Soul Mates, Twin Flames and other Flames… for Evolving Souls.

Communication

Sacred Marriage Scroll with White backgroundThe penultimate fear is fear of sharing power. Power can be measured in many ways and means. One person may have more mental power. One may have more emotional power. One may have more physical power. One may have more psychic power. One may have more sexual power. Both partners may actually have equal power in various areas of their selves. No matter who has more or less and even if both are equal in many measures of power, sharing power is an act of surrender of will power.

Much can be said and written about power of individuals. There is no lack of examples in relationship. Nearly any argument will be based on demonstrating power. Even the dating and mating game is an act of maneuvering with power to gain the attraction, confidence and commitment of a potential mate. Merely reminiscing on acts of gaining favor from a potential mate can bring up all kinds of memories whether from one’s own unique memory plus all memories gathered in childhood through to adulthood from all sources. The metaphor “the birds and the bees lecture” about sexual education can conjure up all kinds of animalistic rituals to seduce and gain favor of a mate. However when the mating pair is coupling or has coupled, there will be the ruminations of power plays that are embedded into our hearts, minds, psyche and soul. The surrender to the mate requires safety, security and trust. If one partner surrenders while the other has hidden agendas to control the relationship, there will be significant power struggles. If both cannot surrender, there will be no partnership. If both partners are willing and able to isolate power issues and negotiate total surrender to accept, acknowledge and balance the inequalities and equalities, both partners can gain from the power of the relationship as a partners.

The final solution, whether by legal or oral agreement and contract is marriage. Anyone can make an agreement to marry another given legal age of consent. Yet, Sacred Marriage is one in which both parties are c0-creating the most Sacred of Unions. Intimacy between two parties who are agreeing to share all the layers of their selves from hearts, minds, souls are committed to continually building intimacy no matter the circumstances which can arise from inside their own selves or outside their selves. Fear of commitment arises no matter the circumstances as all fears arise from the mere courting of a potential partner. If one party does not know s/he feels the desire for marriage when entering the relationship, s/he may hesitate. If the other partner knows s/he has entered relationship with the desire to marry yet does not express this to the other party, this may come as surprise. Not everyone is prepared to consider a lifetime commitment. It takes time and energy to get through the stages of getting to know one’s own self not to mention getting to the self of a partner.

Building intimacy also requires two people to discuss the potential outcome of a relationship. Are we building intimacy for eventual marriage? Are we testing intimacy in case we may want marriage? Are we thrown into marriage for reasons we have not chosen? Are we feeling pressured into marriage? What do I need and want? What does s/he need and want? Can we meet our mutual needs? What wants can we live without? What wants are we not willing to sacrifice? Partners need to feel free enough to ask each other probing questions about the meaning of marriage. Both parties can create individual lists of questions as well as be prepared to answer the questions from their partner. Making life easier vs harder makes relationship easier vs harder.

The more we as individuals and couples can create our own unique and not so unique lists of questions about our fears of intimacy in self-reflection and mutual shared reflections creates intimacy vs avoiding, ignoring, blocking intimacy. Troubleshooting one’s own self is a task. But actually two people can make games out of building intimacy and have more fun with each other. Otherwise we can fall in to pitfalls of self-delusions of who we are ourselves and illusions we have intimacy when we are role playing, acting out of scripts from movies we watched as children. The Learning About You Game can become part of the daily, weekly, monthly, yearly ritual. Even when you think you know every thing about your self or partner, there is much more to discover, uncover, examine and enjoy. Life can be an adventure with a partner who loves life and plays by the agreed upon rules both partners establish over the course of time.

Here is Part One and Part Two while this is the third part of a three part series. This series articulates a concise and precise bullet proof bullet point serious of subjects for singles dating with intention to marry and couples heading toward or even within a marriage. This always more to learn from and within one’s partnership. Unmasking, unveiling, revealing our hidden, secret, sacred selves within relationship with a partner is the ultimate intimacy between two persons in love – compassion and passion. May  your journey into partnership be blessed and sacred.

Enjoy,

Jedhi

Sacred Marriage Scroll with White backgroundRelationship has two key words- relate and ship. These two terms express that there is more than one party. As much self-reflection we can do as individuals, we have our blinders on protecting our fears of abandonment, rejection, loss and other fears. These fears are held deep within our selves, our psyche, our hearts and souls. Protecting our hearts and souls is natural. All animals are self-protective. No organism survives in the wild without protecting itself in some capacity or another. Some animals have natural camouflage while others hide in the shade, dark places. Others have large teeth or horns or claws. The list goes on. The fact is that as we share our selves, we are going to reach the points where we are in fear of sharing our selves. These layers of self-protection are embedded into our survival mechanism. However, there are all kinds of memory patterns and traumas stored in our hearts, minds and soul. Understanding our emotional responses requires self-reflection on our own memories and isolating our memory patterns.

Our memory patterns can cause us to react to situations which we feel as emotionally charged while others in the same position are not emotionally charged. Two people in a couple can have two separate and unique emotional responses to the same stimulus.  The stimulus can be as simple as the smell or taste of a food, sense of touch, hearing certain sounds, seeing various colors or environmental scenery. The list goes on in countless sensory experiences of perceiving the world from both inside and outside our selves. These layers can be triggered in both positive and negative ways and means such as watching a movie and having an emotional response of anger, fear, sadness or laughing. One partner may be crying while one is laughing watching  the same scenes of a film at a cinema theater. Creating safety and security includes allowing a partner to ask about questions in order to create intimacy to understand the similarities and differences of perception between partners. We cannot assume we know why our partner cries or laughs when we laugh or cry at the same scene we both are watching. The list of examples can on and on. Every time we are sharing our experiences of emotion is an opportunity to examine our own selves as well as learn more from our partners about their selves and communicate and build trust and intimacy.

Sometimes our previous experiences of feeling pain about love creates an illusion that  love is the cause of pain. This illusion can become embedded due to various experiences from childhood onto adulthood. Some people have early childhood trauma which never leaves them. Some people have trauma later in life. There are infinite experiences of pain we can accumulate over the course of our lives. Our love lives also can accumulate painful traumas. It does not matter the actual memory if it is remembered as being attached to pain. Pain can be mental, emotional, psychic, physical, and also sexual. We cannot assume any one person’s pain is less than or greater than another person’s pain. The pain a person holds may be entirely unique and unexplainable to others. Yet, in a one to one relationship, emotions surface and whether we can pin point the cause of the emotions, we must learn to handle our emotions. The fact of this matter is that love opens us to feelings which triggers our emotions whether we understand our own selves or not. All we can do is allow our self and partner the freedom to express emotions without criticism and judgment.  This is a point of mystery and unity.  A partnership is based on partnering as a team effort. If we do not know, we need to agree to accept and acknowledge that we do not always need to know. At least as emotions surface, as long as we are safe and secure, we can build trust based on the team effort in co-creating trust.

Needless to say that some people have sexual trauma and have natural fear of sex. Yet, people who have no sexual trauma may also have fear of sex. It seems that they are merely afraid for no reason. Ultimately, sex is intimacy which renders partners vulnerable. Creating safety, security, trust are keys to breaking through fears of being vulnerable. Some people can have sex and not express emotions. Sex may be the key for those people to actually open to becoming more vulnerable to finally discuss their other fears verbally. If one partner expresses intimacy through sex while the other does not, a lot of talking is needed to create communication between the partners. If both partners are oriented towards sex a means of intimacy, they both will need to create safety, and security and trust from their sexual relation and build toward other forms of communication.

In some ways, this is much like romancing each other as they may need to express affection through ritualistic ways and means much like animals.  If both partners are afraid of sex, both must learn to communicate by allowing each other to express emotions and co-create a ways and means of learning how to accept and acknowledge their own individual emotions as well as expressing their emotions freely with the partner. There is an endless list of reasons for one partner or both partners to feel fear of sex and both partners need to discuss the ways and means of researching, examining and sharing resources from sources of information to unlock their sexual emotional desires to handle their intimacy through sex.

Part One and Part Three are here while this is the second part of a three part series. There is more than enough to ponder upon between the issues of love and sex. Some people believe that love must come first. Some people believe that sex must come first. For certain, two people entering a relationship need to discuss their views on love and sex as well as the rules of engagement. There is plenty of resources both in print, film and internet media to discover more and more fun and exciting issues about love and sex which can be shared with one’s partner.

 

Enjoy,

Jedhi

 

Sacred Marriage Scroll with White background“If I hadn’t learned from you about my ex from 30 years ago,  I wouldn’t have tried again. Now I’ve wasted 30 years because there was no one to explain or guide. So many on the sites are broken and distraught because they don’t get where they are at and feel they have lost everything.” ~ Jed Heart anonymous member

Sacred Union Marriage Issues Checklist is a bullet proof bullet point list for troubleshooting intimacy issues in a partnership-any partnership between two consenting adults. If and when two consenting adults decide together to play out fantasies within the context of their intimacy, that is not covered here. Fantasy that is covered come from various sources including children’s fairy tales and other stories, television shows and movies, theater films and plays as well many other countless media sources. Role playing does not create emotional intimacy. Instead, role playing creates limits on individuals who have feelings and emotions. Creating a checklist of role playing characters each partner idolizes and seeks to act out as a means of acting romantic will open intimacy further. If and when both partners can communicate to each other about their internalized fantasies intimacy is able to seep through the role play characters and the real intimacy begins.

Beyond role playing, shedding off the layers of ideals is quite an amazing feat. There will be many layers of ideals that we can discover when we allow our partner to express what s/he feels, sees, hears as feedback. Ideals are very difficult to discern. We need to be able and willing to feel sacred, safe and secure to trust our partner to express our feelings and emotions freely. Our partner is more likely than not to point out our ideals as we tend to act and react emotionally in our relationship. Good starting points is writing a checklist  of all the ways we say, “should”, “would”, “could”. It helps us in relationship if we can make troubleshooting intimacy as a game vs a means of being right vs wrong.

Mentioning right vs wrong, the need to be right is a sure sign of perfectionism. Yet, there are also many ways a person can demonstrate perfectionism. A checklist of needs vs wants can aid in troubleshooting perfectionist ideals. The exercise of feeling safe and secure enough to allow our partner to feel free to open her/his mind to associate layers of what s/he feels, thinks about what s/he expects to be perfect is ultra intimacy. This layer of expectation may be a very sensitive intimacy source of irritating agitating needs to feel loved. Consider a partner may have been expected to act towards others in certain ways as well as act to expect others to treat him/her in certain ways. Every person has unique expectations built from birth and childhood throughout adult relationships in all areas of life-family, school, work, religion, social, and other previous partners.

This article is part one of a three part series. At this point, it is enough to ponder fears of accepting and acknowledging our attractions and emotional responses to potential mates. Denial of our emotions can lead us to avoid, ignore and otherwise sabotage building intimacy at any point in a mutual attraction from before it manifests as a visible relationship or at any time between meeting to actually communicating, dating and oven well beyond into a marriage. Emotional hiding may occur at any time fear rears its head. Pondering fear will bring up enough memories of all ways and means we have felt embarrassed, humiliated, maybe even merely humbled. Shying away from sharing our feelings and opening our awareness to our emotions takes skill in self-flection and communication with others. Learning how to feel safety and security in order to feel we can trust others is not easy nor simple. It merely sounds good. In practice, it takes both courage and bravery to lose self-reflective self-consciousness and express our inner most hidden feelings and emotions with a potential partner or partner. Denial of emotions which are painful can cause all sorts of trust issues.

This is a point where Positive Thinking does not do the trick. It is self-examination, ruthless digging into the dungeons of our most hidden emotional laden memories which is the key to reveal our selves to our own selves and then to a partner. Sometimes, the potential partner or partner sees, hears and knows us better than we imagine as they are viewing our actions and reactions from the outside. It can obvious that we are denying our feelings and emotions. Of course that is in itself pain to become aware that we may not be able to hide from a potential mate. Yet, learning to accept and acknowledge our feelings and emotions even while we feel vulnerable is enough to break through our emotional patterns of hiding and denial. There is much to be pondered for one’s self and partner. A partnership will stall or a break up may occur if emotional withholding becomes habitual. If one party is not certain s/he can accept and acknowledge both parties are in relationship, whether discussed or not, it is time to create a list of questions starting with this one, “How do you feel about me and you?” or, “Are you thinking and feeling that we are heading into a relationship?” or, “Are we in a relationship?” A relationship may be happening or not happening depending on the intimacy both parties are able and willing to discuss about their definitions of relationship. No one needs or wants to feel s/he is off guard and in a relationship s/he has not agreed to enter as a partner. Sometimes, one or both parties merely need a check in to discuss their relationship basis and define their feelings and emotions more than they previously discussed. At some point, a relationship exists for both or it does not. And, this must be agreed upon by both consenting adults to accept and acknowledge that they are both in partnership in the relationship.

To be continued… Part Two, Part Three

Enjoy,

Jedhi

 

 

 

I am do not feel the Wanting, Needing and Heart Pain. I had throat and heart pain this past week due to feeling the Pain of Separation. I have been in my Grieving Process. I was the one who brought up that We had to release the Intensity of Wanting and Needing of Merging. I had no intention of breaking up and separating. However, that is the outcome. I had felt that we needed to focus on our own home base to prepare for meeting. Living a world apart, I have to coordinate my income and living conditions to handle travel. I needed time and space to prepare my environment for change. She needed time and space to create the environment where she lives. It seemed to be too much as it was a constant anxiety not at all helped by the distance between our worlds. Every fear and doubt came up. I was typically opening and sharing as much as mine as possible so that there would be no hidden emotional signaling. That was also overstimulating and overwhelming for emotionally. She was not telling me her own issues. That was causing me fear that she had fear of intimacy and that I was going to arrive and trigger her to emotionally withdraw which could and most likely trigger me to emotionally withdraw. We had our first argument in March. We went through some days of breakup. Then we broke through the emotional barriers and opened up to vulnerability. That deepened our senses of commitment. I felt that we had crossed through to trust each other.

However, vulnerability was waxing and waning. Finally, the us Pull was creating a sense of distancing. And, the more I tried to point this in varieties of ways, including sharing deep core memories and belief systems which were breaking, the more she could not understand that I was sharing my Pain of Separation. Instead. Her reaction was to tidy up my messy emotions by telling me that I was Fighting Yourself (Myself). I had pointed out that she was also doing the same by trying to tell me that I am doing something wrong. We both did that actually, the pointing out what the other was doing to argue. So, we were pointing out what was causing us to argue and that became a cycle we were not able break, Merely, we could not just accept that we were seeing the same things and different things and not able to let it go. We were rotating around the Need to Be Heard. Both of felt this Need to Be Heard equally. Yet that Need to Be Heard is an issue that we both needed to release within our own selves. We both know, have regularly discussed that we both feel the same. That we both are sharing the same emotions and intentions. This Need to Be Heard is intense. It creates this Sense of Division which is actually and illusion. Even though she said I am Fighting Myself, and I was arguing with her explaining I am Vulnerable and In Fear of Losing Myself Within Her I know that she was right. Yet, she was not at all sharing her sense of Needing Space and Time as I was telling her she needed. She was denying that she Needed Space and Time for Freedom to do things without Needing and Wanting constant Merging into Union. And, when she broke with me, she told me she Needed Freedom… what I had been telling her for weeks but not intending to break up. So, that is the crux of the Union. I feel that the real issues are of Emotional Release of Old Emotional Blocking and Emotional Withdraw Patterns for both of US. Not just Me: Not just Her.

I am working on doing things that need to be done, complete projects, start projects which will be ongoing and accomplish some goals. Some things are super simple as cleaning and clearing areas of my house to prepare for me to be able to travel. Some are complex like redesigning my website after it crashed some years back. Of course, there are many tasks to do to keep my self completely busy. I could not do a lot of these when we were Needing and Wanting to be Together daily. The Daily Vortex of Needing and Wanting was driving us into obsessive and possessive behaviors. I had stopped quite a lot of social interaction. I have had to reset my daily routines to focus on my home base with intention to continue to be open for meeting all the changes I have worked toward to handle being away from home base and starting a new home base. The concept was that my home would by our second home base. And, we could travel when we were ready to handle that level of spiritual work in the world together.

For me, being ultra sensitive, I am often precognitive, seeing ahead and hearing voices giving me warnings and heads up. I say voices because I hear male and female voices. These are not the same voices. They are different. They have different messages. Some messages are not at all for me but for other people This is an issue that makes knowing what to do a challenge. I can hear a voice that is not so pleasant but a plea for help. Precognitive Dreams and Visions are troublesome to the One. She feels that she needs to make her own decisions. Me telling her a dream, she could not and would not accept that I was seeing and experiencing anything was real. She told me I am projecting. She is not like that. She would never do that. That was our first fight. I was furious. It takes a lifetime to continually test precognition against reality. I cannot have my own partner telling me I do not know what I am perceiving. That is like telling me that I do not know myself. I was adamant that is dangerous to my health and well being. At the Core Soul issue, I have experienced being Burned as a Witch. I had brought this up several times as I had felt called to travel to United Kingdom over 15 years ago. However, the Astral Dead are layers of Beings I can See, Hear and Feel. 17917395_808080032676779_3000596839561383524_oThat experience is overloading to my body, mind, heart, nervous system. I knew for years that I would travel to United Kingdom but needed to feel safe and secure with the friends around me. I could not feel safe and secure with her if she is telling me that I am Projecting. I would never say that to her. I know that would undermine her own sense of self. Now, she feels that I am Burning Her at the Stake because I have been so open to share my feelings and emotions and presently, we are having a non-agreement.

We are Separate because she feels she cannot handle argument and fighting. I feel that we need to learn to handle each other’s Emotions and Emotional Responses. And, if that means there is an Emotional Drama, so be it. I am all for Emotional Release and Group Processing to support the shifts and changes we both need to heal. Neither of Us can actually be in a relationship with anyone given the Core Emotional and Soul issues we are processing. So, I am not feeling fear and doubt. I know We must both work through what We both triggered. With all the various drama, I am fine. I feel it is all a matter of processing and learning how to handle emotions in our relationship. I say Union. I am committed to Ultimate Union.

 

Due to my lucid (conscious of the subconscious) awarness in my lucid dream with my elders last night, mainly my fraternal grandfather, I am here now cracking the code while mediating on ideals of love, life giving (to self, others… chain reaction), unconditional love, no space memories that whip and frame connections, the self, the holdings, releasings, and awarness of the unconditional- be it love! just wanted to share what I really think about, write about, revisit, am driven by. If more people knew how to got themselves to Unconditional Love there would be a lot less: cancers out there, fewer ‘ Aleppo’s ‘, no trumps, no bernies, etc- etc.

I don’t give a flying elephant about my political correctedness- used to maybe back when I, then a wide eye high school junior, worked out my handshakes in the Press Office for then NYC Mayor Rudolph Giuliani, who America now finally understands as someone who is morally corrupt and connected to equally corrupt FBI agents- the worst of the best. Best Medicine of your life- free your mind— the world is a more intense & magical and the heart stronger than some- or, most dare to give it credit for. Love unconditionally. Whatever it fucking takes. Because the decision cannot me made for you. You were not born a slave, in fear for your heart- you owe it to yourself to die free. 12/17–18/16

I have thoroughly enjoyed reading this book, The Seven Levels of Intimacy by Mathew Kelly. There are issues that I have brought up again and again and again: relationship is not merely relating but is a partnership. And, bringing feelings, emotions as well as ideas, concepts, thoughts, memories processing together to coordinate needs and wants is a lot of work. It requires opening to one’s own feelings, emotions and thought processes as well as opening to the feelings, emotions and thought processing of another human being.

The viewpoints we have from childhood onto adulthood carry us into relationship yet along the way, life tests our beliefs, abilities to adapt, thrive and survive. Facing changes in health, wealth, and various obstacles life can throw onto our paths, being able to approach communicating with a partner is required to focus on the issues which need to be addressed on day to day, year to year basis. Choices, decisions must be shared, negotiated. If we can come to a consensus we can make healthy choices. If we compromise our values, we may not make healthy choices. There are compromises we make based on changes in our values. Over time, our values may shift and most likely will shift. We may find that our positions on certain issues may change from our view points changing. We may learn more about what is true and real and what is idealistic and fantasy mostly. A relationship challenges us to view our partner’s view points. That in itself is one of the most growth oriented challenging aspects of relationship.
I have emphasized mutual dreams, visions and astral experience. That is because the more attuned we are to our partners, the more we share extrasensory perceptions. The more we experience being extrasensory perceptive and with a partner, the more we can attune our selves to reality as a basis of making choices. The more we make decisions from a mutually agreed upon perspective, the more effective we are in co-creating a mutually inclusive lifestyle.

I am sharing the quote from the Seven Levels of Intimacy because although the author does not discuss the visceral experiences of intimacy, he does discuss the necessity of openly share mutual needs and wants as the seventh level, the highest or deepest level of intimacy. Co-creating a lifestyle requires agreement on the essential desires… legitimate needs in a relationship. Here is the quote:

“The seventh level of intimacy is where our quest to know and be known by each other turns into a truly dynamic collaboration. This final level of intimacy is the level of legitimate needs. We all have legitimate needs. If you don’t eat, you will die. If you don’t breathe, you will die. As we discussed earlier, these legitimate needs are most easily understood in relation to the physical realm, but we have legitimate needs in each of the four aspects of life, physical, emotional, intellectual, and spiritual. Knowing each other’s legitimate needs is a very important part of our quest to know each other in relationship. As an individual, you thrive when your legitimate needs are being met. The same is true for your significant other, your children, parents, friends, and colleagues. Having what we want doesn’t necessarily cause us to thrive; having what we need causes us to thrive. The seventh level of intimacy is not only about knowing each other’s legitimate needs but also about helping each other to fulfill them. If you have a great relationship, will your legitimate needs always be met? No. Sometimes things just happen, and our legitimate needs are the casualties. But this should be the exception, not the norm. When our legitimate needs chronically go unmet, we become irritable, restless, discontented, and frustrated. An individual and a relationship can endure these stressful emotions for only so long.
The seventh level of intimacy is about collaborating in the most dynamic way to know and tend to each other’s legitimate needs. It is about creating a lifestyle with the person we love that is focused on the fulfillment of legitimate needs, driven by the understanding that the fulfillment of legitimate needs causes the human person to thrive… and causes our relationships to thrive. Here, at the pinnacle of our quest for intimacy, we are able to share our needs with those closest to us. It is awe-inspiring to see a couple, or a family, working together to identify and fulfill each other’s legitimate needs. When you see such a relationship, you just know it enjoys a powerful intimacy. Through the acceptance of each other’s different and sometimes opposing opinions (the third level), the revelation of our hopes and dreams (the fourth level), the honoring of each other’s unique feelings (the fifth level), and the awareness of each other’s faults, fears, and failures (the sixth level), we have learned a variety of ways to revere and celebrate the individuality of our partner. Now, in the seventh level, through the discovery of each other’s legitimate needs, we can begin to build a lifestyle that helps each of us become the-best-version-of-ourselves. Do you know what your legitimate needs are? Do you know what your significant other’s legitimate needs are? Kelly, Matthew (2005-11-15). The Seven Levels of Intimacy: The Art of Loving and the Joy of Being Loved (p. 217). Touchstone. Kindle Edition.”

I highly advocate studying intimacy for all types of relationships. Whether between two people, a family, a group we have different levels of intimacy. As long as we are being authentic and real, we are sharing our selves. We cannot avoid and ignore intimacy. All of our relationships requires some level of intimacy. We are relating to people all of the time. In the Seven Levels of Intimacy, banter is the first level. We have that wherever we go to do business – shopping and etc. We make friendships based on higher levels of intimacy. And, we have partnerships based on the highest levels of intimacy. This book has been a pleasure to read as it does not so much teach or instruct but gives order to the issues about intimacy. It has helped me to sort through my vast experience of all types of relationship as well as be able to communicate the issues about intimacy that I had not previous been able to explain. I hope others read it, enjoy it and discuss it.

Namaste,
Jedhi

My evolution from being a private person–dreaming with my spirit guides to being a public person dreaming with people around the world has been one of intense inner growth. My fear that I could not find a partner given that I can dream with people around the world has been a real one. My astral being is more than I am as a person. I can only merely communicate as a human whereas my astral being can travel through space and time, from past to present to future in no order whatsoever other than what is presented as necessary for learning and healing. I literally have been afraid that no partner could handle the visceral sensitivity I require to be in an intimate relationship. I had been withholding my feelings and emotions based on my past experiences.
All of last year, I was battling with myself to allow myself to feel my feelings and express my emotions. I have written all about that. However, it is a real situation. My partner has to be on board with being able to feel and emote. I cannot do that alone in a two-way relationship. Not only that, but my partner also has to grow beyond her own fears of being aware that she is also an astral being who can also be present in space, time, past, present and future in no order other than her own soul ordains necessary. That is a tall order. Albeit, I made the request for that order to my Luminous Light Being.
So, what kind of things are going on that I am feeling I need to express now? Talking about being a Spirit Guide while one is alive is not actually been easy to do. We have had all kinds of labels for people who can astral travel and heal and teach others in the astral. However, in 2003, I was shown that my Luminous Light Being is a Spirit Guide and that I am that being in the Light. This self-realization falls flat on the ears of atheists, and squelches of ears of theists. Even those who are Buddhists are skeptical, criticial and judgemental. However, that only leaves Yogis. Yoga has been usurped by athletes. But the real Yoga means Union as in Union with Source or God. And, authentic Yogis become Spirit Guides in the Flesh. That is what Yogis do.
I have not discussed any particular belief system because no belief gets you beyond the Mind. God Realization is an Ultimate State of Being. For all intent purposes, being Self-Realized has all the heartache of Non-Self-Realized. The real test of Union with Source is Facing Opposition. Love of Other as Self is the Goal. And there is a real problem with people who do not feel that once one begins this path s/he can have a partner. That is why I began Jed Heart. Yes, we can have Union with Source and with Partner.
To be in Partnership with a Twin Flame means we are working on the same Soul Issues that divide All of Us from Source. I mean, the Twin Flame Partner has worked through most of their Soul Lessons and the remaining ones are Shared with the Twin Flame. Those remaining Soul Lessons may be the hardest lessons. That is often why the Twin Flame relationship is the hardest one to yield and let go of our power issues. I am no different in that respect. I have enjoyed astral travel from young childhood. Being able to willingly handle my own astral experiences and learn and grow has been a life time of adventure. Sharing that adventure has been a blessing. But sharing my power, that has yet to occur at the level of Twin Flame Partnership. I have equally feared it and desired sharing power. However, I know that is going on.
I have to have a great sense of humor to be able to handle my own inner battles over power. I have a great sense of humor. And, some days, I am perfectly happy to not share my power. On other days, I would love to share my power. It is not about myself though. It is about the evolution of my Soul. And, my Soul does not accept my human excuses. As embarrassing as that is true, it is true. If I do not comply with my Luminous Light Being, I will dream all kinds of alternate realities. I will be shown what is wrong with my thinking and I will have to adjust my self. It is as simple as that. It can be quite embarrasing that I know that not just my own Light Being does this but that all Light Beings have this same awareness of each other. That is the real blessing in disguise. In the Light, we are transparent, we cannot hide.
And, so that is an incentive to keep releasing all kinds of internal excuses and denial about sharing power. Withholding my power withholds sharing on a planetary level. And, that is not funny. Our planet needs all of the Light Beings present and available to teach, heal, and pass on our knowledge of accessing the Light for generations to come. This Twin Flame movement is about that: bringing Powerful Souls into Union to Save Our Planet. That is the bottom line. So, there, I said it, it is a battle between self and Self- litle self and Greater Self in the World. Choosing Your Mate is Greater than You and Your Mate. It is about Being the Best You, the Best Both of You.
Jedhi

I have been having a lot of powerful flying dreams in the last year. Last night, I was showing off my flying skills. I was demonstrating how to avoid a major storm system. When I went to sleep, I had felt I wanted to discuss issues about relationship, power and handling power with a partner. I wanted to discuss the core issues that are incorrect about current teachings in the Twin Flames movement. I began the Jed Heart Project to open up my own personal life experiences as a Light Being.

For years, I had trained groups of an average of seven people to dream together, learning and practicing astral skill sets. I know by experience of dreaming with people around the world since my mid-twenties which is around twenty five years, that the most common misconception about Twin Flame relationship is telepathy. My first relationship began when I was sixteen. That relationship validated spiritual teachings I had received throughout my childhood. We had mutual dreams and were telepathic. And, we both merged as astral beings in the Light in the last year we were together. We both did a tremendous amount of inner work for several years as friends. When you love someone unconditionally, you may not need to be with them to love them. You can still maintain soul work at a distance. We learned how to process our emotions separately without being sexually intimate.
That opened me to being able to handle more intimacy. I went to college while I was working. But when I transferred to the University, I attended full time. At that time, after my partnership ended, I began meeting Soul Mates. I was surrounded by a group of friends and learned that I could dream with them. They were confused by this fact. It was intense for me to navigate layers of intimacy with friends who I was not attracted to be lovers. And, that perplexed some of my Soul Mates. On their end, they experienced this intimacy as meaning it is a relationship as in love relationship. So, for me, I already had mutual dreams and telepathy with my group of Soul Mates in college over twenty years ago.
I developed workshops to train small groups of people to handle the intense intimacy of group mind, mutual dreaming. I was guided to design and develop workshops to bring out ancient tribal teachings. In our modern world, people had become estranged to their own extrasensory perceptions. And, for those of us Extra Sensitives and Ultra Sensitives, we were living in an underground bubble of communicating with each other through various groups. The Spiritualist Groups was a main source of meeting other people who had various so called gifts. As part of my childhood, I was introduced into Spiritualist Groups around the age of twelve. That was a formal means of stepping up into becoming an adult Ultra Sensitive in the 70s. However, my teachings from my guides were outside the Box-every box. As many of the teachers at the time, I traveled to people’s homes and taught private workshops. Later, I scheduled workshops and needed to rent space. Over time, I was traveling up to 35 weekends a month-performing headings, giving presentations, working one on one and in group My life was dominated by my schedule. My schedule was exhausting.
Every spiritual teacher who anyone has heard about or never heard about goes through his missionary phase of experience. People crave spiritual awakening, guidance, mentorship and training. our world had become bankrupt from ancestors being persecuted, tortured and killed for nearly two millennium. In ancient and primordial times, one group could over take another group of people by assassinating the powerful leaders, elders and women of a clan or tribe. Over time, the abilities to protect elders and women became a primary goal in order to protect the natural intelligence of a group-clan or tribe. Creating new ways to innovate astral skills was a primary task of Spiritual Warriors of both male and females. I am such a product of an ancient blood line. And, that means, I had to learn astral skill sets which can alleviate an opposing force such as storm system. The power of dreams is not merely in dreaming or in sleep. The power comes from our astral connection to Source. Without that connection there is only illusions and delusions.
Understanding how to compare and contrast the variations of dreams, dream skill sets are required. Those skill sets can predicate fate and destiny. Without those skills, only wishful thinking can occur. And, that is where we are in our World Wide Spiritual Movement. We are in need of leaders and healers with intense intentional skill sets. I had hoped to find my own mate when i had opened to accepting a partner. The skill set I have must be matched and synchronized wtih a partner. I have an affinity to work within Soul Groups. I can work with many groups and attune to them in order to train them. However to work with a partner, I need to be attuned to my partner just as animals are attuned. I need to be so synchronized that it feels like we are moving as One in Two Bodies. I understand the requirements. I understand the intimacy. I also understand that a Mutual Vision of Purpose needs to arise in order for synchronization of teachings, healing and other skills sets.
Not everyone is going to be a healer and teacher in the world at large. That is a great task to take on clients and students around the world. To give a picture of what is required to be a World Renown Spiritual Healer and Teacher, take a microcosmic snapshot of handling closer relationships. All of the closer Soul Group relationships must be evolving. All of the work we do within our closer Soul Groups, we must continue to do while we are expanding into other Soul Groups. Otherwise, we become emotionally distant those those we love the most. That is an inherent danger. We do not need to become solitary spiritual yogis to evolve. Those on the path of spiritual evolution must also be resolving Soul Mate, Soul Group evolution prior to Twin Soul and Twin Flame relationships. All of the relationships must reflect a pattern of evolving. That does not mean any one person or group is perfect beyond human imperfection. We are not faceted diamonds. We are not solid geometric forms. We are evolving, transforming, moving sentient beings with anima-Life Force.
Personally, I keep moving through my own evolution of relationships with family and friends. To be very candid, I have former love relationships just like many other people in the world. However, my relationships are based on a continuum. I have had mutual dreams with Soul Mates who are past partners. When there is an issue that I am working on deeply in my Soul Work, I may have a dream with a past partner. Some of my past partners share dreams openly with me at times. I share some of my dreams with past partners if there is a need. I am being very candid about this fact. To make space and time for partner, I have meditated on discerning the difference between a Soul Mate, Soul Flame and Twin Flame.
I can only imagine that my Twin Flame will take on the power of handling a scale of healing, teaching and being in the Light with me as an equal mate. What that would look like for myself and partner, I had left that blank. I had left public work in order to continue writing to support Light Teachings. Life circumstances brought me head on with the facts of life. I had to handle the deaths of family members, move three hours north of my old home base, transition out of relationship, and then ground my life again. I spent a lot of inner work processing relationship and family issues. I was coming back to layers of my self, working from reflecting on childhood memories, then teen-age, working my way to present time. I am so glad I finally hit that by last fall. I made full circle.
In the Ancient Greek teachings on Twin Souls, it is stated that we learn through our Soul Mate relationships and then we arrive at a point where we have accumulated Soul Knowledge. At this point, we lose interest in Soul Mates. It is a natural transition for those Souls who have been evolving. The Platonic School was a school of deep thought and self-reflection. Know Thy Self is the motto. So, it is those Souls who Self-Reflect who arrive at losing interest in Soul Mates. And, at that point their only attraction is to complete the cycle of learning with a Twin Soul. In the Platonic School, it was said that the Soul evolved for 2000 years before arriving at the last life time. When I experienced being given my Soul Name and Light Body Purpose, I was given the summary of All my Past Lifetimes. In that message, the Entire Summary of the Meaning of All My Past Lifetimes meant that I had been a Spiritual Healer and Teacher many times and I was being awakened to remember my ongoing mission as a Spiritual Teacher.
In this Life, I was to take out a set of Light Teachings to the World. That was intense and overwhelming for me. Since that time, I had to learn to handle more and more energy in the astral. I had to handle periods of releasing all kinds of internal emotional and mental patterns. I had to let go of other people projecting onto me. I had to let go of what others felt and thought about me. I had to learn keep my heart open and yet not feel personal about other people’s personal issues. I had to accept that my life is not one that is my own in the sense of feeling that I was sought in dreams and daily life. I retreated into my private world, intending to have a family life after all and share my life with my close circles of friends and family. Two years ago, it became clear to me that the world was ready for understanding what I know. I had been preparing to handle a partner and maintain a private life in order to prepare for a public life. Knowing and sensing that my natural partner would do this on her own without me knowing or helping in any way, I have kept that part of my life open to processing changes I needed to make and intimacy I would need to cultivate.
Being that I am communicating with Soul Groups, the issues would be vast. For instance, when I worked with one of my partners, we did healing and teachings together. During our travels and work with individuals and groups, we were constantly faced with deeper layers of Soul Group memories and emotional materials. For instance we were working with a group. One member of the group had come to us both to tell us about her partnership issues. We both discussed what she was telling us each in the astral. I had to take her aside and let her know that her astral being had been communicating her relationship problems with both of us. On other occasions, we both had simultaneous past life memories with various clients and students. One of the prevalent past lifetimes was Ancient Egypt. One year, I began having clients, students have memories of being a Caveman. I also had memories of being a Caveman at that time. So, there were these various processes I had to process with my partner while we did spiritual work together.
One issue which effected our personal relationship is that my partner was not able to open her own Light. She needed me to use my astral body to clear her astral body by bringing in the Light. First. we were traveling hundreds of miles and up to a thousand miles in a weekend on a regular basis. I was healing and teaching people to handle the Light. My partner asking me to take her to the Light during the week was more work for me. And, in addition, she had been raised Catholic in a Catholic country in Europe. So, she had this constant sense of me being like Jesus. This was driving me nuts. I had no intent on emulating Spiritual Masters who would be viewed as non-human.
I embraced my human nature. Yet, often the work of taking people to the Light opened me to this projection of being non-human. This incessant ideation of being a cult figure is a serious problem. To break free from this problem, I had to continually delve into my human nature to release the core issues. Being center of attention is a human experience. Being loved, respected and cherished by many people is an honor. Yet to be expected to be perfect continually then be criticized and judged for being a real human is a intense emotional stress. It becomes a crisis when those around you cannot handle the stress with you. The stresses on my partners working on handling my public life was immense. There was the personal intensity of sharing dreams and telepathy. From what I have been told by past partners, that part was intense. In addition, adding the intensity that I had mutual dreams, healing dreams and telepathy added dimensions of intensity. One major issue was jealousy. Naturally, any partner who could not handle the layers of Soul Group issues could not handle relationship with me. Letting go of intimacy is heart breaking. I needed to understand how to handle extreme layers of intimacy while in partnership.
A lot of Twin Flame authors refer to Surrender often. Surrender has many layers of self for certain. I have never had a problem with Surrendering to relationship. I have documented my astral merging processes since I was sixteen years old. I have been focusing on intimacy–intimacy in the astral, intimacy in mutual dreams, sharing dreams, sharing experiences in both Life and Light. Imagine merging in the astral with a partner in the Light. This is to me is the ultimate merging experience. I have yet to discuss sexual intimacy referring to being in the Light. I can state that astral merging with a partner in the Light is erotic. There is no sexual equivalent by merely having sex. It is true that you do not need to touch. It is also true that you can be at distance from anywhere in the world. Our Astral Beings are not bound by time nor space. However, to harness the energy of both Souls, they must be united in the physical. The physical is where we manifest as human beings. The purpose of the merge is harness the creative power of both Souls.
Being able to handle Light in relationship requires equal power as well as equal vulnerability.
Handling both power and vulnerability requires emotional and mental honesty. As layer of psyche and emotion release deeper patterns of memories, astral connections with other astral beings in the Soul Group–family, friends, clients, students, people we meet anywhere and everywhere–both partners need to be able to hold the space and time to heal with each other as well as transform, shift and evolve as a partnership to gain power as team, a couple. This entire process is like making a soup or fruit smoothie. All of the ingredients are added to create layers of taste, texture, nutritional value. The end result is an edible meal. A relationship has so many other layers that all those parts need to come together with the finesse of a chef creation. In other words, the couple needs to be presentable to offer a palette of healing and teaching within the Soul Group. If nothing is happening but emotional chaos, there is no central power and there is not discernable intelligence. And, there is no spiritual teachings. From out of the ashes, a Phoenix should arise. If that is not happening for both partners in synchronization, their partnership is not a Twin Flame Union. It seems to sound harsh. The standard for a relationship should not be whether it is a Twin Flame Union or not. The standard should be the Surrender of Power and Vulnerability to create Intimacy, period. A Twin Flame Union is not necessary to feel love, be in love, be in life long committed relationship.
A Twin Flame Union should not be viewed as the only way to evolve. All along, people evolved. I came into this life with astral experience and developed astral navigation as a child. I thought my first relationship was going to be my last. We both thought and felt we would be together forever and especially after we merged in the Light as astral beings. Yet, that relationship became the foundation for more than I imagined would come to pass. The only reason I felt called to seek out and find my Twin Flame is because of meditation, self-realization and open discussions with Soul Mates over my lifetime. Knowing that I had reached this point where I could not feel emotionally comfortable with any other partner than someone I could share the depth, the Light of my Heart, I realized I could no longer be with a Soul Mate based partner.
For some, it may come as a complete shock of realization that a Twin Flame can exist. For me, it is my lifetime of enlightenment, meditating, asking the Light, waiting for visions and voices for guidance. I expect to meet a Twin Soul who is as familiar with me n the astral, in dreams as I am herself. Before the past year, I did not understand how to handle a Twin Flame articulating what her experience of me meant to her. Now, after deep self-reflection, I do understand that though we may have this astral awareness of each other, our language, terminology, words, metaphors to describe and explain our own individual and unique perceptions may be different. And, I have to be prepared to handle dialogue, discussion, asking “What did you mean?”; “Why are you saying this or that word?”; “What does that mean to you?”; “What does this relationship mean to you?” Things I took for granted because I was going by my own psychic senses, I can no longer take for granted. I have to be clear and clarify. This is a process to clear out the emotional and mental confusion surrounding communicating intimately, fine tuning, learning to compare and contrast each other’s awareness of self, each other and life.
I also believe that if we think we are starting out in a Soul Mate relationship, we may end up in a Twin Flame relationship if both parties continue on the ultimate path of Surrender and Intimacy. It is my goal to highlight as many spiritual based relationship issues as possible and share them so that as our world evolves, people can initiate Spiritual Relationships earlier and earlier at younger and younger ages. This evolution brings a balance to the planet. Instead of single mothers, divorce rates and scattered broken hearts throughout each land mass and island, we can work toward bringing more enlightenment to more people, sooner, younger and prepare them to handle the evolution of Life and Light.
I do write for those who can understand the intention of the information I share as I am humbly offering it knowing that those who receive it are endowed with experience and knowledge and are working through similar relationship issues as spiritual beings evolving on a spiritually evolving planet. Breaking free from the power struggles to be able to share our spiritual selves has been an evolutionary process and we need to be able to handle more intimacy as we surrender to the planetary healing to support each other. No one does this work alone while we may feel alone. My dream, demonstrating the Power of Flying regardless of a Storm System emerging opened me to share more about Power and Vulnerability. Relation–ship is all about handling Fair Weather and Stormy Weather. Can we fly together? That is the question. That answer, “Yes!”
Namaste,
Jedhi

3911989742221662143e77c62b28f10eI learned to meditate by tuning into all the senses of my body. So, I do not do chakra system meditation. I focos on every sensation and pay attention to any feeling and emotion arising.

From there, I can tune in with My inner ears and eyes. In 1995, I made a break through. I was focusing on fear I my heart. I was considering breaking up with the little did I know then would be a major love if my.life. I told her what I was considering and she asked me to think about it. So, I was meditating on my Heart. Next, I found my self as a pointing awareness. That part was not new.

The new part was seeing an electrical webbing of Gold fibers of Light. The question I had asked for my meditation was this: “What am I afraid of?” I knew I was inside of my Heart. I hovered inside my Golden Plasmic Heart. I felt Joy.

By the end of our relationship when she ran and hid in fear, not ever actually breaking uo with me but just dropping off the map, I experienced us as Gold Plasma Light Beings, merging up to the waist. I woke out of that in intense soul pain.

It should be no wonder that when I recant the depth of Heart, Soul, and Light Beings, I am having spiritual experiences which are painful as well as ecstatic. It should be no wonder that I am single as of yet. My experiences of being a human are not for the faint of heart. No former partner would disagree.

All of my relationships are bound in soul connection. After reading the Seven Levels of Intimacy again, I realize that although my relationships are always spiritual and soul based, I have been evolving to release Wants vs Needs.

Each relationship, my Wants were less as I have up unnecessary ideals, goals, earthly possessions. As I let go of Wants, I was pitted against Needs. In my case, I have to give up ideals of Capitolism from which I was raised. I realized early that earthly possessions weighed me down, usurped energy.

I left the Grid and went Off Grid. That challenged each partner. As I opened my realizations to partners who explored living Off Grid with me. So, much of my relationships have been a mutual exploration of letting go of the Modern World Wants and shifting to the Old World Needs.

Living on the Edge of Worlds, World Values, I emphasized my Dreams and Astral Experiences. I allowed my self to feel guided. Partners were also on board until hitting their Edge of Perceptual expansion. That left me continuing my own process on my own. My entire adult life of relationship has been an Evolutionary Soul Process. I have had discussions about Soul Evolution with former partners. I had gauged my Soul Growth with Soul Matesans Soul Flames through deep discussions comparing and contrasting our individual growth.

I leave no pain orders unexamined. After self-reflection, becoming aware of my own feelings and emotions, I open my self to communicate about my discoveries. Fortunately, I began in my first relationship. Over time, I have learned a tremendous amount about Self and Other.

There is less guess work about and from within relationship. Yet I have been adjusting to the bare essence, the bare essential truth of being aware and responsible to communicate clearly and not so clearly is a full on sense of being authentic and real. There is no hiding behind an Open Heart.

I had to understand what it would feel like to open my Heart all the time without fear of people outside of my relationship crossing boundaries, creating tension, criticising, judging, making intimacy difficult to manage from within a relationship. Last year, I opened my Heart Light to share with the World. I realized that my Twin Flame and I are on the path of Sharing vs Covering our Heart Light.

I have learned a great deal over the past year. Light coming through me magnetized and catalyzed various people. I was handling a lot of processing with others. Then I got to a standstill of realization, I needed to focus manifesting my Twin Flame relationship. I accomplished core healing issues with several people and groups. This process opened me to understand the emotional impact my spiritual work has on others outside one on one relationship as well as holding boundaries again and again. Opening my Heart Light, I opened vulnerable soul connections with richer depth of experience.titanium-wedding-bands-for-her

I have discussed being extra-sensitive yet I always need to emphasize the sensory experience as visceral. In order to open to more sensory experience, I had to heal the fear of feeling pain of others. To be understood, I repeat the fact that my experiences of feeling other people’s trauma has been palpable and real for me. Experiences of other people’s traumatic memories has been daunting. I have had to face fear in so many variations exhaustive to my physical body. Because of that, I require a partner who is aware of and holds space and time for my internal shifts from self awareness to other. Meanwhile, I have only wanted to experience my self with a partner. Being psychic has been a challenge. My Twin Flame is My Ultimate Challenge. No one can handle being One on One Psychic and Not Feel the Light from Within without Intention, Focus and Heart.

Admittedly, I did not believe anyone could keep up with me as a Human opening to My Light Being. My first first hurdle to have faith in another Human can handle processing the Light with me as a Soul. The second was to release all of my fear of being manipulative and manipulated because of my vulnerability was a challenge to my Power. Those were no small feats. I had to open my Heart and submerge into depths of my life experiences of fear. I had to open every crevice hiding in my Heart. That was painfilled. Those releases fleshed out my fear of Being Loved. I had to open to my Core Soul Needs. That opened me to realize I had to let go of the Fear of Being Loved, Heard, Seen, Felt as feel my own self. I am so sensitive and I can only expect a partner to be so sensitive. Else, I have no interest.

And, my sensitivity spectrum had to match my behavior. I had outgrow my thought patterns coupled with my memory emotional patterns to shift and change so my Outer Self Reflects my Inner Self. Also, that was no party. Well, it was a big party. I invited past partners and other friends to process all these issues with me. Meanwhile, I made my Heart available to their processes. So, yes I did have an International Intimacy Processing Party for a year. I was leaving no stone unturned.

Although, as Queen sings, “The show must go on…”: I am now Avaialable for my Twin Flame relationship.

I have never been so clear, felt so heart free (at least since opening to adult relationship), and all my ducks are in a row. It only took me 30 years since being a teenager. But not everyone is challenged with memories of other people’s pasts and futures. Understanding my self was no walk in the park. I am not even mentioning all the variations of space and time altered realities I had to sort through to find my self. All in all, I figured how I handle my reality.

All of my own experience and gleaning understanding, I plan on being present and available to and my Partner. It is a whole new relationship reality which I feel is worth sharing and learning from being available to feeling bonded in a more focused sense of serving with other. I have been working towards releasing intense anxiety which comes from fearing loss of self, of goals, of being able to track emotions and learn to allow them overly emerge.

The whole Twin Flame relationship requires such deep core awareness of self, of other and of being aware of each other. It is like Being inside a Hall of Mirrors. Yet, although no one is looking, everyone wants and needs to know. It is like Being a teenager again. Family and friends being are attentive to observe meanwhile you are vying for privacy. Yielding to privacy yet opening to process openly allowed the ultimate reward releasing my hardest to release internal fears of being heard and seen, being transparent. As self-absorbed as I felt, there is no regret but gratitude.

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My Heart Light Mediations opened me to be able to express Love, Fear and without fear of abandonment, rejection, loss, criticism, judgement, and various other emotional attachment.

I used to be very cautious in sharing feelings. I stopped crying at age 5 years old. I opened to crying after my first relationship ended and learned to cry with partner at age 26 years old. So, the last year and a half has been a marathon, a decathalon, race to the finish line-none too slow. And, I made it a year and a half before my fiftieth birthday. What can I do now? Oh, yeah, I can still have an authentic Heart to Heart relationship with friends and loved ones.

Okay, “I am ready and willing whenever your are ready and willing”, I say to my Other Half.

Namaste,

Jedi

Yoga means Yoke, Union. Union between self with Source; Union in Heart, Thought, Deed; Union between Mind, Body, Soul, Spirit–mental, emotional, physical, sexual, spiritual. Surrendering Self to Source is our Yoga. Love is Yoga. Light is Yoga.

All That Is is Yoga.

For decades, I maintained my private life wherein I experienced amazing spiritual experiences within intimate, romantic relationship. I had planned to release my knowledge when I was an elder, beyond range of feeling a need to protect my intimate privacy. However, it became clear: spiritual practitioners around the world would benefit from sharing my knowledge of Being in Love while experiencing Being Light.

It began as a realization that I needed to bridge toe gap between my spiritual practice, experience and knowledge with my own relation status. I felt I had reached the end of karmic soul relationship. Yet, being amongst other spiritual people, I was not romantically attracted. I began to explore the divide inside my self-my soul.
My process of opening to the Light, asking to be guided opened me to discover the depths of my soul, emotional patterns and blocks, mental patterns and limits of perception to realize the meaning of love in all my variations of compassion and passion.

My experiences of opening Heart Light to expand my sense of self beyond boundary, opened to feel safe, secure and trust my process of sharing the Light Lessons of my Soul.

My Luminous Light Being, beyond space and time is Omniscient and Omnipresent. As a Being of Light, my experience of being is not bound but infinitely bound in a Luminous Light. It feels like a contradiction to be Light and be Human. Yet, the Continuum of Perception is non-linear. We are Both and Neither in a momentary lapse of becoming. At one moment we sense separation. At another, we sense union. As we stop our thoughts, we may glimpse the rhythm of movement-energy.

To Awaken to Being is Natural. It is Eternal and Eternally our Sacred Union with Source. Soul mates, Soul Flames, Twin Flames are all variations of the Source reflecting Source. Soul mates are primarily working on being human. Soul Flames are primarily Awakening Each Other. Twin Flames are partial Awakened.

I believe a Soul mate couple can move through stages of Awakening. But such a couple are born Advanced. Civilization has not allowed Awakened beings to feel and live safely due to thousands of years of Holy Ears. Awakened Children would be exterminated at young ages. Very few tribal groups retained their Ancestral Light Knowledge. If those, there are blood lineages on every continent. Over the last hundred years, emissaries from blood lineages engaged in seeking each other in sacred and secret ceremonies and rituals. Our modern movement of Light Beings has been an underground movement until we reached world Mass Awareness. The alignment of ancestral, mystical and metaphysical teachings is allowing is to bridge the Light Realms of our Luminous Beings with our Human nature.

In order to bridge this gap, between our ancestral heritage as Beings of Light, we must accept the spiritual communion in All Our Relations. The Profane must become Sacred. Union of Light and Dark, the awareness of Yin Yang.
The four ancient meanings of Yin Yang: we are eternal opposites; we are eternally becoming our opposite; our opposite resides within us; our opposites eternally transform us. Our relationships continue to transform us, evolving and revolving, never separating us from Source. Our process we are Yoked to Yin Yang is called Yoga.
Namaste

Dear Genie,

You know who you are and we both know what we know about each other. That is nice. It is just hard to know what is going on when it is going on some times. Emotions projecting old memory patterns protecting the eyes from seeing and ears from hearing seems to feel more real at times.

Meanings behind meanings are not necessarily what they are intended to mean nor what they mean when seen and heard. While other meanings are seen and heard as meant to be intended. Aft…er all, meanings shift and change when all the emotions shift and change. Leaving, doubt or no doubt, whichever is the most felt.

Knowing and feeling can be two separate paths or can be one and the same. Though when they diverge, knowing and feeling can both enter a maze. Through the maze are many tunnels, leading to many dreams. Each dream may lead to yet another dream even other dreams. Dreams may be in the past. Dreams may be in the future. Dreams may be about other dreams or dreams which never existed or dreams which repeat.

You know it is hard dreaming all the dreams that you can dream about your dreams. Being in the maze following the paths which lead to many tunnels, if you meet any one who can wake up and wake you up is it really luck?

You know if you awaken and you know when you are asleep, maybe. Maybe this is another dream within a dream. Maybe this is a dream within which you can awaken. Maybe in this dream, you can dream the dreams you wish to dream, maybe. Maybe you can dream the dream. Maybe your dream can dream the dreamer. Maybe the dreamer dreams you dreaming.

You know what I mean when you know what I mean and I know what you mean when I know too. That is nice. When we are dreaming the same dream we know we are dreaming the same meaning. When we are not dreaming the same dream, we are dreaming other dreams. Maybe that is nice. Maybe it is not so nice whichever is most felt.

You know I know you know what I mean when I know you know what I mean. I know you say what you mean to mean even when you do not say what you mean. That is nice. Dream on dreaming the dreamer. Dream the dreamer awake in the dream. Maybe you can awaken the dreamer who dreams you awake.

Genie