness, our direct perceptions of reality. Over the course of time, we lost much of our natural abilities because we lost ancestral memories through violence between clans, tribes and nations.

Now, we are regaining our spiritual heritage as we have been healing ancestral memories as well as interactign with Soul Mates, Soul Flames and Twin Flames. Our natural capacity to open to the natural world of sense perception and experience has been allowing people to release the mental programming which has limited our definition of reality.

There are natural barriers to opening to direct perception. Our ideas, concepts, ideals, coulds, shoulds, woulds and other self-limiting self-admonishing, self-anhilating blame, shame and guilt cause us to fear our real experiences. The fear and doubt places us under constant stress, emotional anxiety. Other people also can become aggressive and abuse and use other’s by dominating them by creating more fear and doubt. Fear and doubt become and never ending circumstance.

The astral experience is a real experience. Never the less, those Unawakened are not accustomed to the experiences. While unaware, they are not conscious to the experiences. When they become conscious, they must go through a period of realizing, processing and letting go of the fear and doubt about their own perceptions. People may feel controled or seduced beyond their will power. It takes self-reflection to process who we are as human beings and who we are as we grow and become aware of our spiritual beings.

There are those who will abuse and use sexual power in the astral for their mere pleasure without care. Metaphors about incubus and succubus, vampires and such are examples of lore which arose out the abuse of the astral for sexual power over others. Dominating another spiritual being is possession. Possession is real.

As we are shifting and moving through an Age of Awakening of Masses, those of us who understand the responsibility we have to create adult dialogue about these issues in our own circles of friends are coming out of our own fear of being persecuted and humiliated for our knowledge. Sharing previously secret and sacred intimate knowledge requires courage and strength. The more we can empower ourselves to openly share, to create safety, security and trust, the more we can create a world of co-creation. We are breaking through ancient taboos. Love is the way. Awareness and Choice are keys to Equality, Liberty and Justice for All.

Namaste
Jedhi