Soul Mates, Twin Flames and other Flames… for Evolving Souls.
(The Gift – movie with Cate Blanchet, 2000.)
This is very much how I experience reality. Except, I actually talk to other people. I can prevent rapes and murders as well as save lives in other ways. I have been saving lives since I was in college. I was always psychic and had spirit guides since early childhood. I was injured in the military and had my near death experience under anesthesia for surgery. After that, I could no longer turn off my abilities. I had to learn to not only live with them but to aid,help and heal other souls, people. That is what I have been doing for tweny five years.
My first Near Death Experience was in 1969. My mother had a dream that I was killed in an automobile accident. While we were passengers in a car, my mother’s cousin driving, a drunk driver ran a red light. My mother recalled the dream instantly, broke my flight into the windshield. She sustained a coma for a few days, broke both legs, broke lumbar vertebra, cracker her forehead and almost died. I was out of body, watching the ambulance take my mother’s body out of the wreckage. I was told that I had to live so that my mother would have a reason to live. My mother was pregnant with my first sibling. He was born within a month later. Of course if my mother died, he would have died.
All of my childhood, I had spirit guides. My father’s father had introduced me to our ancestors when I was two years old. I had regular astral experiences and teachings. My first partner was also part Native American as I am. She had dreams with her mother and sister growing up. So, we had astral experiences with each other, including merging into the Light.
I have been astral and psychic my entire life. I recall choosing my mother in the sixties. I had and have regular visitations by people who have died. Many times, in my early twenties, I would be in a social situation and a deceased astral being would communicate through me. Often, I was saying things that did not make sense to me but made sense to someone else. I had to learn to handle this state of being. That meant, I had to meditate and handle being in control of my own mind, my thoughts as well as feelings and emotions. It was overwhelming to hear, see and feel spirits. Yet, learning to discipline my self and will power enabled me to handle my abilities throughout the rest of my adult life.
H0wever, because of being ultra sensitive, extrasensitive, I had always written in journals since high school. Though I do not keep those journals over time, I began typing them out to write books. I see visions which are color and three dimensional. I hear voices – male and female. In the astral, I have conversations with astral beings. I have been waking people up in the astral since I was in college. I began training groups in the mid-1990s.
I often say, as many psychics say, “It is a blessing and a curse.” Not everyone can handle the extrasensory experiences. Many people escape in many ways-drugs and religion even science. Keeping their minds busy, they avoid and ignore their own extrasensory senses. However, when I was a child my mother used to say, “If you do not pay attention and listen to your guidance, bad things will happen.” Sure enough, bad things happened. I almost tied more than once before I let go of avoiding and ignoring my guidance. I became a teacher because of the importance of extrasensory perception and experience is of great value, even actually our survival depends upon our senses and extrasensory senses. I would not be alive without them today. Neither would a lot of people, many I know as I have saved their lives whether they know it or not. I am not bragging. People need to learn that these gifts are real, valuable and can save lives.
Namaste,
Jedhi
“If I hadn’t learned from you about my ex from 30 years ago, I wouldn’t have tried again. Now I’ve wasted 30 years because there was no one to explain or guide. So many on the sites are broken and distraught because they don’t get where they are at and feel they have lost everything.” ~ Jed Heart anonymous member
Sacred Union Marriage Issues Checklist is a bullet proof bullet point list for troubleshooting intimacy issues in a partnership-any partnership between two consenting adults. If and when two consenting adults decide together to play out fantasies within the context of their intimacy, that is not covered here. Fantasy that is covered come from various sources including children’s fairy tales and other stories, television shows and movies, theater films and plays as well many other countless media sources. Role playing does not create emotional intimacy. Instead, role playing creates limits on individuals who have feelings and emotions. Creating a checklist of role playing characters each partner idolizes and seeks to act out as a means of acting romantic will open intimacy further. If and when both partners can communicate to each other about their internalized fantasies intimacy is able to seep through the role play characters and the real intimacy begins.
Beyond role playing, shedding off the layers of ideals is quite an amazing feat. There will be many layers of ideals that we can discover when we allow our partner to express what s/he feels, sees, hears as feedback. Ideals are very difficult to discern. We need to be able and willing to feel sacred, safe and secure to trust our partner to express our feelings and emotions freely. Our partner is more likely than not to point out our ideals as we tend to act and react emotionally in our relationship. Good starting points is writing a checklist of all the ways we say, “should”, “would”, “could”. It helps us in relationship if we can make troubleshooting intimacy as a game vs a means of being right vs wrong.
Mentioning right vs wrong, the need to be right is a sure sign of perfectionism. Yet, there are also many ways a person can demonstrate perfectionism. A checklist of needs vs wants can aid in troubleshooting perfectionist ideals. The exercise of feeling safe and secure enough to allow our partner to feel free to open her/his mind to associate layers of what s/he feels, thinks about what s/he expects to be perfect is ultra intimacy. This layer of expectation may be a very sensitive intimacy source of irritating agitating needs to feel loved. Consider a partner may have been expected to act towards others in certain ways as well as act to expect others to treat him/her in certain ways. Every person has unique expectations built from birth and childhood throughout adult relationships in all areas of life-family, school, work, religion, social, and other previous partners.
This article is part one of a three part series. At this point, it is enough to ponder fears of accepting and acknowledging our attractions and emotional responses to potential mates. Denial of our emotions can lead us to avoid, ignore and otherwise sabotage building intimacy at any point in a mutual attraction from before it manifests as a visible relationship or at any time between meeting to actually communicating, dating and oven well beyond into a marriage. Emotional hiding may occur at any time fear rears its head. Pondering fear will bring up enough memories of all ways and means we have felt embarrassed, humiliated, maybe even merely humbled. Shying away from sharing our feelings and opening our awareness to our emotions takes skill in self-flection and communication with others. Learning how to feel safety and security in order to feel we can trust others is not easy nor simple. It merely sounds good. In practice, it takes both courage and bravery to lose self-reflective self-consciousness and express our inner most hidden feelings and emotions with a potential partner or partner. Denial of emotions which are painful can cause all sorts of trust issues.
This is a point where Positive Thinking does not do the trick. It is self-examination, ruthless digging into the dungeons of our most hidden emotional laden memories which is the key to reveal our selves to our own selves and then to a partner. Sometimes, the potential partner or partner sees, hears and knows us better than we imagine as they are viewing our actions and reactions from the outside. It can obvious that we are denying our feelings and emotions. Of course that is in itself pain to become aware that we may not be able to hide from a potential mate. Yet, learning to accept and acknowledge our feelings and emotions even while we feel vulnerable is enough to break through our emotional patterns of hiding and denial. There is much to be pondered for one’s self and partner. A partnership will stall or a break up may occur if emotional withholding becomes habitual. If one party is not certain s/he can accept and acknowledge both parties are in relationship, whether discussed or not, it is time to create a list of questions starting with this one, “How do you feel about me and you?” or, “Are you thinking and feeling that we are heading into a relationship?” or, “Are we in a relationship?” A relationship may be happening or not happening depending on the intimacy both parties are able and willing to discuss about their definitions of relationship. No one needs or wants to feel s/he is off guard and in a relationship s/he has not agreed to enter as a partner. Sometimes, one or both parties merely need a check in to discuss their relationship basis and define their feelings and emotions more than they previously discussed. At some point, a relationship exists for both or it does not. And, this must be agreed upon by both consenting adults to accept and acknowledge that they are both in partnership in the relationship.
To be continued… Part Two, Part Three
Enjoy,
Jedhi
My first Near Death Experience was in Oct 1969. My mother was 8 months pregnant with my first sibling, my first brother. I was two and a half. A drunk driver ran a red light and hit the side of the car. My mother remembered a dream she had a few months before the accident while the car accident was occuring. In her dream, I died in the accident. In my memories, I died. I was told that if I died, my mother and brother would die. My mom was in a coma for a few days. I lost my left ear but they sewed it back on. I also have a scar that is finally invisibe.
I have never been afraid of death. I have always been able to astral travel. I had spirit guides from childhood on. I wanted to die. I told all of my high school friends I was going to die in a car accident at age nineteen. I was in a car accident as a passenger and I almost broke my neck. Instead, I had to live. Then, I had join the military. I was injured before being sent to Officer School. I had a majory bone reconstruction surgery and woke while under the knife. I was very upset with the doctors as I almost died. I was telling them off but they could not hear me. I had pneumonia after surgery because I had an allergic and asthmatic reaction to the anesthesia.
After nearly dying more than once while in various surgeries, finally one Anesthesiologist told me, “The longest part of the surgery was getting you to breathe.” I can go to the Light at any time as it became my so called gift. But for all the years
I was afraid of what it meant, what people would think, say and do I had to learn to handle that I am 1) not going to die, 2) not going to not be who I am for what I see, hear, do and know.
I was afraid of what it meant, what people would think, say and do I had to learn to handle that I am 1) not going to die, 2) not going to not be who I am for what I see, hear, do and know. The hardest part about dying is leaving loved ones behind. I was shown in my Life Reviews what it would feel like if I left before my time. When you can feel their pain but they cannot feel you, that is the hardest part. That is why I am alive. I live for those who need my love.
J.
@Jedheart007
#LiveLoveLight
When I was a child, I had very good mentors, spiritual guidance. However because life presents tradgedy and trauma, I questioned my early guidance. Not to mention, I became a teenager which meant everything I learned was in a toss up. Being psychic and not being able to speak about it outside of family, I had to hide my real self. That did not last very long until I had my Near Death Experience. Though, I thought I was going to go crazy, I was given a second chance to allow my heart and mind to grow towards the Light. I learned that I was always loved by all the beings in my life. And, I learned that Love is the only real reason to Live. Because I learned at such an early age, I have lived my life with the intention, most of the time. But what I have been working on in the world, as a Light Being and Human Being is to bridge the gap between the two experiences of Reality.
I learned what it felt like to be in an intense Soul to Soul, Dreamer to Dreamer, relationship beginning at age sixteen. For six years, I had that luxury. And, it was a luxury. One never knows what one loses until one tosses it out the window. When perfection is gone, there is nothing to replicate it. That is how I felt. Then, I discovered that Love comes from the Light. My first relationship, we merged in our astral bodies in the Light. We thought that was the epitome of relationship. Yet, the next experience, I awoke as a Being of Luminous Light. That shocked me. I had awoken as the creator like a god within God. It took me years to release behavioral patterns to align with my Light Being. And, still I work on releasing emotional patterns after over twenty five years.
In all those years, I had been seeking my perfect mate. I knew that I was being drawn to Soul Mates. I had coined the term Soul Flames to describe a Soul Mate which caused an Awakening to the Light. Yet, the Soul Flame would not offer the entire spectrum necessary to continue on as a lifetime partner. I was asking the Source to lead me, to guide me to understand the meaning of the Soul Flame relationship. On that quest, I learned Soul Lessons beyond my wildest imagination.
Through relationship after relationship where I learned Soul Lessons and healed my Soul again and again, I realized I was in an evolutionary state of transitioning from one state of being to another. In the early ninenties, the book Twin Souls had opened a new world of relationship to me. I had not taken it seriously at that time. I did not know if it was another New Age paradigm. My own experiences were not described in the mystical or paranormal literature. Since May 2014 when I asked my Light Being to guide me to my Twin Flame, I have been asking deep core questions about the meaning of the Soul Flame relationship.
The basis of what I have learned has come through to me regarding our ability and willingness to share deeper and deeper intimately. Through my relationships, I had felt as if I had been at times talking to walls. I felt that I was trying to communicate from the depths of my soul yet my partner might not be able to understand. I had learned through dreams and dreaming with a partner that we can know each other directly through our dreams. Yet, waking to dreams posed surmountable emotional fears. And, to break through those fears, one must meditate and ponder the meaning as well as release the inner anxieties and fears. And, to be able to handle all of that within relationship, both partners must be able to allow each other to feel fear and pain when deep emotions emerge. I began to realize that the only way to handle this was to be able to openly speak about my own experiences so that I could at least create a model for communicating from my deepest core self.
Last year, I realized that I had to break through my own emotional fears regardless of having a partner. I had to break free from withholding pain and allow myself to freely share with other regardless of criticism, judgement and their own fears of feeling emotions. I realized that those of us who have had a lifetime of relationship experience, deep intimacy and desire for direct intimacy must as a Soul Group, a Planetary Soul Group, share as a collective. Our lifetime of sharing intimacy with partners, sharing deep core soul feelings and emotions could crack open a new basis for being in relationship.
Being Human is what I have been asigned to be. I had several Near Death Experiences since I was two and a half years old. I had come in with a formed astral body and sense of control in the astral. I had spiritual teachers in my family, ancestral guides as well as other guides in the spirit. I was not allowed to travel back to the Light and leave the planet until I am done here. That realization came in 1999. I had been leaving my body, heading toward the Light. My guide would not allow me to leave. I had to stay. Merely because I have control in the astral and Light did not give me the power to forego my contract to be Human.
Being Human means embracing the Human Being, the body with all the feelings and emotions just like the all the other animals. To understand how to handle the depths of feelings and emotions, we have to delve into them. We have to allow ourselves to feel through our feelings and allow our emotions to give us signals about those feelings. Being Human is being Multidimensional. We sense through layers of our Being. To understand our selves, we must allow our selves to teach us. Like driving a car, we learn what the car can do, how it manuevers, then we learn to handle driving it. We learn by doing.
To be able to handle relationship, we not only must know our own selves, we must also be able to communicate from within. As we move through relationship, we must be able to share as we learn about ourselves. That places us on the cutting edge, the bleeding edge of being vulnerable-being authentic, being real. Maybe we should change the spelling of relationship to relationship.
The phrase, “I love you.” does not cut it. It does not state the perceptions of feeling and emotions. It is more like on icing on the cake. I have been meditating for over a year about how to communicate from deeper layers of the soul. First, of course, dreams are essential. Yet, sensing while awake, the body being awake, means that there are all kinds of feelings and sensory experiences occuring. How are we to learn to share if we have no language to share our deep sensory experiences with a partner? That is the question that I have posed to my Light Being.
I felt as I have moved through sharing the experiences of being Light, being Light with other Light Beings, my experiences of merging in the Light, I have been working toward being able to share from the core of my Soul. And, I feel that breaking through my fears of sharing such Sacred Intimacy, I am breaking through to be able to share words, phrases and other linugistic means of communication which I feel will eventually open a dialoge with other Plantetary Souls who will be able to help co-create a Language of Love and Light. I mean, that we need to be able to express our experiences with our partners, and close intimates be they friends, family our Soul Group. I feel that there is no other choice. We are evolving and we must learn to communicate from our Light Beings.
Namaste,
Jedhi
My evolution from being a private person–dreaming with my spirit guides to being a public person dreaming with people around the world has been one of intense inner growth. My fear that I could not find a partner given that I can dream with people around the world has been a real one. My astral being is more than I am as a person. I can only merely communicate as a human whereas my astral being can travel through space and time, from past to present to future in no order whatsoever other than what is presented as necessary for learning and healing. I literally have been afraid that no partner could handle the visceral sensitivity I require to be in an intimate relationship. I had been withholding my feelings and emotions based on my past experiences.
All of last year, I was battling with myself to allow myself to feel my feelings and express my emotions. I have written all about that. However, it is a real situation. My partner has to be on board with being able to feel and emote. I cannot do that alone in a two-way relationship. Not only that, but my partner also has to grow beyond her own fears of being aware that she is also an astral being who can also be present in space, time, past, present and future in no order other than her own soul ordains necessary. That is a tall order. Albeit, I made the request for that order to my Luminous Light Being.
So, what kind of things are going on that I am feeling I need to express now? Talking about being a Spirit Guide while one is alive is not actually been easy to do. We have had all kinds of labels for people who can astral travel and heal and teach others in the astral. However, in 2003, I was shown that my Luminous Light Being is a Spirit Guide and that I am that being in the Light. This self-realization falls flat on the ears of atheists, and squelches of ears of theists. Even those who are Buddhists are skeptical, criticial and judgemental. However, that only leaves Yogis. Yoga has been usurped by athletes. But the real Yoga means Union as in Union with Source or God. And, authentic Yogis become Spirit Guides in the Flesh. That is what Yogis do.
I have not discussed any particular belief system because no belief gets you beyond the Mind. God Realization is an Ultimate State of Being. For all intent purposes, being Self-Realized has all the heartache of Non-Self-Realized. The real test of Union with Source is Facing Opposition. Love of Other as Self is the Goal. And there is a real problem with people who do not feel that once one begins this path s/he can have a partner. That is why I began Jed Heart. Yes, we can have Union with Source and with Partner.
To be in Partnership with a Twin Flame means we are working on the same Soul Issues that divide All of Us from Source. I mean, the Twin Flame Partner has worked through most of their Soul Lessons and the remaining ones are Shared with the Twin Flame. Those remaining Soul Lessons may be the hardest lessons. That is often why the Twin Flame relationship is the hardest one to yield and let go of our power issues. I am no different in that respect. I have enjoyed astral travel from young childhood. Being able to willingly handle my own astral experiences and learn and grow has been a life time of adventure. Sharing that adventure has been a blessing. But sharing my power, that has yet to occur at the level of Twin Flame Partnership. I have equally feared it and desired sharing power. However, I know that is going on.
I have to have a great sense of humor to be able to handle my own inner battles over power. I have a great sense of humor. And, some days, I am perfectly happy to not share my power. On other days, I would love to share my power. It is not about myself though. It is about the evolution of my Soul. And, my Soul does not accept my human excuses. As embarrassing as that is true, it is true. If I do not comply with my Luminous Light Being, I will dream all kinds of alternate realities. I will be shown what is wrong with my thinking and I will have to adjust my self. It is as simple as that. It can be quite embarrasing that I know that not just my own Light Being does this but that all Light Beings have this same awareness of each other. That is the real blessing in disguise. In the Light, we are transparent, we cannot hide.
And, so that is an incentive to keep releasing all kinds of internal excuses and denial about sharing power. Withholding my power withholds sharing on a planetary level. And, that is not funny. Our planet needs all of the Light Beings present and available to teach, heal, and pass on our knowledge of accessing the Light for generations to come. This Twin Flame movement is about that: bringing Powerful Souls into Union to Save Our Planet. That is the bottom line. So, there, I said it, it is a battle between self and Self- litle self and Greater Self in the World. Choosing Your Mate is Greater than You and Your Mate. It is about Being the Best You, the Best Both of You.
Jedhi
I have been having a lot of powerful flying dreams in the last year. Last night, I was showing off my flying skills. I was demonstrating how to avoid a major storm system. When I went to sleep, I had felt I wanted to discuss issues about relationship, power and handling power with a partner. I wanted to discuss the core issues that are incorrect about current teachings in the Twin Flames movement. I began the Jed Heart Project to open up my own personal life experiences as a Light Being.
For years, I had trained groups of an average of seven people to dream together, learning and practicing astral skill sets. I know by experience of dreaming with people around the world since my mid-twenties which is around twenty five years, that the most common misconception about Twin Flame relationship is telepathy. My first relationship began when I was sixteen. That relationship validated spiritual teachings I had received throughout my childhood. We had mutual dreams and were telepathic. And, we both merged as astral beings in the Light in the last year we were together. We both did a tremendous amount of inner work for several years as friends. When you love someone unconditionally, you may not need to be with them to love them. You can still maintain soul work at a distance. We learned how to process our emotions separately without being sexually intimate.
That opened me to being able to handle more intimacy. I went to college while I was working. But when I transferred to the University, I attended full time. At that time, after my partnership ended, I began meeting Soul Mates. I was surrounded by a group of friends and learned that I could dream with them. They were confused by this fact. It was intense for me to navigate layers of intimacy with friends who I was not attracted to be lovers. And, that perplexed some of my Soul Mates. On their end, they experienced this intimacy as meaning it is a relationship as in love relationship. So, for me, I already had mutual dreams and telepathy with my group of Soul Mates in college over twenty years ago.
I developed workshops to train small groups of people to handle the intense intimacy of group mind, mutual dreaming. I was guided to design and develop workshops to bring out ancient tribal teachings. In our modern world, people had become estranged to their own extrasensory perceptions. And, for those of us Extra Sensitives and Ultra Sensitives, we were living in an underground bubble of communicating with each other through various groups. The Spiritualist Groups was a main source of meeting other people who had various so called gifts. As part of my childhood, I was introduced into Spiritualist Groups around the age of twelve. That was a formal means of stepping up into becoming an adult Ultra Sensitive in the 70s. However, my teachings from my guides were outside the Box-every box. As many of the teachers at the time, I traveled to people’s homes and taught private workshops. Later, I scheduled workshops and needed to rent space. Over time, I was traveling up to 35 weekends a month-performing headings, giving presentations, working one on one and in group My life was dominated by my schedule. My schedule was exhausting.
Every spiritual teacher who anyone has heard about or never heard about goes through his missionary phase of experience. People crave spiritual awakening, guidance, mentorship and training. our world had become bankrupt from ancestors being persecuted, tortured and killed for nearly two millennium. In ancient and primordial times, one group could over take another group of people by assassinating the powerful leaders, elders and women of a clan or tribe. Over time, the abilities to protect elders and women became a primary goal in order to protect the natural intelligence of a group-clan or tribe. Creating new ways to innovate astral skills was a primary task of Spiritual Warriors of both male and females. I am such a product of an ancient blood line. And, that means, I had to learn astral skill sets which can alleviate an opposing force such as storm system. The power of dreams is not merely in dreaming or in sleep. The power comes from our astral connection to Source. Without that connection there is only illusions and delusions.
Understanding how to compare and contrast the variations of dreams, dream skill sets are required. Those skill sets can predicate fate and destiny. Without those skills, only wishful thinking can occur. And, that is where we are in our World Wide Spiritual Movement. We are in need of leaders and healers with intense intentional skill sets. I had hoped to find my own mate when i had opened to accepting a partner. The skill set I have must be matched and synchronized wtih a partner. I have an affinity to work within Soul Groups. I can work with many groups and attune to them in order to train them. However to work with a partner, I need to be attuned to my partner just as animals are attuned. I need to be so synchronized that it feels like we are moving as One in Two Bodies. I understand the requirements. I understand the intimacy. I also understand that a Mutual Vision of Purpose needs to arise in order for synchronization of teachings, healing and other skills sets.
Not everyone is going to be a healer and teacher in the world at large. That is a great task to take on clients and students around the world. To give a picture of what is required to be a World Renown Spiritual Healer and Teacher, take a microcosmic snapshot of handling closer relationships. All of the closer Soul Group relationships must be evolving. All of the work we do within our closer Soul Groups, we must continue to do while we are expanding into other Soul Groups. Otherwise, we become emotionally distant those those we love the most. That is an inherent danger. We do not need to become solitary spiritual yogis to evolve. Those on the path of spiritual evolution must also be resolving Soul Mate, Soul Group evolution prior to Twin Soul and Twin Flame relationships. All of the relationships must reflect a pattern of evolving. That does not mean any one person or group is perfect beyond human imperfection. We are not faceted diamonds. We are not solid geometric forms. We are evolving, transforming, moving sentient beings with anima-Life Force.
Personally, I keep moving through my own evolution of relationships with family and friends. To be very candid, I have former love relationships just like many other people in the world. However, my relationships are based on a continuum. I have had mutual dreams with Soul Mates who are past partners. When there is an issue that I am working on deeply in my Soul Work, I may have a dream with a past partner. Some of my past partners share dreams openly with me at times. I share some of my dreams with past partners if there is a need. I am being very candid about this fact. To make space and time for partner, I have meditated on discerning the difference between a Soul Mate, Soul Flame and Twin Flame.
I can only imagine that my Twin Flame will take on the power of handling a scale of healing, teaching and being in the Light with me as an equal mate. What that would look like for myself and partner, I had left that blank. I had left public work in order to continue writing to support Light Teachings. Life circumstances brought me head on with the facts of life. I had to handle the deaths of family members, move three hours north of my old home base, transition out of relationship, and then ground my life again. I spent a lot of inner work processing relationship and family issues. I was coming back to layers of my self, working from reflecting on childhood memories, then teen-age, working my way to present time. I am so glad I finally hit that by last fall. I made full circle.
In the Ancient Greek teachings on Twin Souls, it is stated that we learn through our Soul Mate relationships and then we arrive at a point where we have accumulated Soul Knowledge. At this point, we lose interest in Soul Mates. It is a natural transition for those Souls who have been evolving. The Platonic School was a school of deep thought and self-reflection. Know Thy Self is the motto. So, it is those Souls who Self-Reflect who arrive at losing interest in Soul Mates. And, at that point their only attraction is to complete the cycle of learning with a Twin Soul. In the Platonic School, it was said that the Soul evolved for 2000 years before arriving at the last life time. When I experienced being given my Soul Name and Light Body Purpose, I was given the summary of All my Past Lifetimes. In that message, the Entire Summary of the Meaning of All My Past Lifetimes meant that I had been a Spiritual Healer and Teacher many times and I was being awakened to remember my ongoing mission as a Spiritual Teacher.
In this Life, I was to take out a set of Light Teachings to the World. That was intense and overwhelming for me. Since that time, I had to learn to handle more and more energy in the astral. I had to handle periods of releasing all kinds of internal emotional and mental patterns. I had to let go of other people projecting onto me. I had to let go of what others felt and thought about me. I had to learn keep my heart open and yet not feel personal about other people’s personal issues. I had to accept that my life is not one that is my own in the sense of feeling that I was sought in dreams and daily life. I retreated into my private world, intending to have a family life after all and share my life with my close circles of friends and family. Two years ago, it became clear to me that the world was ready for understanding what I know. I had been preparing to handle a partner and maintain a private life in order to prepare for a public life. Knowing and sensing that my natural partner would do this on her own without me knowing or helping in any way, I have kept that part of my life open to processing changes I needed to make and intimacy I would need to cultivate.
Being that I am communicating with Soul Groups, the issues would be vast. For instance, when I worked with one of my partners, we did healing and teachings together. During our travels and work with individuals and groups, we were constantly faced with deeper layers of Soul Group memories and emotional materials. For instance we were working with a group. One member of the group had come to us both to tell us about her partnership issues. We both discussed what she was telling us each in the astral. I had to take her aside and let her know that her astral being had been communicating her relationship problems with both of us. On other occasions, we both had simultaneous past life memories with various clients and students. One of the prevalent past lifetimes was Ancient Egypt. One year, I began having clients, students have memories of being a Caveman. I also had memories of being a Caveman at that time. So, there were these various processes I had to process with my partner while we did spiritual work together.
One issue which effected our personal relationship is that my partner was not able to open her own Light. She needed me to use my astral body to clear her astral body by bringing in the Light. First. we were traveling hundreds of miles and up to a thousand miles in a weekend on a regular basis. I was healing and teaching people to handle the Light. My partner asking me to take her to the Light during the week was more work for me. And, in addition, she had been raised Catholic in a Catholic country in Europe. So, she had this constant sense of me being like Jesus. This was driving me nuts. I had no intent on emulating Spiritual Masters who would be viewed as non-human.
I embraced my human nature. Yet, often the work of taking people to the Light opened me to this projection of being non-human. This incessant ideation of being a cult figure is a serious problem. To break free from this problem, I had to continually delve into my human nature to release the core issues. Being center of attention is a human experience. Being loved, respected and cherished by many people is an honor. Yet to be expected to be perfect continually then be criticized and judged for being a real human is a intense emotional stress. It becomes a crisis when those around you cannot handle the stress with you. The stresses on my partners working on handling my public life was immense. There was the personal intensity of sharing dreams and telepathy. From what I have been told by past partners, that part was intense. In addition, adding the intensity that I had mutual dreams, healing dreams and telepathy added dimensions of intensity. One major issue was jealousy. Naturally, any partner who could not handle the layers of Soul Group issues could not handle relationship with me. Letting go of intimacy is heart breaking. I needed to understand how to handle extreme layers of intimacy while in partnership.
A lot of Twin Flame authors refer to Surrender often. Surrender has many layers of self for certain. I have never had a problem with Surrendering to relationship. I have documented my astral merging processes since I was sixteen years old. I have been focusing on intimacy–intimacy in the astral, intimacy in mutual dreams, sharing dreams, sharing experiences in both Life and Light. Imagine merging in the astral with a partner in the Light. This is to me is the ultimate merging experience. I have yet to discuss sexual intimacy referring to being in the Light. I can state that astral merging with a partner in the Light is erotic. There is no sexual equivalent by merely having sex. It is true that you do not need to touch. It is also true that you can be at distance from anywhere in the world. Our Astral Beings are not bound by time nor space. However, to harness the energy of both Souls, they must be united in the physical. The physical is where we manifest as human beings. The purpose of the merge is harness the creative power of both Souls.
Being able to handle Light in relationship requires equal power as well as equal vulnerability.
Handling both power and vulnerability requires emotional and mental honesty. As layer of psyche and emotion release deeper patterns of memories, astral connections with other astral beings in the Soul Group–family, friends, clients, students, people we meet anywhere and everywhere–both partners need to be able to hold the space and time to heal with each other as well as transform, shift and evolve as a partnership to gain power as team, a couple. This entire process is like making a soup or fruit smoothie. All of the ingredients are added to create layers of taste, texture, nutritional value. The end result is an edible meal. A relationship has so many other layers that all those parts need to come together with the finesse of a chef creation. In other words, the couple needs to be presentable to offer a palette of healing and teaching within the Soul Group. If nothing is happening but emotional chaos, there is no central power and there is not discernable intelligence. And, there is no spiritual teachings. From out of the ashes, a Phoenix should arise. If that is not happening for both partners in synchronization, their partnership is not a Twin Flame Union. It seems to sound harsh. The standard for a relationship should not be whether it is a Twin Flame Union or not. The standard should be the Surrender of Power and Vulnerability to create Intimacy, period. A Twin Flame Union is not necessary to feel love, be in love, be in life long committed relationship.
A Twin Flame Union should not be viewed as the only way to evolve. All along, people evolved. I came into this life with astral experience and developed astral navigation as a child. I thought my first relationship was going to be my last. We both thought and felt we would be together forever and especially after we merged in the Light as astral beings. Yet, that relationship became the foundation for more than I imagined would come to pass. The only reason I felt called to seek out and find my Twin Flame is because of meditation, self-realization and open discussions with Soul Mates over my lifetime. Knowing that I had reached this point where I could not feel emotionally comfortable with any other partner than someone I could share the depth, the Light of my Heart, I realized I could no longer be with a Soul Mate based partner.
For some, it may come as a complete shock of realization that a Twin Flame can exist. For me, it is my lifetime of enlightenment, meditating, asking the Light, waiting for visions and voices for guidance. I expect to meet a Twin Soul who is as familiar with me n the astral, in dreams as I am herself. Before the past year, I did not understand how to handle a Twin Flame articulating what her experience of me meant to her. Now, after deep self-reflection, I do understand that though we may have this astral awareness of each other, our language, terminology, words, metaphors to describe and explain our own individual and unique perceptions may be different. And, I have to be prepared to handle dialogue, discussion, asking “What did you mean?”; “Why are you saying this or that word?”; “What does that mean to you?”; “What does this relationship mean to you?” Things I took for granted because I was going by my own psychic senses, I can no longer take for granted. I have to be clear and clarify. This is a process to clear out the emotional and mental confusion surrounding communicating intimately, fine tuning, learning to compare and contrast each other’s awareness of self, each other and life.
I also believe that if we think we are starting out in a Soul Mate relationship, we may end up in a Twin Flame relationship if both parties continue on the ultimate path of Surrender and Intimacy. It is my goal to highlight as many spiritual based relationship issues as possible and share them so that as our world evolves, people can initiate Spiritual Relationships earlier and earlier at younger and younger ages. This evolution brings a balance to the planet. Instead of single mothers, divorce rates and scattered broken hearts throughout each land mass and island, we can work toward bringing more enlightenment to more people, sooner, younger and prepare them to handle the evolution of Life and Light.
I do write for those who can understand the intention of the information I share as I am humbly offering it knowing that those who receive it are endowed with experience and knowledge and are working through similar relationship issues as spiritual beings evolving on a spiritually evolving planet. Breaking free from the power struggles to be able to share our spiritual selves has been an evolutionary process and we need to be able to handle more intimacy as we surrender to the planetary healing to support each other. No one does this work alone while we may feel alone. My dream, demonstrating the Power of Flying regardless of a Storm System emerging opened me to share more about Power and Vulnerability. Relation–ship is all about handling Fair Weather and Stormy Weather. Can we fly together? That is the question. That answer, “Yes!”
Namaste,
Jedhi