Sleepless nights

I’m wide awake it’s half past three
I close my eyes and try to catch sleep
Thoughts flowing in
You are filling in my head
Just like a river pouring into sea
The words you said; the things I did
Haunting in me; I wish were dead
I sit on my bed; my head starts to ache
My hands on my knees; head on my hands
I feel my tears running down my arms
Darkness only hear the sigh of my heart
My chest gets heavy
When my breath fills my lungs
How many times do I have to die
For my life to feel its pulse