Extreme Jealousy: Facing Fear of Jealousy

I have been tracking my dreams about Extreme Jealousy in my personal relationships. This particular dream has been about my own progress and process through Soul Flame relationships. I derived Soul Flames from the term Twin Souls used in the original book, Twin Souls by Joudry and M… That book came out in 1993. I had already met my second Twin Soul. The fact that I have undergone a Spiritual Awakening, re-initiations through the past life memories of various Shamanic, Priest/esshood lifetimes plus the sensations of being On Fire, I prefer to call these Twin Souls Soul Flames as the term fits more precisely.

Our Primal Instincts are Sexual in Nature. Our Social Survival is based on the Heart as Nurture.

These oppositions must be in Balance. When our Sexual Emotional Nature is out of balance, we become Sex Driven. This causes all variation of sexual game play up as well as abuse, use of others in the pursuit of sex-sexual pleasure. When our Heart Nurture Nature is out of balance, we become weakened by oversensitive feelings and overwhelmed by others emotions. When we balance Sexual Nature with Heart Nature, we combine the Forces of Creation.

There are ancient teachings from around the world which address variations of describing and explaining the Facts of Nature. Shamanic practices are the most Primal in Nature. As a lineage holder to a Primordial Shamanic bloodline tradition, I am sharing basic fundamental human instincts as well as Shamanic Dreaming examples from my own personal life.

The following dreams are from posts I made to track my own process of working on my Twin Flame Core Soul Issue. That would be Extreme Jealousy based on the fact my Twin Flame and my Soul would have been initiates of Primal Shamanic traditions and Ancient Priest/esshood traditions. The culmination of our mutual Soul Purpose would create this Extreme Jealousy caused by both of us being extrasensory sensitive as well as being equally adept in cultivating Sexual Power and Psychic Power. Together, our Merging Process would cause us too culminate the Balance between the Power of Sex and the Power of Love. In that process, we would be facing our mutual Extreme Jealousy.

I was requested to share these dreams openly for those in the general public who need to be aware of their own dreams and awaken to the meaning. Personal in Nature, this is an expose inside of my own Dream World with my Twin Flame.

March 24, 2016

Dedicated to My Friends.

Last week, I had a dream which was intense. We were in shower stall with a woman. She turned into a baby with white skin and chubby cheeks. I said to her, “We are going to start at the beginning.” So, I did a healing which opened her to move through the stages of being a baby to becoming an adult. I asked her name. She said, “Extreme jealousy.”

This was a very intense dream. Her face changed in front of me. A mask of eye make up drawn in the shape of a Marty Gras mask appeared around he eyes. It was very revealing and intense there was an intense attraction between us. I could not discern her identity as her face had been transforming through the dream. I only understood that I was healing her from emotions since she was a baby. I understood that the intensity of attraction to her was healing this core emotions of jealousy.

I had been self-reflecting on all the Extreme Jealousy in my life. First was my father dicking around with all the women. The Extreme Jealousy was all around my father. Women were up in arms about and over my father. Then there was my step-mother. My Scorpio Father and Scorpio Step-mother had the Classic Scorpio-Scorpio relationship–total text book version. Drama in my parent’s lives caused me to fear jealousy as an emotion. I felt it was a destructive force which I could steer clear of.

After relationships with other partners, I felt that Extreme Jealousy was at the root of all of my break-ups and heartbreaks. The women most jealous of me were the ones I loved the most. But as I learned to handle fear and pain face to face with a partner, my partners could not process the depth of their own emotions. When you love another someone and open everything you are and have yet they cannot accept the love because they cannot love themselves enough to handle your love is painful. You wake up to another level of realizing that being in love is not enough. You cannot give what another cannot handle taking.

That is the end of the road for Soul Mates. That is when you need an Equal Partner. That Partner will love you like no other partner has ever loved you. I know that this is true because I had the Perfect Partner but we were too young to understand what we could lose. We thought we would always be able to get back together. At times, we discussed it. Yet, we were growing in different directions. Our wants and needs had changed but the Unconditional Love was always there. I know what being loved unconditionally feels like. I know that every woman I loved the most also loved me and felt that we would be friends for life.

I have not spoken much about the fact that the women who loved me the most are in my life in various ways. I do not hang out with X partners often. I know that we have built-in intimacy and there is no need to maintain close contact. Yet, my former partners do check in with me. We know each other to the core of our beings. We have shared dreams and telepathy. We have worked through the various issues over time. I am the one who always understands. I am the one who can handle all the layers of emotions and emotional intelligence. They know my imperfections, my idiosyncrasies. I know my Xes know me like no other women know me.

My conversations with x-partners are always deep and wide. Our friendships open us to discuss the relationship issues we all move through independently. My Xes all have met each other except my first partner who moved over eight hours away. Otherwise she would have met everyone too. I know several of my former partner’s x-partners. Everyone who knows me knows me intensely. I became accustomed to women sharing deep things about me with their partners. I learned that intimacy was sacred to me yet might not be sacred to a former partner. So, Extreme Jealousy of me has been an issue with women attracted to my former partners. I became desensitized to being talked about and feared. My last partner had told me that everyone talked about me as the Big X. Meanwhile, I was avoiding all of these women who were fearing meeting me. I felt that they could not understand me and I just did not want to deal with their insecurities. If a former partner is dating someone who does not want to meet me, I know that is a red flag. I know that partner is insecure because I am open hearted, truthful and casual. It is often said that I am intense but I am over it. I am now only interested in being friends with other intense women. Fuck the Insecure ones. Bless their hearts and fly away babies. I am too experienced for Big Babies.

I am seeing what other friends have been going through, similar emotional issues, similar needs to heal, and similar Soul Lessons. I have been sharing because I am tuned into the under currents of emotions from an extrasensory perceptive perspective. And, I feel that the women who tune into me are also fine tuning. Some of them are men too. However, I am sharing because I know as a Soul Group, we are learning to be more open hearted with each other and stop being in fear of being Heart Broken. I know everyone tuned into my Soul is learning about Love.

Love is a spectrum from care, compassion, passion and unconditional love. Everyone thinks that Unconditional Love is what we must give all the time or we are worthless and useless. No. We must have a priority list. No animal, no organism, no living creature is unconditional without a priority list. Try not feeding your dog every day. Either they will leave or steal food. The wild animals do not sit around giving themselves freely to predators. Like a rat jumps into the mouth with a snake? Hardly. We become confused because we are trained to let go of our Self. We need a Self. We need a Heart. We cannot give it away freely. Yet, we can own our emotions without committing our Heart and Self. We do not need to hide our Hearts. We merely need to learn to Love our Hearts to the point we do not place our Selves in Danger.

How can we do this? By being our selves, more and more and more until we accept that we are who we are and will only accept those who accept us for who were are. Love, Love, Love your Self with All Your Heart. When the One comes along, s/he will feel All Your Love… so will everyone else who you must just handle their love as friends and family…

You must realize that if you can give Unconditional Love so can your Perfect Partner.

The One will handle Your Heart with Unconditional Love.

Love and Light, Jedhi

Dec 07, 2016 5:02pm. I was looking in past posts and I found this dream. This dream was in the shower stall of the gymnasium I have been dreaming I have been doing astral healing with other women for a few years, This was a healing I felt was with my twin flame.

I am dedicating this song to all of my friends moving through heart pain in relationship in love. When you are need some time, alone to just get through the pain.

“November Rain”

When I look into your eyes I can see a love restrained But darlin’ when I hold you Don’t you know I feel the same

‘Cause nothin’ lasts forever And we both know hearts can change And it’s hard to hold a candle In the cold November rain

We’ve been through this such a long long time Just tryin’ to kill the pain

But lovers always come and lovers always go And no one’s really sure who’s lettin’ go today Walking away

If we could take the time To lay it on the line I could rest my head Just knowin’ that you were mine All mine So if you want to love me Then darlin’ don’t refrain Or I’ll just end up walkin’ In the cold November rain

Do you need some time…on your own Do you need some time…all alone Everybody needs some time… on their own Don’t you know you need some time…all alone

I know it’s hard to keep an open heart When even friends seem out to harm you But if you could heal a broken heart Wouldn’t time be out to charm you

Sometimes I need some time…on my own Sometimes I need some time…all alone Everybody needs some time… on their own Don’t you know you need some time…all alone

And when your fears subside And shadows still remain I know that you can love me When there’s no one left to blame So never mind the darkness We still can find a way ‘Cause nothin’ lasts forever Even cold November rain

Don’t ya think that you need somebody Don’t ya think that you need someone Everybody needs somebody You’re not the only one You’re not the only one

March 24, 2016 ·

Last week, I had a dream which was intense. We were in shower stall with a woman. She turned into a baby with white skin and chubby cheeks. I said to her, “We are going to start at the beginning.” So, I did a healing which opened her to move through the stages of being a baby growing up again all the way through becoming an adult in the span of holding her as an infant and growing through the stages of being an adult. I asked her name. She said, “Extreme jealousy.”

Apr 04, 2016 9:53pm . Some days ago, I had a dream where on a small bus my Pisces Soul Mate’s best friend was on it. She was listening to an intimate relationship conversation I was having. The bus stopped in front of my Ms. Pisces house. Some woman on the bus was looking at me. And, I said, “What? Do you know everything? I was dating 20 years ago” I felt it has to do with my Pisces Soul Mate. Her best friend has been in love with her since she was in high school. Ms. Pisces told me about 15 years ago that she had dreams where I was walking with them on the beach by her home. She would ask me what to do about her relationship with her best friend. Last month, we talked because she some dreams with me and called to discuss them. I. That convo, she told me about some questions her friend asked about me. She wanted to know if I was sexually attracted to my Ms. Pisces. I told here, “I will always love you unconditionally. But I am not in love with you.”

I added a list of reasons. I told her that she lives in our past which I grew out of and changed. She does not understand the changes inside me. She has not grown through her own healing processes but stagnated by repeating the past habits. And, I am bored with our past. I have been evolving through time. I also shared things that I never told her so she can understand that I need my spiritual partner who is with me on a mutual spiritual journey through life. She just had not broken through to her spiritual self. She a k ways needs me to break her open but she is afraid to go deeply inside her soul.

This relationship has been long-term. We live three hours away from each other. The dreams where I am explaining things about relationship has been amazing regarding we rarely talk but when we do, our discussions are life altering for her. Our relationship as Souls in the Astral relating information about our Soul Lessons is phenomenal and demonstrates my work with extrasensory perceptions and Mutual Dreaming. She knows that. My past partner was jealous when we were together. Yet, over time she too realized we have the same connection. That is my Astral Being communicates with Soul Mates.

My Astral Being communicates with Soul Mates who are also friends, family and people around the world. This has been a perplexing complex reality for me to explain. I was afraid my future partner would and could not understand. Fearing that my spiritual journey was a cause of jealousy and fear, I have spent the last two years opening my Heart and Soul to explain it so my final partner could and would completely understand my Life Purpose.

I am coming to a point of sensing I am arrived at completion. I have left no stone unturned. I have even explained to my past partners my intent and shared my process about my break throughs in being able and willing to share my Soul from the Heart of my Light Being-sharing directly from my Center of Perceiving Reality.

I do hope and wish Ms. Pisces and her best friend break through to Dreaming Together now that I have given them both my Word from my Heart and Soul in Mutual Dreams with them both separately. I wish they will both wake up to prepare their journey back to the Light as a couple, finally.

They do not know my Facebook address. I wish then both Love, Light and Happiness.

May All the Angels of Light Guide and Support You in the Astral and on Earth. Love & Light, J.