Soulmates, Twin Flames, and other Flames
I had been working on my soulmate issues for some odd twenty plus years. I have astral traveling since i was a child. Given that, in high school, I was aware of my attractions to potential partners. I had an inner voice give me information about my attractions. Although falling in love with another female threw me for a loop. I did understand my senses and did not know what hit me for about six months. But, once i got it, I got it.
That said, since that time, I have been able to astral detect an oncoming soulmate. That was my old status prior to the last ten years. I have had more than one experience of merging in the astral with a partner. There are differences in those experiences.
Over the last twenty years, several astral women have entered my dreams to have sex with me. I was in a relationship for more than half that time. I did not know those women, except for two or three. One I met after first meeting her in the astral. I experienced her as my wife in the Wild West. I met her days later and recognized her. She also recognized me as a soul mate at that same time. The other woman had done an apprenticeship with man who apprenticed with Huichol indians in Mexico: she entered my astral to seduce me. I felt her astral hand and my astral hand holding hands as if we were holding hands physically when we met in person one time. I did however put at end to that attraction when I realized that 1)she was a real person who was 2)and, married. I know that a soulmate will be attracted to me in the astral. I knew that we can meet each other in this realm after an encounter in the astral. But, now I know that women who are not appropriate for me can also enter my astral and seduce me. This is a real issue. One must become aware of seduction in the astral and learn to handle those experiences.
Dilemma: yet, now that you know all that, how are you going to choose a partner?
Research: reading about the soulmate and twin flame materials are not always helpful. The materials are not clear enough. There is a limiting factorization of male-female polarity which dominates those materials. I have been making notes on all the issues which I feel are incorrect for years. For instance, there are the teachings that two souls are born from the beginning and separate. Well, I have been studying the egyptian teachings from some authors from egypt, and from those the male-female twin soul is within the same soul, not two separate souls. I like how Shirely Maclaine had her spiritual recall of her twin soul separating into two souls. It is not totally contradictory. Yet, I do not like many of the versions of soulmate and twin flames materials. I feel and think we need to have discussions about our soulmate, twin flame relationships as a community.
Experiences of flame: In 1992, I dated another woman I met at a Halloween party. After we dated for a month, I began having past life dreams with her. And, then I experienced our Light Beings meeting each other in Realm of Light. Our Beings of Light gave each other a briefing of the lessons we were learning from each other as souls. We never became partners. In 1993, I met hundreds of Light Beings who I immediately understood as my Soul Group while in the Light Realms as a Being of Light. I also have had the experience of making love to my former same sex partner in our light bodies in 1998. It was like we were two bodies made of flames merging from the waist down. We were melting into each other with intense passion.
Hypothesis: I cannot believe that all the varieties of psychic, astral and Light experiences are set up for me to be tortured by relationships which cannot manifest as a committed life partnership. I cannot believe that my former partner whom I partially merged with in our Gold Flame bodies is the only soul I can have the kind of merging which describes a twin flame relationship. Having met two Beings of Light beings who altered my views of reality of love, sacrifice and relationship is a sign to me that I still have a Twin Flame and we have not met yet. From my lifetime of romantic experiences in the astral and the Light Realms, I have to believe that becoming a Light Being with another causes the Flame relationship to emerge and that we can evolve as Light Beings toward Merging if we are on the same spiritual path. So far, my previous Light Being Flame Mates were not on the same spiritual path with me.
Summary: my project for over a decade now has been to compare and contrast my own experiences with other Light Beings–other people who are on a spiritual path. I consider this evolving work. And, I consider the evolution of souls on the planet is also evolutionary in spirit.
Namaste
Jedhi